Friday, April 25, 2008

potatoes

sometime yesterday in class when i was day dreaming, i remembered that when i started this blog i meant for it to be like a diary coz writing takes too long and my handwriting in sec 2 was too fat and ugly. haha so i shall blog like a diary entry! but i think its quite dumb to talk to your diary as in "Dear Diary".


Dear Bennett-who-is-older-than-he-was-when-he-posted-this-entry,

The Dark Is Rising is really a lame movie. The plot is quite bad and uh >.<-ish. managed to sort of resume my cycling regime again today after chem tuition. haha must remember to tell lois about "louis" and trip and stuff. haha private joke.

This afternoon when stoning at the ticket booth i resolved to be happier and more care-free about things so my face won't droop like how my mum says its starting to -.- then 5 minutes ago i was bouncing around in my blog archives and felt sad when i saw a november 2007 post :( i just wish nothing changed since last year. then 4.5 minutes ago when i finished reading the post there was a sudden emptiness inside me...or maybe i'm just hungry ._____. anyway i'll still try to be happier tomorrow. yay full day prac. i'm really not that lousy at singing. hmm i still can't decide if i should go for jazz and be slightly bored coz i think jazz is very slow and sleepy and just enjoy the company of chorale friends or go home and mug.

one of my favouritest photos from RV prague-slovakia tour in 2006 =)


I was striving to be happy and to stop being annoyingly emo and weird but now i'm little bit sad :(

and i frequently press the blue star on suetopus and giggle to myself haha.


I will stop exclaiming amasuet.

Off to mug organic chem and sleep by 11.

bye Bennett

whizzer; 9:45:00 pm

Friday, April 18, 2008

out of the ordinary

tuesday:
i felt tired - don't know why i was quite lethargic and drowsy the whole day even though i slept earlier the night before
i felt very happy - my best napfa score ever
i felt extremely sad/disappointed - worst afternoon of the year. but i've moved on, knowing that i wasn't in best vocal condition. i'll just um learn and be better. just that i'm afraid that there might not be a next time to prove anything.

wednesday:
i felt really tired/frustrated - couldn't sing very well. neck/throat hurt from napfa sit-ups >.< and it kinda sucks when you sleep earlier and wake up feeling even more tired.

yesterday:
i felt fatigued - woke up thinking that it was saturday...
i felt surprised/excited - my class had our first attire check ever. and half about half the guys in class failed because of long hair. ha. ha.
i felt determined yet fearful - ns talk during civics reminded me that i have 2.5 months to train and exercise before medical. and that i really want to get into ocs. even though command school is 38 weeks of hardcore training (as long as a pregnancy term)

today:
i felt slightly less tired than the rest of the week - had some energy to tell my brain to move my limbs to get out of bed at 6.10 to go for publicity busking at unearthly hours in the morning. and i remembered that i was 18 years and 1 week old this morning. hmm the week went by rather quickly.

why have i been feeling so tired lately?

i really do think i'm slowly becoming more mature. i genuinely felt happy and proud when julian told me he got a silver for napfa on wednesday. and again today when kia liang said before econs lecture that he scrapped a gold =) and i'm getting much better at controlling my emotions. i think. like i don't flare up too easily now that i analyse what i'm feeling before i do anything. at least i hope i do that all the time now.

bleah i don't want medical to come...especially after hearing about chris' experience yesterday :( i think my body will sprout mushrooms after all the contact with the (ugh) x-ray machine and (ugh) highly disturbing photographer person. hope kia liang's medical went well today.

thank God that i have lots of friends who care about me (thanks for reminding me that Suet). woke up from a dead-sleep-nap this afternoon and in my post-nap daze opened my file of cards and notes and letters from people to re-read some of my most treasured ones. then while i was still in a blur-daze (which is the time when you are either very easily agitated or very sentimental) my heart was ooooozing warmth. haha.

i get very annoyed at half-bimbos.

whizzer; 8:48:00 pm

Saturday, April 12, 2008

saturday

1) running and pull-ups training with jul joseph geof before prac
2) sectionals and prac. bleah voice cannot make it today
3) surprise birthday celebrations (or rather part 2) which was the most wonderful thing ever. but since i'm emoing over nothing now i'll cut it short. basically there was delicious cheesecake (which really should be eaten in moderation), imaginatively wrapped humungous box with big extremely nice and thoughtful frame with photo collage inside (which i will cherish for a long time to come and hang up in my room once i find a way to do so without drilling a hole), funny big home-made birthday card, chorale birthday card, PUNCH birthday card, photo frame with carolling photo and decorated with fabric paint. i love my friends very much.
4) uneventful lunch at j8
5) enjoyable uh waiting-for-the-bus time with gerald and properly admiring my sweet photo collage
6) yawn rest of the day
7) i will upload more photos when i don't feel like such a bum
8) amasuet i feel like crying now for no reason. and i am having more frequent emo periods. bleah menopause

whizzer; 11:32:00 pm

Friday, April 11, 2008

friday

OMS yay i have many many nice friends <3<3<3

i woke up before my alarm clock rang today with great anticipation! then i fell asleep again and woke up minutes later when my alarm rang. haha then i found a nicely wrapped box-shaped present on my bed-side table! so i transported it to my study table to be opened in the evening when my parents were both around (obviously the present was from them).

then i went to school! then i realised i shouldn't leave my house later than 7.10am on fridays coz the whole route to school is always jammed like pigs >.< then i met julian at the porch at 7.36am coz i realised not much hurry since it was drizzling so no flag raising. then we travellin travellin travellin to choir table and where greeted with AMAGAD from some excited person hahahaha (tsk to the amagad). then we reached the table which was surrounded by many chorale J2s and stoned while they tried to light the sparklers which were stuck into the pots of our cactus presents. haha so an eternity later kia liang made it burst into sparks! ok pause american idol start.

ok advert now. so then err happy birthday to us happy birthday to us happy birthday to us. then gen gave julian a round purple barney hulium balloon and gave me a pink heart-shaped elmo balloon (chosen by kia liang haha) that read "(strikeout)Elmo(/strikeout)Chorale loves you very much" haha which was very sweet. just that it was pink and heart-shaped and floated above me the rest of the day T.T then roly poly gerald and humpty dumpty gave julian and i our cactus pots with cactus bulb things growing on top of the cacti haha which are quite cute. then gen suet jojo and josie gave me "jeannette" *rolls eyes round and round* haha super cute doggy to add to my bed-zoo. ok american idol brb XD

ADVERT. hmm oh yeah then various people did various things then i went to class! then my favourite class sang birthday song when i walked in yay :) then zzz tutorials and lectures which i paid FULL attention to somehow even though i slept 5 hours. then PW RESULTS! was really thankful to God for doing well. anyway i think many people in my class deserved to do better considering all that they put in. ok american idol.

jordin sparks sounds good with chris brown. ok back. then bio tutorial was combined with 3A in AVT which had NO VENTILLATION at all then no one wanted to open the doors, so we were all surviving on the oxygen from the photosynthesis of my little cactus. haha then mr low was calling random people from 3A to answer questions, then he asked this guy to say his name and answer the question. so the guy said "i'm gengyu..." and mr low was like "huh? gerbil?" LOL. so our class burst out in fits of laughter which is becoming a norm for bio tutorials haha yay. ok idol is starts.

AMASUET americans are racist im sure the bottom 3 this week are like the more pro people. just that they happen to be black, irish, and australian -.-

yeah so totally suffocated during bio tut. then had exciting GP essay for the 1.5 blocks until mdm lee came in for civics which was supposed to be continuation of our career discussion but didn't have time to do it coz we gave ourselves time extension to finish gp essay since mrs v. wasn't around XD then suet was msging my about being outside my class coz she wanted to pass me stuff but i was still writing essay so couldn't go out then she went away first. sorry >.< then after lessons my class decided not to go for class lunch since people had stuff to do or whatever. bleah. so i was quite sad that my lunch plans which i was looking forward to burst. ended up looking for suet and quan and joining alto sectionals for a while which was stony. IDOL.

anyway joined suet and quan and deb and fried to go to j8 to shop for stuff. drank nice coffee bean drinks as a treat and watched eew disgusting man with his leg resting on some lady's lap and PDAing. totally nauseating. then walked around to get stuff and went home. so after bathing i sat on my bed and slowly read birthday letters and cards and notes and opened presents and slowly felt much happier. IDOL.

ugh lousy american voting.

so as i was going through my birthday things i was glad that i have very nice good cherishable friends. then i went to open my parents' present. then i was like O.O yay but whoa so extravagant. but yay its the same colour and type as joseph's haha random thought :) then we went to SICC for dinner. then coz i was wearing a long sleeve tshirt and jeans, and the spaz place restaurant dress code said have to wear collared tee for males, the super annoying inflexible waiter came to drape some collared tshirt or jacket on my chair and explained that need collared tee or whatever so just put the collared shirt on my chair 8-) which was totally useless since there wasn't any use in putting it there when i'm obviously not going to put it on and when there were only 2 other tables that were occupied coz its still a weekday. so whatever la lousy noobs with lousy inflexible rules. and i drank a lot of tea haha.

then went home and i took photo of my birthday things like my nice pink balloon which i still like muchly coz kia liang picked it out hahahaha so that when it bursts or deflates or floats away i'll still have the photo to remember it by. aw. and here's my balloon!


and this is "jeannette"


haha one day i'll line up my menagerie and take photo of them living harmoniously together in my room hahaha. ok and i'm going to sleep early and wake up early to another exciting day of prac and nice lunch with chorale friends for a change. goodnight!

whizzer; 9:58:00 pm

Sunday, April 06, 2008

depres(SING)

bleah i've been super duper tired for 3 nights in a row now. and i'm not going to blog about the million things i wanted to that i thought of when walking around thomson plaza after dinner just now coz i need to play piano tmr and i don't wanna be dozing off >.<

anyway was hoping to bump into lois there when i remembered she stays almost next door and i was sort of actively scanning the crowds and listening for potentially evil bursts of laughter but to no avail.

i wish i could have a "god-brother"-type friend.

whizzer; 12:21:00 am

Friday, April 04, 2008

profile!

haha i found these photos + a profile report in some mini scrapbook in one of my record files my dad keeps while checking details for NS registration nonsense. its from my daycare place when i was 3! haha see see!








hmm i think this was 2 years later in kindergarten. no idea why its in my toddler file. eew cowboy suit.


This is the front of the report

And this is what the report says ---

I. Initiative
Bennett shows initiative in choosing desired activitiy, materials or playmates with a short sentence, eg. "I want to play 'doggie' in the Book Area with Jeannette". He identifies problems quite readily and often shows maturity and persistence in solving them, eg. on 14 Oct 93 when Nicolas wanted Ben's binoculars, Ben went to the shelf and took two toilet rolls for Nicolas to use as binoculars. Also, on 12 Nov 93, Ben told the teacher to punch the dinosaur if the dino bit her. WHen teacher said that dino would bite off her hand, Ben suggeted, "How about using your leg?" and demonstrated with a fierce kick in the air.

II. Social Relations
Ben is able to work on complex projects with other children, as in sharing labour, following rules and appears to receive social support from a friend (Jean) and shows loyalty to her. Conflict situations with Ben do not last long as he knows the solutions to them by readily sharing the materials or taking turn, eg. on a few occasions, Nicolas insisted on taking the yellow cup from Ben and each time, Ben willingly gave it to him without a fuss. Ben also responds appropriately to the feelings of others, eg. when Nicolas fell in the garden and bumped his forehead, the next few days Ben offered to hold Nick's hand when they went out to the garden so that Nick would not fall again. (EDIT: ok this is quite gay T.T)

III. Creative Representation
Ben's favourite activity is to build with the large wooden blocks, making complex structures with details, like which room is for whom. He is able to give clear explanations on what and how he is making the structures. While Ben enjoys exploring and dabbling with art materials, his drawings are just simple representations and he needs further encouragement in this area. Ben participates in cooperative pretend play with Jean, often assuming the role of the 'doggie' and going on shopping trips, cooking and helping to look after 'Betty' the doll. (EDIT: this is NOT TRUE. Must have been someone else who was THOUGHT to be me -.-)

IV. Music and Movement
Bennett is very agile for his age andhas good balance when moving fast (EDIT: i agrees!), eg. he very confidently swings fast on the swing, runs up and down the climber and enjoys strong rocking motios of the see-saw. He is also quite adept at manipulating small objects and things requiring small motor movements, eg. threading, zipping and correct holding of writing instruments. (EDIT: evidently i was a highly talented child) Ben follows spoken instructions for more complex sequences of movements, eg. putting one hand on the head and the other on the stomach. Ben also enjoys singing of songs (EDIT: who would have thought i was already musically-inclined at 3!) and responds to the beat of music with simple movements, like clapping and waving with the ribbon stick (EDIT: it was a very manly ribbon stick). While he does not always sing along with the class, in recent weeks he has been singing more frequently and on some occasions sang solos (EDIT: LOL this is kinda weird).

V. Language and Literacy
Ben follows multistep or complex directions. He uses sentences that include two or more ideas with descriptive details, eg. on 13 Dec 93, he said, "Last time, I go Junction 7 (8?) and see two Mickey Mouse and Goofy, but I didn't see Donald Duck. He was at the back. I can hear him." (EDIT: remember that I was 3 -.-) Ben enjoys talking about where he had been and what he saw, about his family and cousins, Nicole, Hannah and Jon-Jon and about his favourite TV characters, X-Man and Flashman (EDIT: that would be X-Men and The Flash). While he enjoys being read to, Ben will pick up a book to read quietly by himself during reading time. He loves to listen to stories and will pay close attention, following the pictures and the print. He can identify and write the letters of the alphabet but seldom likes to display his knowledge.

VI. Logic and Mathematics
Ben can count confidently to 15 and, usually, correctly to beyond 30, needing help with some numbers here. He correctly uses words like 'not, some, all, more or less'; words that describe spatial relations like 'on top, in front, over, under, behind' and other related words. He has a good grasp of seriation by size, length and height and can compare three or more things using comparison words appropriately (smaller, smallest). Ben describes or represents a series of events in the correct sequence, eg. he has a good idea of the class daily routine, that "after clean-up time is recall time, after recall time is small group time, after small group time is outdoor time".

Then theres this foolscap paper attached behind with this complex diagram entitled "The Great Invention". Anyway, after leafing through dusty yellowed things and discovering many top secret, not-meant-for-my-eyes documents and printed emails and what not, i understand a lot more about how much my parents did for me since i was young.

Sigh what happened to me >.< I'm so proud of my 3-year old self :)

whizzer; 7:29:00 pm

Wednesday, April 02, 2008

fotoes

ok since i'm bored here are some photos from prague/slovakia '06


julian getting eaten by a turtle


little daniel, who was, is, and will always be little :) don't try to eat your computer monitor now suet


dinner in some cozy/warm/hot restaurant in cesky krumlov! haha guess who crashed our table


tactful waitress


i actually only look shorter than gerald coz the photo was taken from an angle


lollipop, lollipop, oh lolli lolli lolli lollipop


we're all blue! roomies + ben

whizzer; 11:44:00 pm

dimmed-duh

1 April 2008
HAPPY AFRIL POOLS!

i think everyone has his own mad day. i think today was mine. my emotional track for today went something like this: sane (until flag raising) -> nervous to adventurous to bored (in chem prac where we were playing with hydrocarbons and making almond-smelling compounds) -> highly annoyed verging on pissed to nervous to relief to nothingness (during econs tutorial) -> anticipating to happy happy (during math tutorial) -> close to normal to surprise/shock to normal again (when i got a tuna sandwich from clara saying it was from zhuangyi O.O when we were fooling around before prac, then during prac, except that my throat has been feeling very rough since this morning so didn't really want to push my voice so wasn't as enjoyable as i'd hoped) -> playful to almost immature (during sectionals) -> pure madness (upon returning to LT for announcements and meeting) -> sane (during meeting) -> bored and normal (after going home). exciting huh.

haha the powers of photoshop which i learned in 1 minute :D "close-to-blemishless" sample 1:


i SHALL upload more nice photos which i've been wanting to since a few weeks ago now that blogspot's photo upload function is fixed.

PUNCH is my sincerest ultimatest totallest favouritest small group in my universe.

whizzer; 10:02:00 pm