Friday, April 18, 2008

out of the ordinary

tuesday:
i felt tired - don't know why i was quite lethargic and drowsy the whole day even though i slept earlier the night before
i felt very happy - my best napfa score ever
i felt extremely sad/disappointed - worst afternoon of the year. but i've moved on, knowing that i wasn't in best vocal condition. i'll just um learn and be better. just that i'm afraid that there might not be a next time to prove anything.

wednesday:
i felt really tired/frustrated - couldn't sing very well. neck/throat hurt from napfa sit-ups >.< and it kinda sucks when you sleep earlier and wake up feeling even more tired.

yesterday:
i felt fatigued - woke up thinking that it was saturday...
i felt surprised/excited - my class had our first attire check ever. and half about half the guys in class failed because of long hair. ha. ha.
i felt determined yet fearful - ns talk during civics reminded me that i have 2.5 months to train and exercise before medical. and that i really want to get into ocs. even though command school is 38 weeks of hardcore training (as long as a pregnancy term)

today:
i felt slightly less tired than the rest of the week - had some energy to tell my brain to move my limbs to get out of bed at 6.10 to go for publicity busking at unearthly hours in the morning. and i remembered that i was 18 years and 1 week old this morning. hmm the week went by rather quickly.

why have i been feeling so tired lately?

i really do think i'm slowly becoming more mature. i genuinely felt happy and proud when julian told me he got a silver for napfa on wednesday. and again today when kia liang said before econs lecture that he scrapped a gold =) and i'm getting much better at controlling my emotions. i think. like i don't flare up too easily now that i analyse what i'm feeling before i do anything. at least i hope i do that all the time now.

bleah i don't want medical to come...especially after hearing about chris' experience yesterday :( i think my body will sprout mushrooms after all the contact with the (ugh) x-ray machine and (ugh) highly disturbing photographer person. hope kia liang's medical went well today.

thank God that i have lots of friends who care about me (thanks for reminding me that Suet). woke up from a dead-sleep-nap this afternoon and in my post-nap daze opened my file of cards and notes and letters from people to re-read some of my most treasured ones. then while i was still in a blur-daze (which is the time when you are either very easily agitated or very sentimental) my heart was ooooozing warmth. haha.

i get very annoyed at half-bimbos.

whizzer; 8:48:00 pm