Friday, January 18, 2008
ivan said something to me while he quan and i were sitting on the watermelon steps today eating the packet dinner from MT'licious. can't remember what happened exactly, but the context was something like me being annoyed at how the night was progressing and how the party is more for the J1 OGs etc etc. then he said, "smile, because God loves you" (or w.t.t.e). wah then i was quite...err...moved. yeah so i thought that was worth blogging about :D goodnight (:
whizzer; 11:54:00 pm
Wednesday, January 16, 2008
hello! i'm taking time off my precious studying time to blog! i think these days i only update when i'me feeling extremely happy or very sian and sad >.<
today was one of those sian days this year (so far) which seem to happen more often recently, just that i'm only blogging about it coz its just about one of the most disappointing times of the month.
somehow since the start of school this year, i've been very motivated by some unknown force to work hard until A's in 10 months time, and i suppose its starting to show a little result. and just when i was starting to feel slightly more confident about being able to achieve much more academically, the school system comes and pricks my nicely forming bubble. not that i don't agree with the reasoning, to cut a long story short and to save my precious mugging time, i just think its not fair that the school doesn't want to give students an opportunity to prove that they can do it (or at least try). this probably sounds quite incoherent but i just felt that. yeah. but whatever happens, i will have the peace of mind knowing that everything will work out according to God's purpose for my life. and this thought has kept me going a few times already the past 2 and a half weeks.
well anyway, had pizza lunch meeting with mr toh and ms tan and mr pan, who is super cool and whom i'm glad is our teacher i/c. its these random things and just not having to do anything specific that help to distract me from whatever's on my mind. so after mr toh left practice and sectionals where superficial things seemed to have clouded my mind, it was very sian again T.T i mean i was going through my sian phase again. and for some reason when people were talking about the music and what not i was thinking to myself that i don't care about singing anymore, and why should i care that we're working towards some intangible goal, because soon it will be all gone. not that i was contributing much anyway. then i started getting annoyed that we couldn't achieve simple stuff like getting the rhythm right. then i remembered that i suck too. so i was super irritated at myself. and lots of other things. then i realised i'm not doing this for whoever else i might think of or even myself, and i was being shallow and childish in a way. then i remembered that in whatever i do, there should only be one objective and point of focus. so i sort of stopped feeling too sian =S
haha i think val is right in a way when she frequently exclaims that "life sucks". especially this year. you can't even afford to breakdown and stop doing whatever you're doing, because you'll be swept away and end up struggling to keep on top of everything. like when you feel that you're just going through the routine and not actually achieving anything and you want to have your own quiet space for a while to recover and take stock of your life. thank God for always being there to depend on.
oh and another thing that's bugging me are the issues that keep presenting themselves that involve a conflict of beliefs of my own that i don't really have answers to. i hope this sian/emotional/mood-swing phase ends soon. i don't like feeling sad..its so unnatural.
thanks quan for always being so sensitive. and thanks suet for running all the way towards raffles room to say bye and be concerned (: i missed julian at math lecture today :( hahaha get well soon julian!! X)
whizzer; 9:50:00 pm
Tuesday, January 01, 2008
Facing The Giants
Facing The Giants is an absolutely amazing movie to watch. Its such a moving and motivational show that it really touches your heart. And its not the same as when you watch a movie where like someone's loved one dies from some terminal illness and you feel very emotional and whatever. I've never even come close to crying when watching any movie before coz i'm extremely macho and not overly emotional or sensitive X), but during the 2nd half and towards the end of Facing The Giants, I coulnd't help tearing. Good thing my parents didn't see me crying coz it would have been kinda awkward >.< You have to watch it to experience the kind of emotional attachment and truth in the movie. I just finished watching it and simply had to publicise it. Here's the link to the official website:
http://facingthegiants.com/home.phpThis is a short synopsis:
In his six years of coaching, Grant Taylor has never had a winning season. Even the hope of a new season is squelched when the best player on his Shiloh Eagles decides to transfer schools. After losing their first three games of the season, the coach discovers a group of fathers are plotting to have him fired. Combined with pressures at home, Coach Taylor has lost hope in his battle against fear and failure.
However, an unexpected challenge helps him find a purpose bigger than just victories. Daring to trust God to do the impossible, Coach Taylor and the Eagles discover how faith plays out on the field … and off.
With God, all things are possible …
For more info, check out the website or google it...
anyway here are some quotes from the movie -
"I want God to bless this team so much people will talk about what He did. But it means we gotta give Him our best in every area. And if we win, we praise Him. And if we lose, we praise Him. Either way we honor Him with our actions and our attitudes. So I'm askin' you... What are you living for? I resolve to give God everything I've got, then I'll leave the results up to Him. I want to know if you'll join me."
"With God, nothing is impossible."
I somehow have the DVD at home, so if you want (and I strongly recommend that you watch it coz its really really really good) just ask me, I can lend you for your viewing pleasure (:
That's it for now..got a proposal to finish. yay school -.-
whizzer; 3:38:00 pm
