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2011-04-22T21:52:00.002+08:00

Love incarnate, love divine
Captivate this heart of mine
Til all I do speaks of You

Behold the Lamb who bears our sins away,
Slain for us: and we remember
The promise made that all who come in faith
Find forgiveness at the cross.

So we share in this Bread of life,
And we drink of His sacrifice,
As a sign of our bonds of peace
Around the table of the King.

The body of our Savior, Jesus Christ,
Torn for you: eat and remember
The wounds that heal, the death that brings us life,
Paid the price to make us one.

The blood that cleanses every stain of sin,
Shed for you: drink and remember
He drained death's cup that all may enter in
To receive the life of God.

And so with thankfulness and faith
We rise to respond: and to remember.
Our call to follow in the steps of Christ
As His body here on earth.

As we share in His suffering,
We proclaim: Christ will come again!
And we'll join in the feast of heaven
Around the table of the King.

Wah 1st post of 2011

2011-02-26T18:51:00.003+08:00

I spent an hour last night reading my 2007/2008 blog archives. JC life was so interesting heh. Though it's sad to realise that some friends I used to be really close to aren't so much anymore because of circumstances and other people they've met. I really miss the times my class spent together in class, during breaks, after school, lying under the stars at class adventure camp etc. Simple times like eating porridge with sabby and eric on wednesdays, drinking grass jelly/michael jackson after PE, playing captain's ball in the amphi, mini birthday celebrations, are what made my class the best I've ever had. And I'm incredibly thankful for all my wonderful classmates from 08S03M.

ANYWAY, below is the write-up I originally prepared for 11th LOCC's course magazine, but later decided it wasn't very suitable for a course mag, especially since it will be printed and immortalised on paper haha. Below that are some shout-outs to the fun ex-Cadets of 11th LOCC I thought of when I was bored to death in the computer lab in ICES on my favourite Jurong island.

Dearest 11th LOCC,

So very quickly, the 17 week long lifestyle of spending 24 hours a day, practically 6 days a week with all of you ended with the completion of our VES on 19 Nov 2010. Memories of that last night when we went down for our final last parade at the car porch to have you all encaged Melvin and me in a semi-circle and sing “The Way You Are” followed by a water parade with much of the water ending up on us still linger on in my mind. Honestly, I would have loved to seen 11th LOCC through to commissioning, but greater things beckoned. Like SNUBA diving in Phuket. All in all, it’s been great fun getting to know all of you through all the random activities and exercises in LOCC. Naturally, its been a process of self-discovery for myself too, like finding out in ROC that I’m naggy and have OCD. Thanks for these wonderful revelations yeah. Also for the quirky moments in syndicate rooms and such where completely weird and unexpected things happen.

Well, that’s it then. GOOD RIDDANCE FOLKS! Haha just kidding. You know I love y’all lots. It’s been both a joy and a pain to have instructed 11th LOCC. Take care and have a good time in your next year as you create your own memories while embarking on what I’m sure will be a wonderful journey of discovery filled with your own ups and downs! God bless (:

Best regards,
Mr (but wishes it was still LTA) Bennett Tan

---Random Shout-Outs---

Shi Xuan: Thanks for telling me that I’m naggy and have OCD during XSE I haha. Your performance during the Eagle series of exercises constantly impressed me, especially in ROC when CO sat in for your presentation and tried to stump you with some questions about your CSS plan, and I was quivering in fright because I thought you were going to foam and die LOL. But you handled yourself really well and it was a joy and relief everytime you pulled through. More like blazed through actually, stunning me in the process each time. Thinking back to Ex Eagle I, it was really funny observing you being so bimz when you were sleep-deprived and almost raving though HAHA. Nonetheless, it was great having you around, someone who always knew what was going on with the exercise situation and plan, which made it less of a “aiyah this exercise sucks la just anyhow do” kind of experience each time (:

Wei Liang: Remember our climb down Mt Biang during Ex Mountain Rat? Just so you know, when [to 2LT Bennett] “EH, my compass with you right babe” happened, you almost ended up being thrown into a ravine and buried under the rubble. It was great fun having you and the gang liven up the mood then though, especially on the rainy and cold second night on Biang. Of course you made a fantastic first CWSM too :p I think most of all, I really appreciate your frankness and sincerity regardless of circumstance. Cut down on the rokoks k (:

Faidzal: Thanks for being such a joy (and a joke) throughout the course. My first recollection of you was in SOCJOT where “Sir, 2 men recce!”…..“OK!” became a hit during Ex Nomad, and during the nights camped out on ridgelines when you were a noisy beaver. A hilarious one nonetheless and it’s been extremely entertaining and fun seeing and hearing your nonsense a lot of times :D Keep up the spontaneity! But please know when would be an appropriate moment to be yourself. During times like exercises and meetings in the future, I just feel it would be better not to let yourself go ya? (:

Daniel: Somehow or other I started off 11th LOCC taking Platoon 1 Sections 3 & 4 for activities and exercises. Not too long after, I noticed you were always the one sitting behind the computer preparing slides for presentations and reading manuals. Which reminded me of myself being hardworking in 9th LOCC hahahaha. While I’m sure you’d have loved to become an Instructor, sadly, the honour wasn’t yours to have (: I still remember you as the guy in my SOCJOT team who I could only recognise when you talked coz your voice was so low hahaha (at that time all of you looked the same ya so not my fault I couldn’t recognise). Again, I appreciated having someone around in the Syndicate who sucked up info fast and knew what was happening during discussions and stuff. If not, the Syndicate room would have probably ended up being a party room with Faidzal/Leonard et al. Btw, I think you have a good ear for harmonies and match Justin’s voice really well :p

Raphael: I’ve never met anyone as eccentric, yet so diligent and smart as you. In my life. So much so that while I know you’ll do great at whatever you attempt wherever you are, I worry about how you’ll cope with less-than-understanding people in a diplomatic sense. Nonetheless, I totally admire the way you invest all your energy into making sure you’re not just good, but excellent at what you do, like during exercises when you mug manuals and memorise CSS and fighting doctrines beforehand and analyse and monitor your team’s plan and maps throughout. Everytime I saw you at work, it gave me hope for 11th LOCC. HAHA KIDDING I know your batch is fantastic (: Hope to see you in the UK next time primary school junior :D

Leonard: I must say that I was quite impressed with your determination since the first PC interview when I heard your NS story, and thereafter as the course progressed. As annoying as you are, I have to say you are a very responsible guy, which all the Instructors noticed when you were Store IC :p Besides if not for you, who would have dragged a half-naked under-aged girl to take photo for us during Cohesion Day and gotten her email for a Facebook add?

Hock Seng: When you first told me that you and a few other guys were going to have a study group meeting on CSS Ops after cohesion day, and later asked for extra lesson outside of camp on CSSB and battle procedure, I honestly didn’t know what to think. Obviously my first thought was “are you serious -.-“. But when others said that you loved doing these things and found happiness in doing so, I realised you’re really mad. HAHA kidding. You were probably the most hard-working Cadet in 11th LOCC (ok maybe Raphael can contest this), and it was quite relieving to see that this kind of spirit lives on in SOL. But please smile more often and don’t look so uptight and serious all the time =)

Chen Yang: CHINA BOY! Sometimes I want to punch you (actually a lot of times), but taking into consideration I’d probably have been charged and longzhao asked me to be nice to you, be thankful I have tremendous self-control. To be honest, I believe you’re a very sweet guy when you want to be, while being quirky and funny, which I guess is what makes you somewhat endearing and easy to get along with (: rock on ya XD

Justin: You and Daniel form the most vocally-sound pair I’ve met in NS haha. Besides your musical talent, your friendly personality together with your humility and sincerity make you a very worthwhile friend to have, I think. My wondrously random memory calls to mind the first night during Ex Nomad at our harbour site, when Faidzal was terrorising Sufyan under the makeshift shelter when it was raining, and Sufyan was like “it’s ok, as long as “. Must be nice to have such a comforting effect on people. Or be such a close friend to someone else (:

Sufyan: Yours was the only pair of eyes I couldn’t miss the first time you guys came to SOL before SOCJOT :D and honestly I think you look like Puss-In-Boots from Shrek, not trying to laugh at you or anything (: thanks for being such a sport and dancing and stuff and putting up with everyone’s nonsense throughout the course. Resident baby of 11th LOCC, you were definitely more than that in your performance during the course. Please get yijun to teach you how to grow larger so you won’t get bullied next time :p

Victor: Thanks for the 3 minutes or so of entertainment on one of the last nights in Meilin Camp in ROC when you and Ka Wai so happily ran around the 4th and 5th floors after so cleverly climbing the central staircase and bumping into me :p yeah ok I just wanted to say that because I thought that was the most dumb-funny offence committed in MLC XD

Gabriel and Zhong Hong: Have lots of fun with 12th/13th LOCC! XD but really, the interaction and overall journey with Cadets is very fulfilling. When you wake up at 0500hrs to prepare for SOC or IPPT or some other nonsense and feel like life is tough, think of…the breakfast that will follow in the mess/canteen/takeaway-from-outside-kopitiam after its over :D enjoy getting fed/fat! (But please don’t get owned by too many Cadets during LIFE runs). Anyway, know that it’s definitely not easy to take Officer Cadets and only THE BEST of each graduating course are rewarded this HUGE privilege, that’s why when others laugh and mock, it’s only because they’re infinitely jealous. And when you feel very frustrated with how things are done in SOL and get exhausted at fighting multiple fires everyday, remember that you can’t simply throw in the towel, even when you see that others don’t give a hoot, because ultimately the ones who will suffer are the Cadets. Whatever the case, those who matter have faith in your abilities and believe that you will prove your mettle in time to come. I’m proud to have you both as grand-understudy instructors (: May the legacy of midnight suppers and takeaways at odd hours of the day live on!

1-Year Anniversary!

2010-12-19T15:52:00.002+08:00

Today marks the 1-year anniversary of 75/09's commissioning! yay (: HAPPY ANNIVERSARY! To myself and everyone else haha. And aptly, it occured to me this morning to consider applying for SAFOS and signing on HAHAHA. Obviously it would be obnoxious to think that it would be that easy to get, but I thought why not try anyway. BUT then I'd have to spend 21 weeks (or maybe slightly less) to re-vocate before waiting for an interview. I guess the desire to return to militarisation stems from the joy derived from my job the past year. Or rather the moments of contentment and satisfaction from seeing some result of the effort put in over the months of training and in trying to revamp the way things are done and to instil some form of system in the unit. Like how I was quite happy to see how some of my 11th LOCC cadets have matured and grown in character yesterday during the Cert Presentation Ceremony. Oh well we shall see how things work out.

Anyway its been amazing how the past year has gone by so quickly (in retrospect) while it felt like time was crawling in camp. Haha and I'm reasonably glad at what we've been able to achieve in that time and how much we've learnt and matured/grown throughout all the RUBBISH we were put through. And the fun times of course (:

Looking back, more than a year ago, when the dreaded posting order was announced and fate was sealed, I could have just gone into depression. Until I saw another friend who was possibly more crushed than I was. Honestly, I never really imagined working with melvin before, even though he was my syndicate mate for 5 months plus, so that didn't really help. so seeing there was nothing to be done, I could only pray for strength, both mental and physical, to endure all the stress and pain a training institute had to offer, and for wisdom to know how to deal with my work, the people I work with, and the people I work for. Then there was chris, who told me one night on MSN that instructorship was probably not a bad job match for me, since I'd liked to teach/coach/instruct since RI days when I was SL, and maybe I would be happier dealing with cadets instead of men. And I thought maybe he had a point. By that time, I'd gotten so used to and annoyed with coursemates and instructors alike who kept badgering me with the prospect of returning to face 10th and 11th LOCC, Lancer, Starlight etc. 2 more times. Much like what we did to Shi Xuan and Gabriel in the coming graduating course. Hmm maybe I should have done this reflection earlier so they wouldn't have been subject to such suffering. Oh well all part and parcel of the LOCC instructor tradition haha :D

As God would have it, I was given the best opportunity to fulfil my primary ambition of making the biggest influence I could on those I interacted with during my term of service, having taken 2 batches of LOCC, and my secondary one of effecting some improvement in my unit, seeing the many imperfections in the running of LOCC. Thank God for his perfect plan in my life that I always fail to see before it materialises. Of course, these were just opportunities for me to achieve my personal goals in NS, and there were indeed countless occasions when things and people got so frustrating that it seemed foolish to carry on caring so much, when we were just NSF serving our obligatory time. Night times in bunk became the griping and complaining sessions for Melvin and myself as time and time again we wondered out loud why we threw our whole selves into doing our work and even doing more than we had to, when it seemed a fool's errand that wouldn't last and wasn't even appreciated. In the end, I believe it was worth it, even though many of our endeavours remain incomplete due to our short year there. Like how I really miss taking cadets now sigh >.< Naturally, it took the encouragement of friends and family to keep me going too. For example such as like for example I would text Wayne or Weiren or Quan or some other close friend "SIANNN. I hate my job. Life is tough." and he/she would reply something encouraging like "Tough is like a walnut. ORD lo!" then I would immerse myself in work with new found energy for a while before the cycle repeated itself. Haha ok no the messaging was deeper than that duh -.- So for these friends I'm very grateful (: Most of the time though, I'd just roll over to Melvin's cubicle (or shout over if I felt nua like an over-ripe banana) and rant for a while before continuing with work. I must say that we complement each other very well, which enabled us to be so effective in the office haha XD Yeah, well so come to think of it I owe Melvin too for listening to me all those times and joining me in the ranting hahaha.

My main regret this year is that I didn't spend enough time with my friends from school/chorale I guess, because of the amount of time I dedicated to NS. Which sucks because when I started getting together with them again, it seemed like I didn't know much that was going on in their lives at all. Sigh. Hopefully that will change with significantly more free time now.

Analysis of your own behaviour and thought process is very good for self-reflection and change :D

I've spent way too long on this post. Need to go write letters. And bake brownie cake for my ex-course comd hahahaha. Til the next time I feel driven to post! :)

tang tang tang TAIWAN!

2010-10-18T00:09:00.002+08:00

sticking to the tradition of posting just before any overseas trip (for the past 2 years at least), this will be the final one of its kind (:

last trip to Starlight this time, before i start clearing my photos and stuff from my cubicle back in the office. somehow feels different from last batch. more similar to when i was going for the first time about a year ago. about the same feeling of excitement and anticipation, of going with friends from SI, and seeing old familiar faces. though melvin and i probably know what to expect once we reach there. same multi-polar functions to take on. same (if not higher) levels of fatigue. anyhow hope its a fulfilling trip. seeing its the last of its kind. hmm not sure if its a :D or :( thing heh.

guess i'm not gonna spend much time standing at this public internet access terminal in the airport where i have to keep glancing behind my back to check if anyone's spying haha. by the time we get back most of our batch would have graduated ("graduated"). that's it then. more to come! (:

photzz

2010-07-25T19:38:00.007+08:00

Decided to upload some of my relatively recent favourite photos (:

Chorale folks! (:

Birthday bud Julian :D

Joseph!!! (:

Squirrels Fabz & Kenny (:

AC family photo XD with Melvin :p

Kevjumba!!! =p

ANG jy =)

CARE BEAR VAL! :D

Damz (:

Best Bud Wayne :D

Loisie! (:

Cuzzes from yesteryear...

03tp x Lancer

2010-07-25T18:26:00.003+08:00

Hello Everybady!

I realised my blog posts actually track the dates I've gone overseas against my will since commissioning. Hmm. Another sian post then.

Tomorrow is Chorale/RV concert (Limelight 2010) at the Esplanade, with us J4s performing as alumni. Tomorrow also happens to be the day I need to be at Changi Airport Terminal 2 by 11.30pm for a flight at 2am on Tuesday morning, leaving for a place the world has forgotten for the 3rd time, where Murphy's Law reigns supreme. And where there's absolutely nothing to do for leisure. Nothing that's remotely enjoyable at least. SO, my programme for tomorrow will be something like this:

0730 - HLR
0900 - begin work
1200 - leave for lunch
1445 - be at the Esplanade
1600 - technical run-through
~1830 - sound check
1930 - hall lights go off
~2015 - alumni performance
~2115 - encore performance
~2130 - last goodbyes to friends and juniors
~2145 - leave for the airport

:'(

Well, at least its the last time. Although it will be the 4th and 5th time I'll be overcoming lovely Biang. Sometimes I wonder if anyone expects people in our position to be totally ok with this crappy job and not hate everything sucky that accompanies it. Sighs.

Geet's leaving this evening to continue with Year 2 of animal doctoring. Hopefully our end-of-year vacation will materialise. Bye Geet, sorry we couldn't meet up 1 more time before you fly :p >.<

Anyway, I think working with Melvin so much has made me more reflective than I was before. I guess its because he's so much like that himself and we've been quite self-critical together the past few months. Occasionally, I feel proud of what NS has moulded me into. Yet, a lot of times, I also hate it for how it has changed how my friends perceive me because of some of the things I do differently now and how I react in certain situations. And I don't want to be that messed up person anymore :(

Need to meet up with Weiren to have a long chat soon after coming back next month. Been wanting to do that for a long time since I felt like I was drifting, but somehow I've been distracted.

It suddenly occured to me that my mood reflects very strongly in the style of my blog post. Haha. Obviously I am not looking forward to tomorrow a great deal. BUT, being so extremely professional, I WILL hide my sian-ness and appear very excited at the airport tomorrow. :D <-- See? Too bad I won't be taking Bobo haha.

Will miss Gerald's birthday this year. Blessed 20th in advance dear friend (: we'll hang out again soon? If not, hmm, ok there won't be an "if not", I'll make it happen!

Won't be able to send Wayne off too as he chiongs for the finish in FAOCC. Take care in Thailand bro (: hopefully we'll finally be able to meet up once you're back.

Life is tough. Time to brave the elements once again.

ROC

2010-04-09T07:53:00.002+08:00

once again, a pre-departure entry at the airport. haha sianz birthday in ROC spent doing road orientation. anyway had a fun time with quan chris gerald yf last night at Little Part 1 cafe. i realised i miss hanging out with these guys as often as last time. got a cupcake set from them for my birthday LOL.

will miss the guys who are going to pinnacle. meaning that we won't get to see them til sometime in June. sigh. just occured to me that birthday in taiwan is gonna be quite sian. away from most of my friends and family. haha at least there are cadets who make the sucky busy difficult times worthwhile. i mean when you feel like what you're doing is making a difference and is appreciated.

oh wells. off to ROC again. time to torment potential understudies XD

in the air again

2010-01-04T00:55:00.002+08:00

So many memories still seem fresh from our socjot trip 6 months ago. huddling with kenny in the cold brunei jungle at night, trying to sleep in wet uniform in the freezing night, learning the lyrics of hallelujah from fabriz...and now i'm returning to the forsaken place to lead new cadets. with melvin. at least there's that consolation knowing that melvin will be with me :)

guess it just sucks coz we're not going together with lots of friends and have to rough it up on our own. sigh. goodbye. off to the gate.

life is tough. miss everyone already....

1st of 2010!

2010-01-02T17:35:00.009+08:00

Hullo! Here are some recollection of happy things in the days running up to the new year for me to remember and be happy when I come across them in my future archive scannings!

Christmas Day mini-outing

Invited Kai Jun and Kev to church for Christmas service. Had Pizza Hut and KFC food for light Christmas lunch in church before we left for Vivo to catch Fabz and Kenny. Wandered around and shopped for a while (actually I was looking for a bag and the 2 Ks were helping me look haha) while waiting for Fabz to de-ship from his 3 day family cruise aboard the Superstar Virgo. I think it was the Superstar Virgo. Maybe it was the Superstar Libra. BUT I'M PRETTY SURE IT WAS THE SUPERSTAR VIRGO. yeah. Eventually we met up with him and explored the Duolos (or the outside of it) seeing that it was docked at the port. It was the last time it'd be here since its going to be decommissioned. Sigh. Too bad it wasn't open for touring. A short while later Kenny arrived, and we walked around aimlessly, unfortunately chancing upon PageOne where everyone but me rushed into. Me. The intellectual blackhole according to my wonderful friends 8-) so we lamented for a long while inside (or rather I did) and finally got everyone out to proceed to the Pacific Coffee Company to lounge around and drink coffee. Whereupon the following photos were excitedly taken. Or not so excitedly.

The chocolate powder going into my latte.

More chocolate powder going into my latte. It kinda became mocha after that.

Kevin and Kenny were obviously amused by the chocolate powder.

Yes I knew that was a stirrer. BUT there's something interesting about drinking through the hollow tubes that make up the stirrer.

Kenny! (:

Group shot 1. With my camera being balanced on something like 2 library books and what not on timed mode.

Group shot 2. Yay happiness =)

Thereafter we dispersed for home. Our respective homes that is. Went to Aunty Grace's house for our usual extended family dinner. Uncle Thomas and family came too, along with his sister and her husband. Ran over to Uncle Ray's house after dinner with cuzzes to play Guitar Hero. I mean to pwnzzzz at Guitar Hero heh :p Happy presents-opening time after that.

Boxing Day Excitement

Long day. Met Kia, Weiren, Yong Feng, Joash for lunch as Astons near Parkway Parade. It's been a long time since we've been able to meet up with Weiren. Anyway had a good time catching up a bit and having good old laughs like we used to. After that, we left for PP, where Weiren went home, and Kia, Yf and Joash went to Kia's house to pick up the food for the Chorale gathering later that night. Meanwhile, I walked around PP 5000000 times looking for nice/not too expensive log cakes to bring for my 2 parties at night. Settled on Fudgy Gooey Chewy Brownies from the Brownie Factory (which turned out to be nice. Very nice.). Then walked around to look at stuff and bought a Christmas present and a t-shirt for myself. Occasionally, I decided to walk past the Famous Amos shop to sniff the heavenly scent of freshly-baked cookies. Mmmmm. A million years later, linked up with Sabby after her Sec 4 class outing to take a bus to Jarrod's place for 3M Christmas party!

We finally reached his house after my amazing navigation skills and Jarrod's lousy directions (and much complaining and abuse by SABBY LAU). Played his Wii a bit with the guys who were there already while others streamed in, and Sabby, Guo Zhong and others played Mahjong. Helped Alicia, Joyce, Rui Yi and can't remember who else to prepare the stuffing for the turkey that Alicia brought and spent forever trying to reduce the stuffing so that it didn't look like mushroom soup. In the end we decided to just put it in a separate bowl instead of stuffing the turkey because it was taking too long haha. Although we found that it was reduced enough to stuff when we poured it out. Had a nice feast of turkey with delicious stuffing and cranberry sauce on the side, Old Chang Kee curry puffs and fishballs (courtesy of Jarrod), fried rice from some hawker stall, potato salad (made by Alicia with lots of help from her brother!), fruit salad (by Eric) and my brownies! And of course the ubiquitous soft drinks, which we never seem to be able to finish at any party. I think that was all the food we had. We all felt super stuffed after eating not a whole lot of food though. Must have been the turkey stuffing haha :) It was so good that I ended up eating it on its own hahaha :p

Throughout dinner, we had a great time playing Raving Rabbits/Bunnies (I can't remember the name of the game) on the Wii and other Wii sports games. I totally pwned at the mini-game where you're supposed to drown the diver bunnies with carrot juice before they reach the shore HAHAHAHA super fun. Boxing was highly entertaining too, with Siang Huat providing much of the physical entertainment through his hilarious movements while playing with people. Ended up staying longer than expected, and we soon had our gift exchange. I randomly got a pair of Bonia sunglasses from Joyce haha. Sadly, they were for ladies. Lol but everyone was amused with their presents and had fun laughing at me wearing my new shades. Here they are!

MY BONIA SUNGLASSES HAHA!

And here are the photos we took before I had to leave for Chorale party, which I was already super late for :(

Intra-class best budd Eric! with Terence :)

UK girls Luvy and Geena with Officer CADET Soh XD

Beloved JC class 3M <3

3M girls (most of them anyways) Mah Sistahs hee :) :)

When I finally managed to pull myself away from my best and most loved class of all time, I had to take a cab down to Joash's house. Got there at almost 10pm. Everyone was kinda lounging around at that time. And Quan's ice cream was gone :( :( Anyway, soon after we started to sing, as at every other Chorale outing/gathering. Mostly carols that we sang last year, and others like our all time favourite, Irish Blessing. Lots of nice musical moments, considering we've not sung together in a while. Too bad I missed the Skype session with the overseas girls argghh :( Miss Suet and Gen and the other Chorale girls studying overseas a lot sigh...hopefully June 2010 will arrive quickly and we'll get to meet up and have stayovers! :D Chilled some more around Joash's living room and left around 11.45pm because some people wanted to take public transport, so had to catch our last trains/buses. Took the bus to Tanah Merah MRT with Quan, Fried and Isaac, then we slowly lost Fried and Isaac at their respective MRT stops until it was just Quan and I. On the MRT, some Malaysian girl came up to ask us for directions and advice on how to get home (CCK) and we somehow chatted with her all the way until we had to get off at Bishan (even when we had to change trains, we resumed our conversation on the NS train haha). Had an interesting chat, just the 3 of us (the friend she was with went to sleep in one of the seats on the train), and found her to be very friendly and full of praise for Singapore. Like the cleanliness and what not. Just that everything was expensive when she converted it to Ringgit, and she thought our MRT system ran for 24/7 haha. One of the rare nice comfortable chats I've ever had with a stranger. We made it to Bishan Circle Line station soon (travelling time didn't seem so long when we spent the whole time talking to each other and to our new Malaysian friend) and as part of our Christmas tradition which has been running for the past 3 years, Quan gave me George at the Bishan Circle Line Station as we were leaving for home on opposite sides of the station. This is George:
Doesn't he look delectable (:

Fantastically enjoyable day all in all.

SOL Cohesion Day

SOL 37th Anniversary Cohesion Day! Had to attend even though I was on leave -.- Assembled at Eastpoint Mall (AT SIMEI! where NO ONE ever goes to) at 0800hrs, so had to wake up really early to take the train there. The really really long train ride. Eventually we were given our groups and I ended up with Arvin, WO Rajan and Das, and CPL Neo. Amazing Race with 4 checkpoints near MRT stations, all the way to Harbour Front from Simei. Aim was the find all 4 checkpoints and return the earliest, and taking a photo at each checkpoint with all your team members and a member of the public would earn the team bonus points. 1WO Rajan and 1WO Das were amazing in recognising where the checkpoints were by simply looking at the photo printouts. So if not for our morning tea break at Banquet just oustide Vivocity where Rajan treated us to black carrot cake (which was delicious!) and we had tea and coffee and what not, we probably would have gotten first place. But where's the fun in chionging all the way? After all we were cohesing over food and drink :DD Along the way, we just missed the train 4 times. Like we arrived at the platform as the train doors were closing. How frustrating is that. And 2nd last time, LTA Wang and team were gloating at us from inside the train doors as we just missed the train for the 3rd time. Zzz. Met their team again on the train returning to Simei after finding our last checkpoint. Our team got 3rd out of the 4 teams haha. It was great fun anyway and I got to know those in my team a lot better. Not to mention I had a stitch almost throughout the race laughing at Rajan's random nonsense and his interaction with Arvin haha super duper funny. Here's a photo we took outside Vivocity at our 3rd checkpoint with a random person for the bonus points (the guy in orange):

When Amazing Race ended, we had a sumptuous buffet lunch at Hans River Restaurant in Eastpoint Mall. Seoul Garden style. Lots and lots and lots of different kinds of beef, chicken (like char siew chicken), fish, mutton, seafood, steamboat food, veg, and I even tried frying rice with eggs and garlic haha. Turned out quite nice I think :p Had prize presentation and souvenirs for Cohesion Day were given out. I got an SOL shoe bag, a bar of Grouse (whiskey) chocolate, an Adidas water bottle, a pair of Reebok socks, and a Reebok wristband for my Amazing Race prize. Cool stuff for Army souvenirs huh? Dispersed after we had dessert, whereupon I left for Somerset to meet Gerald, Ben Low and Yisheng at 313 to spend the afternoon with.

Met Gerald, then Ben Low (who came from Chorale workshop), then Yi Sheng at 313 after exploring the place and wandering around Zara for about half an hour. Spent some time at the corner of the 2nd floor railing chatting about lots of stuff and laughing at things. Occasionally some shoppers gave us strange looks when we suddenly burst out laughing or when we tried to differentiate between Ben's falsetto, gay voice, and normal voice, and tried to imitate lol. Yi Sheng's still the same old funny blur boy haha. Moved on to sit at Food Republic to have tea of dough fritters and hot soya bean when we got tired of standing at the railing. Chatted some more, then Fabz called me from work and I walked around talking to him for a bit, sometimes returning to our table to try to communicate with the 3 of them using hand signals which they apparently thought were extremely amusing. When we got tired of that, we walked around looking in shops and moved on to take several very long escalators to the rooftop garden at the top of Central. It was fun to enjoy the breeze and the view and see what shapes/letters we could decipher from the formation of trees many stories below next to the skate park. Walked around Central some more and took a break at the bridge outside the Crumpler shop, where Ben tried to do some tuck jumps in school pants after we gave him some tips on how to improve at NAPFA hahaha. Funny people. As it got dark, we left for Cineleisure with the intention of watching a movie, but since I couldn't stay out too late (and Did You Hear About The Morgans only started at 7.30pm), we gave it up and went to Billy Bomber's for dinner. Spent the rest of out outing time there eating and reminiscing and catching up more about what was going on in our respective lives and sharing stuff about army and what not to give Yi Sheng an idea of what to expect. It was a fantastic outing and felt great to hang out with these guys again. We finally left around 9.30pm with the promise of having a stayover sometime next year if we could spare the time. Took the train back to Bishan and bus-ed back home with Gerald.

ALTI Family Day

ALTI Family Day! Another burnt day of leave since I was forced to attend. Met Kenneth and Aaron at Yishun MRT at 7.40am to walk to SAFRA Yishun. Found our way there soon and saw lots of army people already there. Met up with Chian Fern and registered and went to slack around by the swimming pool while waiting for the day's activities to begin. I sat out for the water telematch while Aaron, Kenneth and Chian Fern formed their team with other ALTI people and went on to win the games, with much excitement during the course of the games. Meanwhile I stood by the side with Matthias and Joe (8th LOCC, who I know from my OJT at STC during specialisation in Pro term) and took photos for the guys. When that was over, we went to take part in the bowling competition. 4 of us formed a team with another 2LT from ALTI also called Joe. Our first game was more like a warm-up round and we didn't do so well, but our 2nd game was great! Anyway we enjoyed ourselves immensely, I did anyway, since I haven't bowled in a really really long time. Theses are some of the shots we captured of ourselves bowling:

Aaron

Chian Fern

Kenneth

ME! Look at that posture. WOW.

ME AGAIN! Look at that, look at that. ABSOLUTELY WONDERFUL POSTURE. haha XD

This is Joe. The super pro bowler. He got 6 strikes in a row (double turkey?) for our 2nd game. Very very pro.

And here's our final scores for the 2nd round:

WOOT! :D :D :D

We managed to squeeze in half a game after our 2nd round, but got cut off a few frames before we ended. More like a "for fun" round. Anyway then we had prize presentation, and our team won bowling! So we each got a medal! Yay! (:

In the end, Aaron, Kenneth and Chian Fern each got 2 medals (because they won the water games too), and our YELLOW TEAM won overall champion, so we took a photo with the huge trophy haha. Don't have the photo with me though. Then we had a nice buffet in the bowling alley, during which there was an extremely noisy magic show going on for the kids in attendance, and we were cringing at the noise from the very loud mic the magician was using. He pulled a really cute rabbit out of some cylinder though haha. After everything ended, we left to go home. Walked back to Yishun MRT with Kenneth and Aaron. Kenneth left, and I waited with Aaron for his mum to pick him up. Was finally alone by 12.50pm and I crossed the road to Northpoint shopping centre to hang out and walk around 100000 times while waiting for Fab. Spent the time walking through every aisle in Cold Storage and looking out for stuff I could buy to bring to Brunei. Then walked around the whole place some more. More like window shopped. Walked and walked and walked. And walked a lot more. And messaged Seth and Wayne. Fab called around 3.40pm and arrived at 4.10pm thereabouts. Spent most of the time with him in the library talking about stuff and looking at books. Hung out some more and left around 6pm for the MRT where we left in opposite directions. Sigh I always seem to be going home in the opposite direction from my friends. Overall, quite a memorable day. Especially since I got to meet up with Fabz :)

Aaaand that's all for now. I'll find another post to squeeze in comms ball photos and first 2 weeks at work after commissioning if possible. Back to bro's birthday celebrations! ciao (:

closure?

2009-12-19T23:54:00.002+08:00

finally. so ends the 38 weeks of the 75/09 Officer Cadet Course. feels good to be an officer. great actually. parade went quite well i guess. not as perfect as past rehearsals, but good enough. despite all the imperfections of the parade which were rather irksome, the feeling when we were about to toss our peak caps and when we actually jumped and did it was too good to be true. felt somewhat surreal. hugs all around with friends. i love my friends (: ok i just wanted to catch the last few minutes of 19th Dec 2009 to make this short post. more to come soon. yay happiness (: (:

progression: 2003 through 2006

2009-12-06T17:33:00.003+08:00

a different kind of post for a change :) nice to see the transition through the years haha XD

2003: Japan
OMS SO FAT!!!

2003: Japan
O.O on the train w/ grandma, jon, ren

2004: Birthday!
OMS STILL SO FAT!!!

2004: Phuket
heh food =p but still fatz

2005: Birthday!
huge contrast with 2004 birthday noh? (:

2005: Birthday!
cuzzes!

2006: Prague-Slovakia Tour

2006: Prague-Slovakia Tour
<3 cesky-krumlov! w/ turdle, gerald and fatty :) at our favourite stone blocks!

2006: Prague-Slovakia Tour
lollipops at the market square!

2006: Prague-Slovakia Tour
my group on the train! don't i look like the big brother boss-of-the-group :D

2009-11-15T00:30:00.002+08:00

"...for Jo loved a few persons very dearly and dreaded to have their affection lost or lessened in any way." -Little Women

""You've got me, anyhow. I'm not good for much, I know, but I'll stand by you, Jo, all the days of my life. Upon my word I will!" And Laurie meant what he said." -Little Women

“The worst thing one can do is not to try, to be aware of what one wants and not give in to it, to spend years in silent hurt wondering if something could have materialized - and never knowing”

Week 33

2009-11-14T14:21:00.002+08:00

i don't want to keep on hurting people i hold so dear. i keep wanting to change, but somehow just keep messing everything up. i don't know what to do anymore >.<

i really wanted to be contingent commander. or at least try for it. peer pressure is my downfall. and fear of rejection. and being scorned by others. that's not going to happen anymore. the feeling of regret after it is too unbearable.

i shall blog about taiwan r&r tmr. hopefully.

i'm going to run now. then come back and get dragged to see a shrink.

"We'll all grow up one day...We might as well know what we want." -Little Women

2009-11-07T23:36:00.003+08:00

argh haven't found the time to post about taiwan r&r! maybe next weekend when i'm not out of the house so much.

first week of specialisation is over. quite a slack 3 days of attachment at STC. lots of interaction with people over there, which was fun. especially talking to our seniors who are there now. and sharing stories and jokes and stuff. and of course we learn stuff too. on a side note, supply vocationalists all seem to be very nice people haha. and like everyone knows everyone else. its like a supply family :)

went to lot 1 to meet kenneth fabz melvin after work yesterday. found them nerding in the library -.- so i borrowed a book along the way, "The Promise Of Happiness", which is quite interesting, but requires patience to read coz its a different style of writing. then we went for tea-ner/dinner at the food junction. listened to more nerd convo among the 3 of them. then we went to some bookshop where i bought 2 books. yay. then we walked to the mrt and kenneth and fabz left. then melvin and i walked around the basement a few times and chatted, then went to the ground level, were melvin was recognised by this NS man we spent a long time talking to during our integration exercise more than a month ago. had an interesting chat with him for a while, then walked around a bit more and left soon after. that was about 8pm. spent the rest of the night refining my personal statement and seeking advice from jul and mohandass. finally submitted it at 2am. FINALLY. its done.

woke up at 6 something this morning. rolled around bed a bit, then went downstairs and walked outside my estate to look for kenny who was coming to my house so that we could be driven to safti. brought him to my room to stone while i went to shower and change. meanwhile he played with my menagerie of stuffed animals on my bed haha. and found dino with his near dislocated head. had breakfast of nutella with bread and some kuehs and left for safti soon after. picked up kenneth and fabz along the way outside safti and walked to the uniform store from carpark i. haven't walked that route in a long long while. took a while to look for uniforms that fit/were clean/had no markings or studs on them, and eventually had to tailor a set of no. 1 still because none fit nicely. sigh. managed to find a nice set of no. 2 though. thereafter we walked out to joo koon and train-ed to city hall where we walked to marina square and had waraku. zhang was a joke as usual, chatting up the waitresses and making hilarious comments. zhang, wayne, melvin, kenneth, fabz, kenny, val, cheuks and me. the 9 of us. then we hung out a bit, looked around topshop and zara, wayne bought ice cream, chatted a bit, then cheuks, wayne, fabz (i think) and i left for the mrt to go home. choke slamming is the in thing now btw. cheuks wayne and i all live around the purple line haha. ok next.

got home, read a bit, did some work, filled in more scholarship applications, felt drowsy, watched some tv, watched Born To Sing 2007 video (PUNCH YAYYY) and couldn't help smiling throughout our J1 PUNCH performance. haha such happy fun times. then got ready to leave for velocity to meet kialiang geof isaac yf joash jul for dinner at ichiban sushi (totally not surprise birthday dinner for kia). met linus and amos and family there too. had a great time over dinner and after that at udders eating exquisite ice cream haha. when we started chatting about random stuff, i remembered how much fun my choir friends are and why i enjoy hanging out with them so much. apparently i'd forgotten how happy such outings could be or used to be. and with them, somehow i can just speak my mind without any inhibitions whatsoever, and rant and laugh and joke and be sarcastic and laugh some more and just have fun. so we really had a nice time telling stories and laughing at things/people/joash, and of course stuffing ourselves with sumptuous food. finally left when it was almost 11pm. went back to bishan with yf and got home, and now i'm blogging. still have a few things to finish before booking in tmr sianz. meeting my favourite class for lunch at clarke quay tmr, then having farewell dinner with crystal and gang before booking in.

sidetrack: in the train on the way home with cheuk yiu and wayne, we somehow started talking about double eyelids and how wayne has a 'punch my face' face and cheuks has a 'choke slam me' face, then cheuks said something about me having a face that screams out that i want to be loved. something along these lines. perceptive indeed. and i wondered if there's more than a little truth in his words.

meanwhile, i'm going to try my best to make my groups's PAR for attachment to STC look decent compared to melvin's group's ppt. bye!

03wks x ROC

2009-10-30T17:47:00.005+08:00

well the last major activity for pro term is finally over. so i shall try to digitize the past 3 weeks of memories here. this is gonna take some time.

ROC: 071009 - 291009

071009/081009: met at airport t1 at 2330hrs. most guys wearing penguin. some wearing coloured shirts. like me. the funkay people. basically hung around chatting with everyone. then some of the infanteers came to send us off and it was great to see them after so long. hui jie, jun jie etc. uncle ray came to see me off too which was cool. didn't get to spend much time hanging around with all of them though, coz soon after getting our boarding passes we had to go clear immigration already. first time away from home for such a long time. felt kinda weird leaving and saying goodbye. but the moment just flew by as we brushed past the security personnel and gathered on the other side of the immigration counter in our packets. thereafter met some signals friends and walked towards our boarding gate. had a good time catching up with the signallers from tango 3 and had quite a few laughs as usual with this bunch. sat with longzhao in the waiting area and had a good chat. somehow we always seem to be on the same wavelength which makes talking very easy. a while later, we boarded the plane. so marked the beginning of our 3-week stint in taiwan.

081009: arrived in taipei, boarded the bus in packet level headed to a place in taizhong where we would be settled in for a good 2 weeks plus. sat with fabz in the bus and alternated between watching random movies being screened on the bus tv and sleeping. had a few stops along the way for toilet break and what not, but fabz and i stayed on the bus, occasionally just standing to stretch a bit. all this time i was still rather excited about the prospect of training in roc, with the different climate and culture and language mostly. and this feeling lasted all the way until the moment i woke up and found our bus entering the gates of meilin camp. then the anticipatory mood simply plummeted. when we got off the bus and fell in with all our stuff, all i could think about was how depressing the atmosphere was. it wasn't really the impression the camp compound gave coz it looked absolutely fine. it was just knowing that that was only the first day of 3 weeks in a foreign country. and training hadn't even begun. the rest of the day was spent doing in-pro. our bunk was separate from platoon 1's. anyway i found a nice bed on the 2nd tier of a double-decker bed, between kenny and cheuks, with damien and matthew below. the rest of my syndicate found beds in the vicinity, so we managed to have sort of a syn 4 area. of course with permanent member wayne in our midst (next to cheuks). found that the showers had hot water which was fantastic (since the temperature fell to the low 20s at night), and there were vending machines on the ground floor selling snacks, drinks and instant noodles (our bunks were on the 3rd floor. signals occupied 4th and 5th).

091009: spent the day doing stores and had vehicle orientation. squeezed 11 people in the back of the humvee (9 from my syndicate with 1 v.comd, +lta wang and lta liang). got to see part of taizhong and somewhat familiarize ourselves with the road conditions and perculiarities of driving in taiwan. like the blatant disregard for red traffic lights and illegal u-turns. only thing worth mentioning is our halt point, where there were strange scantily-clad beings trying to catch our attention from the 2nd floor of a building in front of us. and syndicate 5's humvee crashed into a civilian lorry. thank God no one was hurt.

101009-121009: begin ex logstride. 3 days 2 nights of foot topo in half-syn level. meaning nick, sean, kai jun, myself and zhang. and our fat-ass field packs that seemed to be heavier than in brunei. start point was in some temple a distance away from camp. again, i was quite excited at the idea of 3 days of unsupervised topo, by ourselves, without instructors. but after climbing up and down the slope just to get out of the temple and hit the road, i wasn't feeling too enthusiastic. nonetheless our team was determined to push hard and finish all our check points quickly so that we could return to camp early if possible. all in all, topo was probably the most fun part of training in taiwan. we managed to find all 6 day and 4 night check points over 2 days, even if 1 or 2 of them posed a huge challenge to us. but the feeling when we found FIRE (our first cp) after hours of searching several everests was phenomenal. couldn't stop smiling for minutes after that haha. day 2 was even great fun as we had lots more time to find our check points and we found 2/3 day ones before noon, so we found a nice rest spot next to a stream and camped there for about 2 hours, lounging around with another team we met along the way, cooking noodles, washing up by the stream, lightening our field pack load :p anyway the locals were all extremely friendly and ready to help. even when we accidentally trespassed on someone's plantation, the owner still offered us directions to where we were going. apparently a few teams even had fruits offered to them by the locals, and some were granted shelter from the rain in their houses. fantastic. in the end, we all managed to meet the required number of check points and had 100% accountability of all controlled equipment. only mishap was when an overly friendly dog decided to nibble on karwai's finger when karwai was trying to be nice to it. nothing serious though. so we returned to camp after 2 days essentially.

131009-171009: begin ex summary eagle I. infantry battalion css ops. syndicate level. maj lian and 2lt matthias as DS. we got hit with the first no duff execution of movement to conc area, so had to work way past the time everyone else finished their presentations. mad rush in the night and the next morning preparing for cohort briefing and what not. anyway. interesting deployment areas. first was a carpark. 2nd was a park (which i navigated to at night from the carpark as convoy commander! and didn't get lost! whee). cool though. got a sense of how urban deployment would be like. vehicle navigation was fine, no major mistakes and no one got really lost or anything. had quite a packed schedule during this exercise with 1 day in camp planning and 3 days outfield. weather got cold at night. really cold. even more so in the wee hours of the morning. had to use my winter jacket coz i was freezing. but during the day it was hot. really hot. like 35-38 degrees hot. and there were 30000000 houseflies during the day. which got really irritating. as usual didn't get much sleep, but slightly more compared to previous exercises in singapore, i guess because our syndicate dynamics played a huge part, and also coz we more or less knew what we had to do. i'm still thankful for my wonderful syndicate members who have thus far made pro term so memorable and tolerable during the difficult times. we managed to have some fun even during this exercise. everything went well generally. and once again we didn't lose anything so that was good. returned to camp on the 16th. PAR on 17th.

181009-231009: begin ex summary eagle II. CSSB ops. maj tan, 2lt chua, 2lt rolland as DS. functional coys level. assigned to Bn HQ/Bde Rear. along with tau herng, kah hwee, qing quan, kai jun, melvin, wayne, matthew, aaron lim, andrew, jem tay. wayyyy to many indian chiefs. lots of times melvin and i would just stare at each other and go do our own things once a discussion began among the rest with everyone talking at the same time and no one listening, ending up with nothing being accomplished. not to say that the quality of our work and presentations was lousy. we produced great stuff and got things done eventually. we got hit with the first no duff execution again. movement to bsa 1. and again didn't have much time to ourselves the first night after planning in camp. at least the next morning was a lot less rushed than ex summary eagle I coz the cohort presentation was the night before. besides that, the first 2 days were quite busy, but after that the next 2 days were quite relaxed. somewhat like how a real CSSB operation would be like. we had 2 displacements after our initial deployment in some really crappy place with dense overgrown grass taller than us which we had to flatten with our humvees before deploying. bsa 2 was in a camp on a nice flat field which was super. they even cooked a whole tray of beef noodles for us that night. which was super too because it was a cold night. and i volunteered for prowling duty with melvin jem and matt. the same night we had taskings. which turned out to be nothing spectacular either. bsa 3 was outside a columbarium. which would probably be creepy what with all the tombs lining the road and the main building standing right in front of us. but after 4 years of studying next to one, it wasn't a big deal. another amazingly cold night. worse still, i left my winter jacket in my field pack which was in our trooplift humvee and i was too lazy to walk all that distance to get it. and 2 of our sleeping bags were left there too. so i ended up curling into a fetal position to stay warm. albeit unsuccessfully. woke up lots of times during the night and just sat on the table hugging myself while jem was snoring lightly next to me. then finally got up at 4am to prowl around the columbarium with tau herng. sort of enjoyed CSSB ops. more interesting than inf bn. and since we spent lots of time on the humvee travelling from 1 deployment ground to the next, we had quite a bit of time ot chat and stuff, which was fun too.

fast forward to the end of the exercise. navigated >100km from tainan back to the temple we began our foot topo in (in taizhong). there we officially found out about the 16km to commence at midnight (we reached the temple at like 8pm?). i was ranting about how dumb and lame it was to have a 16km route march right after our exercise for no reason other than to "end taiwan training with a bang". we heard rumours about it throughout the exercise but i was clinging on to the almost non-existent chance that it wouldn't happen. sigh. so we lazed around and slept a bit waiting for field pack inspection prior to move out. lay on the ground next to fabz melvin and john looking at the stars and chatting. soon we all dozed off. then it was time to make sure our field pack loads were evened out. ended up carrying a total of 20+kg worth of field pack load. and that was without the signal set. i just carried the signal accessories. first 4 km sucked. felt like forever before we reached our first rest point. then the next 4km i hung back with wayne, melvin, kai jun and can't remember who else, and played mind games, which was immense fun. actually more so for them coz most of the mind games were played on me -.- anyway i figured everything out just before reaching the halfway rest point. yay me. so that was a good distraction from the pain in my shoulders. but i wasn't gonna complain, after all those carrying signal sets weren't, so i wasn't about to. but the pace was really slow. when we finally reached meilin camp we were all madly happy. at least i was. sang lots of songs/cheers while marching around camp to complete our final 4km and everyone was high and loud. and i initiated the "together" song :) after that we had fresh breakfast! a bowl of porridge (ladled out by who else but sarge jonathan) and a stick of you tiao on the basketball court. nice. and spent the rest of the day resting/doing stores/preparing PAR points. stores were completed very quickly. we were the epitome of efficiency. so much so that we had the weekend totally free because we finished everything that friday. wayne and i presented PAR sometime later in the day. at least i think it was the same day. i totally accept that i'm a lousy speaker. but it still sucks.

241009: did next to nothing the whole day, apart from snacking and listening to music and talking. had canteen break in the evening, when all the instructors and supporting staff were out being treated to dinner by CO. watched Eagle Eye in our bunk projected onto the wall and ate nice ji pa (chicken chop) and drank milk tea while snuggled on the floor on a blanket with a jacket between john and kevin. when it ended and they began playing Hurt Locker, john and i went downstairs to sit at the steps at the car porch to look at the sky and think and chat. meanwhile the soccer and basketball people were still going strong (ended up playing for about 4 hours). had a nice reflective chat, then wayne, kaijun, jin yang came to join us and we shifted to sit on the slope so we could face one another and talk. continuation of nice chat. only bad thing was our legs were ravaged by evil sandflies. too bad our chat couldn't last longer.

251009: had random MT line/QM stores tour in the morning, but most of it was done in the QM's office talking about random things. spent most of the day preparing for end-of-frame dinner. poor melvin was working on the end-of-frame video since we got back from ex summary eagle II. with an annoying prat blaring away next to him constantly whenever he wasn't sleeping. i wrote nice labels with names for the VIPs attending the dinner to be pasted on their chairs at the table. turned out SO under-appreciated. after spending more than an hour writing 11 names and designing and cutting and waterproofing, they just went into the rubbish bin. zzzzz. dinner was ok, the food was nice, the music was nice (coz i was the one playing the music hahaha), the trailer and video (all prepared by melvin) were spectacular, the photos were reminiscent, and the impromptu speeches by darren and other people were hilarious. especially darren's. heh. had quite a good time la. the rest of the night was spent packing and clearing up, to get ready to leave for taipei the next morning for R&R. this last night, i squeezed into the upper double bed with cheuks and wayne coz mine and kenny's shared bed was in danger of collapsing on damz and matt. nice last night. apparently i stole chueks pillow halfway through the night but returned it. all unconsciously. haha.

that's it for now. its been a long long post. R&R post coming up next! exciting exciting. i absolutely loved the free time we had in taiwan when we could just chat about stuff. in fact all my favourite times were spent doing just that. its not so much where you are or what you've been through, but more of who you're with that makes the journey so much more meaningful and bearable. i love my loggy friends :)

now back to reality. yet another scholarship rejection. this time its one that i really really was hoping to get :'( was nervour out of my mind when the email notification suddenly popped up on msn, and when i opened it i almost cried, just that my mum happened to come home at that time which put an end to the emotional vulnerability. felt so sad after that..did my own things in a daze. i don't even understand why. its not even the first setback i've faced when it comes to scholarship apps. anyway after i completely unpacked my stuff from taiwan and washed everything, i was looking through old photos on my comp and reading some chat logs, which made me miss the past again and all my friends who used to be so much closer, who i was so sure would never drift apart even a little bit. not that i don't have close friends in the army. after reading the last part of my pre-taiwan post i realised i really did find best friends over the duration of the trip. but i don't want to lose my old friends who became so dear to me over the years. bleah. in a state of emotional confusion. once again. :(

i don't want to grow up so much. i want to be innocent and absolutely care-free again, not having to worry about what other people think about me or what i say or what i do. i miss being crazy and doing crazy things and being funny and making people laugh at everything and anything and being fun. sigh.

understudy no. 1: bobohead bryan!

understudy no. 2: isa!

punkz loisie haha

chorale pre-PW OP sentosa outing 2007: LOL i thought this was super funny

my favourite kor heh

chorale j2 farewell 2008: heart-shaped cookies for the girls :)

chorale j2 farewell 2008: hard at work

chorale j2 farewell 2008: en route! in the mrt. debs and gerald

carolling 2008: jul hairstyle no. 1

carolling 2008: jul hairstyle no. 1 (modified)

carolling 2008: jul hairstyle no. 2

carolling 2008: the master behind the amazing hair creations of jul

chorale j2 farewell 2008: remainder of cookie dough. PACMAN!

carolling @ MFA 2007: me-RAWR. jul-*looks ugly*

chorale camp 2008 recce team at botanic gardens!

birthday buddies 2007! tweety bird cake :p

Born To Sing 2007: during intermission. envious girls jealous of my extremely professional acting skills after PUNCH performance (:

Born To Sing 2007: boss wenhao with me and chris!

NUH attachment to paed surg 2008! yay scrubs!!!

chorale tour 2008: pre-olomouc results free&easy! loisie, fatty, benny!

chorale tour 2008: pre-olomouc results free&easy! val gerald fattychris loisie me at ice cream parlour!

chorale tour 2008: pre-olomouc results free&easy! loisie gerald val fattychris me touring the town with NO open shops. loisie's pink bag!

miss you val! come back soon!

away from home

2009-10-07T20:43:00.002+08:00

rawr. flying off to taiwan tonight for 3 weeks. 3 whole weeks. can't wait for R&R. and coming back in 3 weeks time and meeting up with all my friends who I haven't seen in ages. somehow it still doesn't feel like we're leaving tonight. all so surreal.

oh well at least the first half of the exercises will be quite fun. i hope. and we'll get to spend a lot of time together as 9th locc yay. funky munkey. and i promise to try to be a good example and testimony throughout the 21 days and not succumb to wordly peer pressure :)

i miss JC days and studying for A levels and taking A levels and hanging out with friends or studying with friends and going for canteen breaks while studying for A levels with chorale friends and studying at the windy benches and even studying for prelims when i was one of the last few to finish coz h3 math was the last paper and everyone else had finished and i was camping alone under block A trying to see frustratingly difficult patterns and memorising formulae. it doesn't seem like so long ago that we were doing all these things, yet the next batch is about to take their A levels already.

ok back to taiwan. at least i'm sitting next to val on the plane. and who knows, maybe i'll discover a best friend on this trip :p

bye folks! see you in a bit (:

Cohesing

2009-10-06T00:51:00.003+08:00

Thank God for the beautiful weather this morning which allowed Cohesion Day to proceed as planned. We managed to play our games, have quite some fun along the way and laugh at one another, and spend the day together with friends. Now its finally over and we don't have to worry about anymore administrative and executive planning :) Hope everyone managed to have a good time. Well at least it was something different from army training.

After Cohesion Day officially ended, we went to Parkway Parade to use our Coffee Bean Voucher won from Cohesion Day (Seth had to attend to more important appointments so didn't come with us =( ). Happened to meet Kaisheng, whom we've not seen in quite a while, outside Coffee Bean and had a short chat with him. Then walked across towards Roxy Square to eat Katong laksa, which was nothing fantastic. Took a syndicate 4 photo there (Kenny left us to find Val, Gerald, Yan Jie, Alan somewhere nearby to sing karaoke, which I visited for a few minutes), then Melvin, Zephy, Sean and I took a cab to Melvin's place, while John, Cheuk Yiu and Zhang went home, and Kai Jun went to find the people who were playing lan in Katong Shopping Centre. Kevin met us at the bus stop outside Melvin's house, then the 5 of us invaded his house and had a tour with many "wahs" and "oohs" upon discovering his really cozy bedroom with personal toilet among other things. After which we began playing Guitar Hero and mahjong. Yay Guitar Hero :p. Most of the time it was just Zephy and I playing, and occasionally Kevin. The rest played mahjong when Marcus came to join us a little later. Played until almost 9 when we had Canadian Pizza and chatted over dinner about army stuff mostly, with Sean providing much entertainment. As usual. Then continued playing a while more, finally leaving at 11pm. Kevin and I leeched off Marcus's cab to Queenstown MRT where Kevin left for Dover and I waited for the train to go to City Hall then to Bishan then to Lorong Chuan. Spent a lonely 40 minutes waiting for trains and leaning in a corner on the train listening to the classical-pop tunes of Il Divo and selecting possible songs for Melvin to use in our course video. At the same time happened to think of a very sweet thing to do during my wedding in the future, which will very nicely complement my previously meticulously thought-out enchanting proposal plan :p Finally arrived home at slightly past 12.

Somehow today felt like the last time I would see my Logs friends for some time. Felt it after we left ECP and were walking towards Katong. I still don't understand these irrational feelings. Then while waiting for the circle line train to arrive at Bishan, I thought of really wanting to experience how it'd be like to not act responsibly and consider others first and instead have someone I could depend on completely for a change. Someone who I could trust whole-heartedly, and who could do the same in turn. Someone who would always be willing to lend a listening ear to my often lame and awkwardly-phrased thoughts and comments, and not think any worse of me.Someone who would appreciate that a hug would do so much more than words when I'm feeling sad. Someone who would understand that when I say I'm fine, I'm actually not...

Haha >.< I'm just very very tired.

post #2!

2009-10-03T21:44:00.002+08:00

yet another exciting but tiring week in SOL.

spent almost the whole week having integration exercise with NS men. monday's 5km route march with the NS unit was really funny coz it was only in SBO and the pace was slow, like really slow, and they follow road traffic regulations like slowing down when approaching humps hahaha. and everyone walked/marched however they liked. and their comments and the things they did during warm up were hilarious. so we were off to a good start with the integration, knowing that we would probably get along with the NS men just fine. that afternoon, kenny, seth, matt, fabz, melvin and i hung around ISC comdrs and learnt quite a bit. it helped to have super friendly and kind ISC comdrs who were incredibly approachable and entertained our questions patiently. and the day wore on. and ended eventually.

tuesday saw the 6 of us heading off to join the ISC at their block early in the morning, and kenny, matt and i were the first to take off with the advance party. interacted quite a bit with the NS men during stand-to which was fun, and matt and i did the first sentry duty when we arrived. it was really hot and there were mosquitoes infesting the entire area, which kinda sucked. not to mention matt was trying to convince himself and me that we were best budds (or had the potential to be) as usual. but we did have a decent long chat. maybe for the first time. heh. after many many many minutes of toasting under the unsympathetic sun at noon, both of us finally got to link back up with the rest of the ISC attachees. got to observe the NS men at work and did more miscellaneous work. i realised that although they may be very sloth-y, when it comes to getting things done, they're definitely all there in terms of efficiency. then the day wore on and the 6 of us camped outside on our groundsheets for the night, cooking and snacking and chatting and sharing laughs. lots of fun times. just that lots of ants found our spot and continuously tried to bite us to death until we shifted location and stomped all over them. would have been a more restful night if not for the lack of any breeze at all and the ever-present mosquitoes.

cat 1 during the unearthly hours of the night/early morning, so we moved into the tentage and subsequently the tonner to seek refuge. got a lot better sleep there. woke up quite early, did our routine, had our breakfast, sat together and had a nice chat for most of the morning waiting to see a helicopter do work. highly enjoyable convos, while kenny tried to smoke everyone to death with his pyro-obsessive behaviour. fabz slept through most of our chat coz he had sentry during the night, and matt slept coz he's turning into a sloth :p finally got to watch our helicopter doing its day job. thereafter, matt, melvin and i stayed to help out and wait til night-fall to watch the chopper do its night job. the other 3 returned to help out with other stuff. we ended up having a long chat with 1 of the NS men who was really nice and shared lots of stuff. waited a long time for the night op, which was actually nothing spectacular. at all. then we did more manual labour before heading back to find the others. but didn't get to see them coz we displaced immediately so we stayed on our tonner while they were on theirs. -skip boring details-

FINALLY arrived at our new site early thurs morning and did our stuff as usual. got reunited with fabz, kenny and seth, after being separated for more than 12 hours. hung out a bit the NS men while waiting for things to happen, and cooked a little breakfast. did some drills which were rather fun after 14 weeks of being "non-combat" 8-) did more stuff, then collapsed everything and moved back to camp. -skip more boring details- said goodbye to ISC folks in the evening and returned to our SOL lives. so that was it for our integration exercise. i think those of us attached to the NS men really learnt a whole lot. and supply coy was especially fun to be attached to. and the NS men are really really really funny haha. ok next.

friday was sort of like recovery day from the exercise. managed to get lots of sleep the night before, and woke up when the sun was up, which was a first. we attended our ROC briefing after breakfast, which was when i made up my mind that SAF is definitely not the place for me to be at any point in my life in the future. found out that i'd be sitting next to val on the plane yay. well at least val's decent to sit with :D can't wait for R&R in ROC! after lunch we went to safti to draw our no. 1 and 2 ceremonial uniforms, which was quite a hassle, but we managed to find what we needed. while waiting to board the bus again to return to camp, i saw eric at his wing line! haven't seen him in a long long long time. felt good to see him back and surviving still. when we got back to camp, the 6 of us doing guard duty that night had to quickly pack our kit bags which were to be submitted the next morning. -skip boring details- kevin, chian fern, darren, seth, melvin and i came up with our own principal consdiration for the duration of guard duty: to sweat minimally and not dirty/stink up our nice and freshly-washed LBVs. so we took our time to march around and had a leisurely dinner before reporting to the guardroom. i was to prowl with seth, which was cool. but we were the 2nd pair to do duty, so the 4 of us sat in the recrea room to watch tv and chill in the air-con and eat many tropicanas and potongs while kevin and darren did their first shift. when it came to our turn to prowl, the route was so annoyingly planned that we just followed our own route where convenient and ended up sweating a lot anyway. finished up our round and went back to recrea room to cool down and have our night snack, finding that everyone else had gone to sleep. so we hung around for a while then went to wake melvin and chian fern up for their duty, after which we went to sleep. i hate not being able to fall asleep because there are too many things going through my mind. sometimes i wonder if it'd be easier if i had the ease of falling asleep that cheuks has XD anyway then we woke up to do our 2nd shift at 3am, completing our round in about half the time we took for our first shift. then went back to sleep a little. but got turned out around 5am by the annoying chunky BOS. and darren was being a psyduck as usual which was extremely funny, just that it only seemed a lot funnier when i was more awake later during the day and thought about the incident. (omits recalling of incident to save darren's image). rest of the day was uneventful. just had our kit bags inspected and kept in the store. then thorough area inspection with collective push-ups dished out to the wing upon detection of area cleaning mistakes in bunks and common areas. then booked out. -skip skip skip-

left for sime darby scholarship tea session with wayne at their performance showroom. had a good time chatting with wayne throughout and found out how attractive the sime darby scholarship actually is. now both of us want it. just like how both of us are waiting for EDB's 2nd round selection. yay future colleagues! =p how cool would it be if we both were offered the same scholarship and worked together next time! and i wanted to blog more about the tea session but somehow i can't remember what to blog about anymore. i need to sleep. spent the afternoon settling cohesion day stuff once and for all. and missed the 90-ers dinner that ruth has been pressuring me to go for. oh well i'll definitely try to make it for the next one.

ROC in 4 days! can't wait for summary eagle to be over wootz.

i think i liked today. yay. hopefully will get to go out with some friends tomorrow at least for a while. COHESION DAY ON MONDAY!

ok goodnight bennett (:

back!

2009-09-26T00:27:00.002+08:00

Yay i'm blogging again before a year passes since my last post. So many things have happened since that post, and evidently i have grown up. I won't bother recounting every major event in the past many months because its 12.34am and there still are things to be done before I rest my weary head upon my warm and waiting bed :p and it feels very strange trying to type in proper sentences so I'm going to revert to my normal way.

Now to jump straight into what I feel like blogging about at this unearthly hour. Life in logs has been fantastic. not so much because of the programme, but because of the people. from the start of pro term when we found out our postings and I was extremely sian about starting LOCC (because of like you know the stereotypical sentiments etc etc), the wonderful friends who accompanied me from Tango made the transition so much more manageable, and after *counts in head* 14 weeks with this bunch of to-be logisticians, I am once again immensely grateful for all of the them, especially my ever supportive and fun-loving syndicate. Each week, its no longer so hard to book in to camp, knowing that I'll get to see my friends again (and play BANG! and fool around and laugh a lot); the almost weekly route marches and occasional longer route marches aren't so hard to bear with the chats, random shouts and quirky songs led by over-zealous cadets; outfield exercises seem significantly less dreadful with good friends around you who pull their weight and support one another in all the crappy things we do (though there's still camou sigh). Maybe its a little difficult to understand. Its simply in our daily interactions. How almost everything we do is sincere and honest. Most of us anyway. How we give one another a boost whenever we need one. Or complain about things and scold as one. Or have a blast and face wrath together.

Maybe I'm not being very coherent. But it is 1.04am. And Kai Jun and I chatted quite a bit last night after lights out (haha throwing caution to the wind). And we ran 9.6km this afternoon. And actually I was only motivated to blog again after talking to Fabz. Anyway.

So, since joining logs, much of the change in culture has allowed me to reflect on how much I am truly blessed with, even during NS. Or rather, especially during NS. When one of our PCs asked me sometime this week who my good friends in LOCC were, I seriously thought it through (maybe that's why he assumed I didn't have any when I didn't answer him for quite a while), and while I'm not going to mention names here, I realised I am indeed blessed with a number of friends who can really be considered close. Thank God for these amazing dudes who mean so much more to me than simply course mates or acquaintances from OCS; for my exceptionally caring and fun syndicate, each member of which has brought something special to my pro term experience; for other friendships forged throughout the duration of the course so far, even the strange ones (heh), but which I know I can count on nonetheless. I never thought that I would find such joy in logs when I initially committed the upcoming pro term to God when we first got our postings. For that, I can't help but thank Him everyday for putting me where I am and for the wonderful friendships which I'm not sure I deserve.

Syndicate 4. Wayne. Jin Chao. Fabriz. Kenny. Seth. Val. Kenneth. Jem Tay. Matthew. To name a few. Yay I like friends :)

I think I'll review this post sometime tomorrow. Not sure if this is still me typing.

Memememememe

2008-10-14T22:39:00.003+08:00

1. bennett (:(:(:
2. zhunwen
3. 4-year-old bennett
4. joyce (also likely to be a member of the Society for the Insurance of Cruelty to Human Babies)
5. gen
6. fantasies: bennett, wild ideas: shuhui
7. auyong
8. ruth
9. josie+suet
10. suet
11. val (more like fantasize about)
12. i. personally believe. that. every single person. is a beauty. *smiles*
13. mr vadi
14. there's no such thing. everyone belongs in the grey area in between
15. minsi. or val as a girl =p
16. mr pan! (ok maybe not quite :))
17. quan (duh)
18. deb
19. kia liang (seems :D)
20. weiren
21. what's "S"? sexy?: well duh..val
22. i suppose "M" is for monkey: joash XD
23. mummy
24. GASP why would anyone do that?!
25. kia-ping
26. i don't need to do that -.- puleease
27. suet. bennett loves with all his heart too! like food.
28. julian. as sakura
29. Let person, out of all my friends, be X
30. i can't believe i took half an hour to do this zzzzzz. congratulations you just wasted another 3 seconds reading this sentence when you probably should be mugging

A Dog's Life

2008-10-04T22:56:00.002+08:00

Lessons In Life From A Dog

If you can start the day without caffeine;
if you can get going without painkiller;
if you can always be cheerful, ignoring aches and pains;
if you can resist complaining and boring people with your troubles;
if you can eat the same food every day and be grateful for it;
if you can understand when your loved ones are too busy to give you any time;
if you can forgive a friend's lack of consideration;
if you can overlook it when those you love take it out on you when, through no fault of your own, something goes wrong;
if you can take criticism and blame without resentment;
if you can ignore a friend's limited education and never correct him;
if you can resist treating a rich friend better than a poor friend;
if you can face the world without lies and deceit;
if you can conquer tension without medical help;
if you can relax without liquor;
if you can sleep without the aid of drugs;
if you can honestly say that deep in your heart you have no prejudice against creed or colour, religion or politics;
then, my friend, you're almost as good as your dog.

Almost, but not quite.

polly!

2008-07-11T21:45:00.003+08:00

hi i'm here after a million days of being lazy :) anyway i'm too lazy to put all of the below into a nice story format, but i editted out irrelevant convo stuff so its easier to read :) i felt a really strong urge to blog about it after i woke up this afternoon so here it is! ok too many things to do to blog longer than this so BYE! =)

btye2610@hotmail.com says:
oh i had a slightly scary dream when i napped this afternoon haha
btye2610@hotmail.com says:
i was super tired, then i fell aslp on my nice comfy L-shaped sofa
btye2610@hotmail.com says:
then i dreamt i was somewhere, then a polar bear came then i climbed onto its back and it flew off with me to bring me somewhere...then i was scared coz i was flying on a polar bear lol but then i dreamt i fell aslp hugging the polar bear while we were flying through clouds and stuff
btye2610@hotmail.com says:
then next scene was my classmate (edit: eric) and kai tsi (i vaguely rmbr it was kai tsi) were at my house o.O
btye2610@hotmail.com says:
then we were eating or something then my mum started scolding me in front of them for i cant rmbr what then i was quite embarrassed then i got pissed and was running around the house or something like that i dunno why XD
btye2610@hotmail.com says:
then i really thought it was real coz i was vry tired and delusional and the dream was very very vivid
btye2610@hotmail.com says:
then i was scared coz later my classmate (edit: eric) and kai tsi dont like me liao
btye2610@hotmail.com says:
then i woke up
btye2610@hotmail.com says:
>.<
btye2610@hotmail.com says:
then i was even more tired from the stressful dream so i went back to slp until 5.45 =)

Choir of the Century

2008-06-09T18:24:00.006+08:00

RAFFLES CHORALE COMPETITION TOUR 2008 (27 May - 9 June)

1) VII International Felix Nowowiejski Choir Music Festival, Barczewo 2008, Poland
- Gold
- Overall 2nd
- Best Foreign Choir
- Best Nowowiejski's Work Prize by foreign choirs(Parce Domini)
- Best Contemporary Work Prize (Lux Aurumque, Ave Maris Stella)
*4 standing ovations during the festival*

2) Festival of Songs, Olomouc 2008, Czech Republic
- Youth under 19 years old category: Gold, 100 points, Category winner, 500 Euros
- Superior Youth under 25 years old category: Gold, 96 points
- Sacred for Youth and Adult Choirs category: Gold, 99 points, Category winner, 1000 Euros
- Negro Spirituals category: Gold, 100 points, Category winner
- Finalist (Chorale was musically bested by a Peurto Rican choir comprising mature singers who really deserved to win)
*Raffles Chorale was the only choir to win 4 Gold awards at the festival*

hi (:

2008-05-16T21:36:00.006+08:00

its been 2 weeks since i last blogged! yay and i cycled 20.4km today :p and i just watched mighty ducks 2 for the 3rd time! haha its nice and inspirational and vaguely touching and funny and nice. and i lost my nervous system notes :( i think its somewhere in class.....

1) concert was a blast! most musically exhilirating concert ever i think. wasn't perfect, but had quite a few moments of beautiful sounds and magical experiences. then everyone was very happy and high after concert and during intermission got to say hi to rv friends and juniors and hype ourselves up and hugs from hormonal uh boys and girls. or maybe the word im looking for is emo. largely happy concert. though it was quite sad too coz its our last performance ever as chorale and probably our last concert too. for us j2s i mean. so it was fun and nice to perform at the esplanade and fool around in the dressing rooms and sit and chat and warm up in enclosed space, but underneath it all i guess there was also dread that it would end :( but it was still a happy day and all.

oh and and i absolutely loved the whole day haha. from flag raising til 2nd period when my beloved classmates wished me well when i left before PE, to going to collect mr toh's flowers from far east flora with gerald (when we had quite an adventure finding bus stops and looking for bus numbers with the correct bus zooming by as we did so and walking long distances to macritchie bus stop in the end hahaha), to bathing and changing in the secret toilet with random chorale guys (bathing separately -.-), to seeing nikki (who was relief teaching bio!) outside GO when we were pracising positioning, to the sufficiently enjoyable bus ride, to discovering a new nickname for minsi when we alighted outside esplanade, to checking out our dressing rooms and getting ready, to the nicest hug i've ever received just before concert started :D, to the scary first half of the concert, to the changing of attire and listening to rv after our first half in the dressing rooms and with my first funky hair styling by joseph, to the significantly more exciting and rewarding 2nd half, to seeing jianhao mohandass and jarrod sitting in the front-most row and hearing them grunt "go bennett" or something like that, to the encore and surprise walking off stage singing song of triumph, to the debrief by mr toh and the teachers, to yifan/guanwei/yishu imitating geoffrey's bow after his encore conducting, to being the last section to clear out of the dressing room, to meeting classmates and dear friends and seniors at the concourse and the flowers and chocolates and smiles all around. and of course our supper-outing to marina square. even though we were all quite tired. we arrived there to find almost everything closed. so we camped at the steps leading up to marina square where we sat at after syf last year. and chatted. and took photos. and lazed around. revelling in the atmosphere and simply enjoying the company. sigh its all about to end :( the only thing that was regretable was not taking an informal whole choir photo. sighs. that's it for concert. don't really want to think about it too much and feel sad. i'm just gonna remember all the happy moments on stage and with wonderful friends. i love chorale so much <3 can't imagine how life will be like after tour when there won't be pracs and sectionals to look forward to :'( ok maybe not sectionals. hahaha =p oh no i don't want that time to come...

2) ok everything else i thought of blogging about during the week pales in importance and emotional significance after reminiscing about concert. yeah there really isn't anything else that's worth blogging about. just that its been a tiring week with bio spa and clearing backlog of work and starting revision for CT2. ugh life is tough.

3) yay tour in 11 days! and oh no tour in 11 days :( but we are all not going to think about the day we come back after tour because we are going to focus on singing our very best and being emotion-ful and expressive and make every moment during the trip special for each of us.

5) aaaaaaaand we're back! i'm off to mug cell signalling coz mohandass koped my nervous system notes so i'm not going to be able to revise what was taught in lecture today and i'm going to lose the potential 80% of info that could have been stored in my long term memory because of this. TSK.

6) hi puffy who is reading this despite being flu-ful and who is supposed to go sleep...i mean was supposed to have gone to sleep 15 minutes ago (:

7) 6 is an ugly number so i shall end off with 7! yay i love chorale people many many <3 and my favourite class of all time (:

random photos from VE XVIII!

this was from carolling last year. at esplanade. the last time we performed there since VE XVIII. quite a nice photo as puffy pointed out haha. the ferrero (i think its spelt like that) adds a nice touch of colour to the black background noh? :p

x

2008-05-02T20:25:00.002+08:00

i cycled 20km this evening! yay. the weather is still very very hot. bleah. and cannot switch on air con the next few nights until after concert otherwise throat will be dry and dehydrated then cannot sing!

on a random note, i was filled with love for the world last night :p for about 4 minutes. then the feeling was gone.

school today was sort of different. before school started when i just reached parade square, weiren called me to ask if i knew isaac "broke" his leg. i was like O.O so apparently he was bouncing up some flight of stairs this morning then he fell or something then injured some part of his leg. then weiren said there was a teacher with him so uhh ok cannot do anything before flag raising was over anyway. then skip the details. then he ended up going to hospital and x-raying and finding out about torn ligament which should heal between 3-6 weeks. 3.5 weeks being the time until we leave on tour. and 4 days being the time until VE XVIII =.= isaac will WALK, not bounce, from now on, and STROLL, not gallop around. and isaac will not move any part of his body unnecessarily until his leg is fully healed (hopefully long before tour).

math tut was. ugh. should have discussed question with audrye before presenting. ugh

bio lecture was fine.

econs lecture was a blur as usual.

break was exciting. haha ate yong tau foo with gerald at the booth (which is a first) to keep amy and huiyi company. huiyi is slightly above yisheng on the 'gong'ness ladder. veeehry slightly above.

bio tut was in com lab! and we explored some gene therapy website and played space doctor! haha super funny. strange sounds being emitted from random people's speakers and sadistic dying noises when adenoviruses get digested.

gp was interesting. ok discussion on whether conflicts of the future will be over food is not all THAT but its interesting. i mean an interesting topic for gp discussion. especially since i read up a lot and prepared for it :) then mrs v. showed us some ppt slides of vaguely abstract illustrations comparing eastern and western cultures. something else that broke the monotony of normal gp lessons.

civics was fine. and mdm lee returned our chem lecture test papers since there wasn't much else to do besides review PTM. which was quite funny, coz on tuesday during chem tutorial, mdm lee told the class what tucky's mum said during PTM:

(this is just the gist of what was said)
Mrs Yee: "Teacher ah, why my son's progress report got a C ah...i never see a C before leh..."

HAHAHAHAHA. ok so tucky is going to convince his parents that he will not play computer games so much and not get a C ever again and to let him come for chorale concert =D

aaand the rest of the day has been boring. and since i intend to finish quite a lot of chem homework tonight and sleep by 11, i will go now. yay about 9 hours of prac again tmr! BYE BENNETT!

potatoes

2008-04-25T21:45:00.004+08:00

sometime yesterday in class when i was day dreaming, i remembered that when i started this blog i meant for it to be like a diary coz writing takes too long and my handwriting in sec 2 was too fat and ugly. haha so i shall blog like a diary entry! but i think its quite dumb to talk to your diary as in "Dear Diary".

Dear Bennett-who-is-older-than-he-was-when-he-posted-this-entry,

The Dark Is Rising is really a lame movie. The plot is quite bad and uh >.<-ish. managed to sort of resume my cycling regime again today after chem tuition. haha must remember to tell lois about "louis" and trip and stuff. haha private joke.

This afternoon when stoning at the ticket booth i resolved to be happier and more care-free about things so my face won't droop like how my mum says its starting to -.- then 5 minutes ago i was bouncing around in my blog archives and felt sad when i saw a november 2007 post :( i just wish nothing changed since last year. then 4.5 minutes ago when i finished reading the post there was a sudden emptiness inside me...or maybe i'm just hungry ._____. anyway i'll still try to be happier tomorrow. yay full day prac. i'm really not that lousy at singing. hmm i still can't decide if i should go for jazz and be slightly bored coz i think jazz is very slow and sleepy and just enjoy the company of chorale friends or go home and mug.

one of my favouritest photos from RV prague-slovakia tour in 2006 =)

I was striving to be happy and to stop being annoyingly emo and weird but now i'm little bit sad :(

and i frequently press the blue star on suetopus and giggle to myself haha.

I will stop exclaiming amasuet.

Off to mug organic chem and sleep by 11.

bye Bennett

out of the ordinary

2008-04-18T20:48:00.002+08:00

tuesday:
i felt tired - don't know why i was quite lethargic and drowsy the whole day even though i slept earlier the night before
i felt very happy - my best napfa score ever
i felt extremely sad/disappointed - worst afternoon of the year. but i've moved on, knowing that i wasn't in best vocal condition. i'll just um learn and be better. just that i'm afraid that there might not be a next time to prove anything.

wednesday:
i felt really tired/frustrated - couldn't sing very well. neck/throat hurt from napfa sit-ups >.< and it kinda sucks when you sleep earlier and wake up feeling even more tired.

yesterday:
i felt fatigued - woke up thinking that it was saturday...
i felt surprised/excited - my class had our first attire check ever. and half about half the guys in class failed because of long hair. ha. ha.
i felt determined yet fearful - ns talk during civics reminded me that i have 2.5 months to train and exercise before medical. and that i really want to get into ocs. even though command school is 38 weeks of hardcore training (as long as a pregnancy term)

today:
i felt slightly less tired than the rest of the week - had some energy to tell my brain to move my limbs to get out of bed at 6.10 to go for publicity busking at unearthly hours in the morning. and i remembered that i was 18 years and 1 week old this morning. hmm the week went by rather quickly.

why have i been feeling so tired lately?

i really do think i'm slowly becoming more mature. i genuinely felt happy and proud when julian told me he got a silver for napfa on wednesday. and again today when kia liang said before econs lecture that he scrapped a gold =) and i'm getting much better at controlling my emotions. i think. like i don't flare up too easily now that i analyse what i'm feeling before i do anything. at least i hope i do that all the time now.

bleah i don't want medical to come...especially after hearing about chris' experience yesterday :( i think my body will sprout mushrooms after all the contact with the (ugh) x-ray machine and (ugh) highly disturbing photographer person. hope kia liang's medical went well today.

thank God that i have lots of friends who care about me (thanks for reminding me that Suet). woke up from a dead-sleep-nap this afternoon and in my post-nap daze opened my file of cards and notes and letters from people to re-read some of my most treasured ones. then while i was still in a blur-daze (which is the time when you are either very easily agitated or very sentimental) my heart was ooooozing warmth. haha.

i get very annoyed at half-bimbos.

saturday

2008-04-12T23:32:00.004+08:00

1) running and pull-ups training with jul joseph geof before prac
2) sectionals and prac. bleah voice cannot make it today
3) surprise birthday celebrations (or rather part 2) which was the most wonderful thing ever. but since i'm emoing over nothing now i'll cut it short. basically there was delicious cheesecake (which really should be eaten in moderation), imaginatively wrapped humungous box with big extremely nice and thoughtful frame with photo collage inside (which i will cherish for a long time to come and hang up in my room once i find a way to do so without drilling a hole), funny big home-made birthday card, chorale birthday card, PUNCH birthday card, photo frame with carolling photo and decorated with fabric paint. i love my friends very much.
4) uneventful lunch at j8
5) enjoyable uh waiting-for-the-bus time with gerald and properly admiring my sweet photo collage
6) yawn rest of the day
7) i will upload more photos when i don't feel like such a bum
8) amasuet i feel like crying now for no reason. and i am having more frequent emo periods. bleah menopause

friday

2008-04-11T21:58:00.003+08:00

OMS yay i have many many nice friends <3<3<3

i woke up before my alarm clock rang today with great anticipation! then i fell asleep again and woke up minutes later when my alarm rang. haha then i found a nicely wrapped box-shaped present on my bed-side table! so i transported it to my study table to be opened in the evening when my parents were both around (obviously the present was from them).

then i went to school! then i realised i shouldn't leave my house later than 7.10am on fridays coz the whole route to school is always jammed like pigs >.< then i met julian at the porch at 7.36am coz i realised not much hurry since it was drizzling so no flag raising. then we travellin travellin travellin to choir table and where greeted with AMAGAD from some excited person hahahaha (tsk to the amagad). then we reached the table which was surrounded by many chorale J2s and stoned while they tried to light the sparklers which were stuck into the pots of our cactus presents. haha so an eternity later kia liang made it burst into sparks! ok pause american idol start.

ok advert now. so then err happy birthday to us happy birthday to us happy birthday to us. then gen gave julian a round purple barney hulium balloon and gave me a pink heart-shaped elmo balloon (chosen by kia liang haha) that read "(strikeout)Elmo(/strikeout)Chorale loves you very much" haha which was very sweet. just that it was pink and heart-shaped and floated above me the rest of the day T.T then roly poly gerald and humpty dumpty gave julian and i our cactus pots with cactus bulb things growing on top of the cacti haha which are quite cute. then gen suet jojo and josie gave me "jeannette" *rolls eyes round and round* haha super cute doggy to add to my bed-zoo. ok american idol brb XD

ADVERT. hmm oh yeah then various people did various things then i went to class! then my favourite class sang birthday song when i walked in yay :) then zzz tutorials and lectures which i paid FULL attention to somehow even though i slept 5 hours. then PW RESULTS! was really thankful to God for doing well. anyway i think many people in my class deserved to do better considering all that they put in. ok american idol.

jordin sparks sounds good with chris brown. ok back. then bio tutorial was combined with 3A in AVT which had NO VENTILLATION at all then no one wanted to open the doors, so we were all surviving on the oxygen from the photosynthesis of my little cactus. haha then mr low was calling random people from 3A to answer questions, then he asked this guy to say his name and answer the question. so the guy said "i'm gengyu..." and mr low was like "huh? gerbil?" LOL. so our class burst out in fits of laughter which is becoming a norm for bio tutorials haha yay. ok idol is starts.

AMASUET americans are racist im sure the bottom 3 this week are like the more pro people. just that they happen to be black, irish, and australian -.-

yeah so totally suffocated during bio tut. then had exciting GP essay for the 1.5 blocks until mdm lee came in for civics which was supposed to be continuation of our career discussion but didn't have time to do it coz we gave ourselves time extension to finish gp essay since mrs v. wasn't around XD then suet was msging my about being outside my class coz she wanted to pass me stuff but i was still writing essay so couldn't go out then she went away first. sorry >.< then after lessons my class decided not to go for class lunch since people had stuff to do or whatever. bleah. so i was quite sad that my lunch plans which i was looking forward to burst. ended up looking for suet and quan and joining alto sectionals for a while which was stony. IDOL.

anyway joined suet and quan and deb and fried to go to j8 to shop for stuff. drank nice coffee bean drinks as a treat and watched eew disgusting man with his leg resting on some lady's lap and PDAing. totally nauseating. then walked around to get stuff and went home. so after bathing i sat on my bed and slowly read birthday letters and cards and notes and opened presents and slowly felt much happier. IDOL.

ugh lousy american voting.

so as i was going through my birthday things i was glad that i have very nice good cherishable friends. then i went to open my parents' present. then i was like O.O yay but whoa so extravagant. but yay its the same colour and type as joseph's haha random thought :) then we went to SICC for dinner. then coz i was wearing a long sleeve tshirt and jeans, and the spaz place restaurant dress code said have to wear collared tee for males, the super annoying inflexible waiter came to drape some collared tshirt or jacket on my chair and explained that need collared tee or whatever so just put the collared shirt on my chair 8-) which was totally useless since there wasn't any use in putting it there when i'm obviously not going to put it on and when there were only 2 other tables that were occupied coz its still a weekday. so whatever la lousy noobs with lousy inflexible rules. and i drank a lot of tea haha.

then went home and i took photo of my birthday things like my nice pink balloon which i still like muchly coz kia liang picked it out hahahaha so that when it bursts or deflates or floats away i'll still have the photo to remember it by. aw. and here's my balloon!

and this is "jeannette"

haha one day i'll line up my menagerie and take photo of them living harmoniously together in my room hahaha. ok and i'm going to sleep early and wake up early to another exciting day of prac and nice lunch with chorale friends for a change. goodnight!

depres(SING)

2008-04-06T00:21:00.002+08:00

bleah i've been super duper tired for 3 nights in a row now. and i'm not going to blog about the million things i wanted to that i thought of when walking around thomson plaza after dinner just now coz i need to play piano tmr and i don't wanna be dozing off >.<

anyway was hoping to bump into lois there when i remembered she stays almost next door and i was sort of actively scanning the crowds and listening for potentially evil bursts of laughter but to no avail.

i wish i could have a "god-brother"-type friend.

profile!

2008-04-04T19:29:00.002+08:00

haha i found these photos + a profile report in some mini scrapbook in one of my record files my dad keeps while checking details for NS registration nonsense. its from my daycare place when i was 3! haha see see!

hmm i think this was 2 years later in kindergarten. no idea why its in my toddler file. eew cowboy suit.

This is the front of the report

And this is what the report says ---

I. Initiative
Bennett shows initiative in choosing desired activitiy, materials or playmates with a short sentence, eg. "I want to play 'doggie' in the Book Area with Jeannette". He identifies problems quite readily and often shows maturity and persistence in solving them, eg. on 14 Oct 93 when Nicolas wanted Ben's binoculars, Ben went to the shelf and took two toilet rolls for Nicolas to use as binoculars. Also, on 12 Nov 93, Ben told the teacher to punch the dinosaur if the dino bit her. WHen teacher said that dino would bite off her hand, Ben suggeted, "How about using your leg?" and demonstrated with a fierce kick in the air.

II. Social Relations
Ben is able to work on complex projects with other children, as in sharing labour, following rules and appears to receive social support from a friend (Jean) and shows loyalty to her. Conflict situations with Ben do not last long as he knows the solutions to them by readily sharing the materials or taking turn, eg. on a few occasions, Nicolas insisted on taking the yellow cup from Ben and each time, Ben willingly gave it to him without a fuss. Ben also responds appropriately to the feelings of others, eg. when Nicolas fell in the garden and bumped his forehead, the next few days Ben offered to hold Nick's hand when they went out to the garden so that Nick would not fall again. (EDIT: ok this is quite gay T.T)

III. Creative Representation
Ben's favourite activity is to build with the large wooden blocks, making complex structures with details, like which room is for whom. He is able to give clear explanations on what and how he is making the structures. While Ben enjoys exploring and dabbling with art materials, his drawings are just simple representations and he needs further encouragement in this area. Ben participates in cooperative pretend play with Jean, often assuming the role of the 'doggie' and going on shopping trips, cooking and helping to look after 'Betty' the doll. (EDIT: this is NOT TRUE. Must have been someone else who was THOUGHT to be me -.-)

IV. Music and Movement
Bennett is very agile for his age andhas good balance when moving fast (EDIT: i agrees!), eg. he very confidently swings fast on the swing, runs up and down the climber and enjoys strong rocking motios of the see-saw. He is also quite adept at manipulating small objects and things requiring small motor movements, eg. threading, zipping and correct holding of writing instruments. (EDIT: evidently i was a highly talented child) Ben follows spoken instructions for more complex sequences of movements, eg. putting one hand on the head and the other on the stomach. Ben also enjoys singing of songs (EDIT: who would have thought i was already musically-inclined at 3!) and responds to the beat of music with simple movements, like clapping and waving with the ribbon stick (EDIT: it was a very manly ribbon stick). While he does not always sing along with the class, in recent weeks he has been singing more frequently and on some occasions sang solos (EDIT: LOL this is kinda weird).

V. Language and Literacy
Ben follows multistep or complex directions. He uses sentences that include two or more ideas with descriptive details, eg. on 13 Dec 93, he said, "Last time, I go Junction 7 (8?) and see two Mickey Mouse and Goofy, but I didn't see Donald Duck. He was at the back. I can hear him." (EDIT: remember that I was 3 -.-) Ben enjoys talking about where he had been and what he saw, about his family and cousins, Nicole, Hannah and Jon-Jon and about his favourite TV characters, X-Man and Flashman (EDIT: that would be X-Men and The Flash). While he enjoys being read to, Ben will pick up a book to read quietly by himself during reading time. He loves to listen to stories and will pay close attention, following the pictures and the print. He can identify and write the letters of the alphabet but seldom likes to display his knowledge.

VI. Logic and Mathematics
Ben can count confidently to 15 and, usually, correctly to beyond 30, needing help with some numbers here. He correctly uses words like 'not, some, all, more or less'; words that describe spatial relations like 'on top, in front, over, under, behind' and other related words. He has a good grasp of seriation by size, length and height and can compare three or more things using comparison words appropriately (smaller, smallest). Ben describes or represents a series of events in the correct sequence, eg. he has a good idea of the class daily routine, that "after clean-up time is recall time, after recall time is small group time, after small group time is outdoor time".

Then theres this foolscap paper attached behind with this complex diagram entitled "The Great Invention". Anyway, after leafing through dusty yellowed things and discovering many top secret, not-meant-for-my-eyes documents and printed emails and what not, i understand a lot more about how much my parents did for me since i was young.

Sigh what happened to me >.< I'm so proud of my 3-year old self :)

fotoes

2008-04-02T23:44:00.004+08:00

ok since i'm bored here are some photos from prague/slovakia '06

julian getting eaten by a turtle

little daniel, who was, is, and will always be little :) don't try to eat your computer monitor now suet

dinner in some cozy/warm/hot restaurant in cesky krumlov! haha guess who crashed our table

tactful waitress

i actually only look shorter than gerald coz the photo was taken from an angle

lollipop, lollipop, oh lolli lolli lolli lollipop

we're all blue! roomies + ben

dimmed-duh

2008-04-02T22:02:00.002+08:00

1 April 2008
HAPPY AFRIL POOLS!

i think everyone has his own mad day. i think today was mine. my emotional track for today went something like this: sane (until flag raising) -> nervous to adventurous to bored (in chem prac where we were playing with hydrocarbons and making almond-smelling compounds) -> highly annoyed verging on pissed to nervous to relief to nothingness (during econs tutorial) -> anticipating to happy happy (during math tutorial) -> close to normal to surprise/shock to normal again (when i got a tuna sandwich from clara saying it was from zhuangyi O.O when we were fooling around before prac, then during prac, except that my throat has been feeling very rough since this morning so didn't really want to push my voice so wasn't as enjoyable as i'd hoped) -> playful to almost immature (during sectionals) -> pure madness (upon returning to LT for announcements and meeting) -> sane (during meeting) -> bored and normal (after going home). exciting huh.

haha the powers of photoshop which i learned in 1 minute :D "close-to-blemishless" sample 1:

i SHALL upload more nice photos which i've been wanting to since a few weeks ago now that blogspot's photo upload function is fixed.

PUNCH is my sincerest ultimatest totallest favouritest small group in my universe.

HELLO!

2008-03-29T22:29:00.003+08:00

17 March 2008 - (when mugging for chem CT1)
btye2610@hotmail.com says:
uh ok haha
btye2610@hotmail.com says:
life is tough
happie_ericlim@hotmail.com says:
like a walnut.
btye2610@hotmail.com says:
lol

haha it just struck me that that's a lot funnier than i thought it was. HAHA.

yay i new sofa assembled itself in my living room! and its like L-shaped so i can fall asleep watching tv while facing the tv! how infinitely exciting.

yay for chem!

i wasn't feeling well yesterday and today but after spamming a total of about 10 polyC/bodyrox/echinecea (however its spelt)/manuka honey/lozenges i think i'm much better now!

yay yay nice buffet dinner (with lots of seafood!) tmr with cousins! but bleah cannot overdo it coz cannot train intensively now that im not exactly well and napfa is coming in 2.5 weeks o.o and NS medical O.O and i just stopped shaking my leg and it feels weird.

i'm going to stop leaving work to night time or when i feel like doing it and push myself to do it very soon after i get home so i can sleep earlier and not get superbly tired and fall sick some more. yay.

i LOVE choir pracs now that i've found my beautiful (but maybe not THAT consistent) high tenor range XD i like like song of triumph a lot! miao.

Great and marvelous are Your deeds,
Lord God Almighty,
Just and true are all your ways;
You, O Lord, over all are King
Who will not fear You, O Lord, and bring glory to Your Name?
For You alone are holy.
All natios shall come and worship before You,
For Your mighty and holy acts have been revealed.
Great and marvelous are Your deeds,
Law-awd God Al-maaaaaaaai-teeeeee.

my birthday is coming my birthday is coming!!!!!! hi julian i still remember that i'm older than you by many hours even if you still vehemently insist otherwise.

aaaand we're done here

2008-03-25T19:03:00.002+08:00

yay my chem grade improves by 2 grades every major exam since common test 1 last year :D Soli Deo Gloria!

i keep having impulses to pour my heart out to someone these days just that i don't know who and what to pour out T.T haha phase 2 of mid-teens crisis

ruff

2008-03-20T21:07:00.005+08:00

yay life is not so tough anymore. at least for a while.

haha check out this link. SUPER funny.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FQt-h753jHI&feature=related

i'm gonna find new template for my blog coz apparently this layout is difficult to read and small -.-

anyway here are some nice books the widely-read bennett strongly recommends:
1) Anne of Green Gables (series of 9 books) - L.M. Montgomery (classic novels)
2) Tuesdays With Morrie / The Five People You Meet In Heaven - Mitch Albom
3) Little Men / Little Women - Louisa May Alcott

aaaaand minsi and chris are going to be slaves for each other after CT results come out coz of some bet. hahahahaha. its ok julian you can still be a slave for minsi too :D

i think my blog is quite boring >.<

ok off to find blogskins

dean's list

2008-03-15T00:05:00.004+08:00

yay i finished mugging 9 topics for bio today! just the notes though..tutorials come later if there's time :) there's not much time to mug everything as thoroughly as julian who has some superb computer memory =.= there really is a whole lot to memorise for bio sighs. 3 more mega topics and 2 light topics for bio left. out of 22 topics in total. woots.

totally randomly, i exercise excessively when i'm mugging hard for CTs/exams, especially when i'm mugging bio. i think it's all the free energy within me that has to be released but which i can't afford to waste any time on by going to the park to run around and what not. so i end up doing a lot of workouts everywhere in the house. like i must have done a total of 50 pull ups this afternoon in sets of 4-5. haha like when i was memorising DNA translation process i did 1 pull up per sub-section. meaning..um..1,2,3,4a,4b,4c,5 = 7 pull ups! yayz. and multiple push ups. and sit ups. and i'm proud to say i walked in and out of my study room about a million times while mugging! ha =) Bio Bursts Bennett's Brain

the more i think about it, the further away chem dean's list seems to get from me T.T

emotions

2008-03-11T18:54:00.003+08:00

Extract from Tuesdays with Morrie:

"If you hold back on the emotions - if you don't allow yourself to go all the way through them - you can never get to being detached, you're too busy being afrad. You're afraid of the pain, you're afraid of the grief. You're afraid of the vulnerability that loving entails."

"But by throwing yourself into these emotions, by allowing yourself to dive in, all the way, over your head even, you experience them fully and completely. You know what pain is. You know what love is. You know what grief is. And only then can you say, 'All right. I have experienced that emotion. I recognise that emotion. Now I need to detach from that emotion for a momemnt.'"

"...When you learn how to die, you learn how to live."

I (the author, not bennett) thought about how often this was needed in everyday life. How we feel lonely, sometimes to the point of tears, but we don't let those tears come because we are not supposed to cry. Or how we feel a surge of love for a partner but we don't say anything because we're frozen with the fear of what those words might do to the relationship.

Morrie's approach was exactly the opposite. Turn on the faucet. Wash yourself with the emotion. It won't hurt you. It will only help. If you let the fear insdie, if you pull it on like a familiar shirt, then you can say to yourself, "All right, it's just fear, I don't have to let it control me. I see it for what it is."

Same for loneliness: you let go, let the tears flow, feel it completely - but eventually be able to say, "All right, that was my moment with loneliness. I'm not afraid of feeling lonely, but now I'm going to put that loneliness aside and know that there are other emotions in the world, and I'm going to experience them as well."

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food for thought huh :p

i've been trying 3 nights in a row now to upload photos to blogger but it just gets stuck when its complete =.=

trouble trouble

2008-03-01T22:07:00.002+08:00

a) I.
b) Personally feel that.
c) Today was quite a happy day.

- Saturday morning exercise: run 2 rounds, pull ups, started to rain, push ups, planks, phantom chair, jump up and down stadium steps, bathe
- prac: i love wade in de water. would absolutely love parce and other sacred songs once i have my refresher on how to make do with the disgusting voice i have and sing properly. etc etc.
- lunch: zzz
- sign language course: EXCITING. was 45 minutes late coz prac ended late then took our time to leave school and eat lunch as usual -.- but managed to catch up quite quickly. so i can sign the alphabet, numbers, and random words/phrases and names! then when the teacher went round testing us the signing of our names then i could do it! then he said something like if i attended all the lessons i could possibly be the top signing student! HAHAHA. orh.
- rest of the day: went home, bathed again, plonked down on the couch to re-read anne of green gables and dozed off into blissful dreamland, woke up feeling unnaturally happy because of some dream i could actually remember in detail when i awoke but can't anymore, mugged equilibria, dinner with cuzzes and watched tv, mugged and mugging organic chem (oh yeah and staggered practising piano), then blogging and chatting.

happy day.

hmm i'm starting to wonder if i'm being too idealistic in viewing my relationships.

bananas are high in potassium which stimulates one to be happy too.

team raffles. sure.

2008-02-27T20:33:00.003+08:00

new team raffles polo tee coming out. i can't stand the way council and the school in general is so sports-oriented. like council arranges for match support for all sports and ask for match details and how the sport is played so they can now give out info sheets to supporters so they might know a bit of what's happening during the match. of course this is for nationals and what not. and while they will once again put up boards for the school to write messages to sports players when their seasons start to encourage them and screen flash facts and particulars of people on the rather useless tvs placed strategically everywhere around the school, basically nothing is done for the musical groups and non-sports CCAs. zzz. i do still think council is THE most inefficient and elitist organisation in school.

haha on the way home today i was listening to 9.38fm on the radio in the car, and they were playing 938 livewire, the game where there's some clue then listeners call in to give their answer and hopefully win some book or something. haha then quite often people call in with really weird answers. E.g. Q: What can you find in a home that could lower the risk of heart disease? A: Karoake set. =.= haha then today while i was tuned in, a "daniel" called in. lol i'm just blogging about this for the sake of blogging so let me reenact the scene...

DJ: hi who's on the line?
Caller: daniel.
DJ: hi daniel, i like your name. Aaaand what would be your answer?
(meanwhile, bennett listens and thinks to himself that "daniel"'s voice sounds very familiar and its quite a coincidence for a person with that name and whose voice sounded that way, coupled with the fact that bennett saw kai tsi at RJ carpark as he was leaving school)
Caller: a fish, in an aquarium.
(bennett strongly suspects that it is who he's thinking of)
DJ: ooooh i'm sorry daniel that's not the right answer. better luck next time.
(bennett messages the daniel he knows and asks whether he just called in to 938 live)
[5 minutes later] *Daniel Cheong calling*

haha and it turns out it really was him. so interesting. i am obviously desperately searching for some deviation in the routine that is J2 life. aaaand off to do more muscle building and mug econs and GP! XD

bleagh i really want to feel like i'm contributing with my singing T.T

i

2008-02-23T23:41:00.002+08:00

i like 50 First Dates. its a nice sweet movie with an emotionally touching storyline. which would probably be quite unrealistic in the real world. but its very nice to watch.

i would like to have a vocal chord transplant.

i am at the point in my life again when there be many mixed emotions and feelings and thoughts scampering around in my head making me confused.

i am growing closer to my classmates. yay.

i hope that i don't spoil my relationships with chorale people during this time after all we've been through and because i know that in the end they are still my closest friends.

eating more meals a day but smaller portions will help to increase your basal metabolic rate.

thinking in progress...

2008-02-18T23:37:00.003+08:00

i realised i've been taking my class for granted. and considering i felt it was the best class i've ever been in at the start of last year (and i still do think so), i think i should treasure my wonderful classmates much much more. i will miss 3M dearly when the time comes to part :(( hope we'll have many more outings and chalets and house crashings and pool and captain's ball and mini class parties and what not. i really do miss all those times last year >.<

i'm wondering why all this mushy-ness is getting to me. now i think jian hao is actually a nice friend =S and that shuhui is quite human XD all these weird emotions and thoughts and feelings.

mid-teenage-life crisis.

pretty bouquet-in-a-pot from our civics flower arrangement elective made by alicia and i =D

pick up sticks

2008-02-17T22:55:00.004+08:00

1) i changed my blogskin! haha wonderful i managed to edit and what not in less than half an hour :p

2) take 5 was fun! our captain's ball team amazingly managed to get through first round (against some J2 class with like fuginn and gerard pro basketballers), then got thrashed 10-3 to a pro J1 team (with like 5 basketballers out of the the team of 7). haha we somehow managed to face off all the teams with basketballers. it was one of the extremely get-high times during our first match when we were all super enthu and excited throughout the match. and i love 3M lots <3 wanted to stay longer and eat lunch and blade or whatever with the 10+ guys who stayed back after take 5 to play captain's ball among ourselves (haha with trees at captains) but had to go home T.T anyway spent a dreary hour taking mrt with audrye ruiyi brenda joyce and ended up eating at pasta in BISHAN. because we couldn't decide what to eat at whitesands. its actually quite funny how we went all the way back to bishan to eat when we were at pasir ris. sigh.

3) my thoughts and feeling have become somewhat erratic since cny. hmm. haha.

4) yay i'm happy with my new skin

5) i<3M

6) ericcc's design for our class blog is way cool. thanks ericc =)

7) i can't get the comments link for my posts to work! somebody help!. and this makes 7 things i wanted to say in this post (:

2008-02-10T18:10:00.000+08:00

Chorale Shout-outs #5

Min Si
EEEEEEEEEEEEE minsai! haha minsi is quite bad at suanning people and ends at getting suanned most of the time instead. heh. Despite her prata-throwing-into-other-people's-soup and pushing-people-into-tables-where-it-hurts-the-most tendencies, ching is mildly evil and laughs a lot. especially at julian. but then again everyone laughs at julian. HAHA. when asked about what she thought about julian: "we belong together!" no actually i said that about them but its inferred :D now for the nice things about mincy. hmm...let me think really hard. HAHAHAHA ok minsi is QUITE nice and VERY mad and is so much nicer after she's injured you or defiled your food XD nice crazy girl to be with. together with geet and jac, she's unstoppable. haha this is extraordinarily random but i just thought of a nursery rhyme that has totally no link to any of this while typing this last part :D

Geetha (and harry)
G. Swami a.k.a. harry pottu (pronounced po-tuh) XDXDXDXDXDXDXDXD despite the outward violent and aggressive and lian image she projects (ok inward also :D), G. Swaminathan does exhibit some form of caring and shows concern under certain circumstances. When aggravated, this taekwando master will not hesitate to beat the aggressor to pulp. However, this gal's uhh...more sensitive nature presents itself when she twirls as gracefully as a duck doing her classical indian dance (which no one has actually observed before. at least no one alive has). apart from these, she is oddly funny most of the time and never fails to bring a smile (or a smirk) to people's faces. Typically vegetarian (please do not feed any meat).
haha XDDD geet is nice (:

Lois
HAHAHA i like lois =D lois is super funny. i love laughing at her laughing/cringing at certain weird things/things people do/people...like julian XD haha and lois laughs really funnily too. and for some reason people find it extremely funny when she TRIES to imitate me but obviously fails to do so (ending up doing a terribly lousy imitation in fact). but i like lois =DDD hi lois (:

Joseph
josie! jojo's (a.k.a. joelle) counterpart (just a random thought to amuse myself). joseph is a nice guy! not at all appearing to be a typical tennis jock/snob, joseph is a cool friend who does old uncle imitations the best :p foreseen to flirt with many girls/guys before settling down (hopefully with 1 girlfriend) and getting married in his late 20's *winks knowingly* joseph is going to treat bennett to desert at some exquisite eatery sometime this year because bennett feels like it :) i think joseph would make a good big brother (:

Valerie
VALLLL! is surprisingly caring at times (: and when she shows it, you get a really nice feeling knowing that people like her actually sort of look out for you. haha and she's super-duper-uper funny! the way she BURSTS out (or squawks XD) super randomly and EXTREMELY loudly at totally un-funny jokes no matter where she is. even in crowded adam road hawker centres during the lunch hour on saturdays =D and how everything she does is hilarious la. i can just conjur an image of val running in her aunty style waddle and laugh to myself (which, believe it or not, can appear quite strange when there are people around me when i do that). yay val =)

time

2008-02-09T21:53:00.000+08:00

"like sands through the hourglass, so are the days of our lives"

bintan was refreshing. its been something like 7 years since i was there playing laserquest with jerry and whoever else from our AG. i think its one of the more memorable cny trips with my extended family, probably because there wasn't any place to spend the whole day shopping at and we had to find things to do to entertain and amuse ourselves. hmm actually the only things we did were
1) play laserquest x4
2) cycle around the whole resort x2
3) go to the beach x2
4) mug x3
5) play bluff x1
6) play table tennis x1 (i'm really quite good =D)
7) play table soccer xinfinity
8) hit some balls at the driving range x1 (where i discovered my hidden talent once again XD)
9) shop minimally
10) eat
and i think we had a decent lot of exercise through all our running about. and maybe somewhat of a tan. heh. i'm so inspired to exercise more and train. anyway i think us cousins grew closer through this trip. yay. (on a side note, its really sad and frustrating when boyfriends/girlfriends/etc take priority over family)

here's some random thought that has been on my mind (something quan or suet or someone said to me when i was lamenting over the annoying inefficiency and lameness of council on some occasion): when people are passionate about something and really believe in what they are doing, it always shows in the end-product/result of their work. so like in chorale where i'm sure everyone sincerely cares about the choir, we always manage to plan wonderful farewells and exchanges and come up with amazingly pro 50+ page proposals for camp and have exciting and enjoyable camps even when we face setbacks. i suppose thats why external games for our camp was allowed whereas those proposed by other CCAs for their camps were rejected =DDD hooray for us!

oh yeah and we had a fun time at our half-class outing on tuesday at fish&co and the arcade in dhoby ghaut mrt. haha who thought para para and ddr could be so exciting and fun XD and besides the earth-shattering revelation later that night, i<3M (:

i can't remember the other thought provoking thing that was on my mind but nvm. yay photos!

2008-01-18T23:54:00.000+08:00

ivan said something to me while he quan and i were sitting on the watermelon steps today eating the packet dinner from MT'licious. can't remember what happened exactly, but the context was something like me being annoyed at how the night was progressing and how the party is more for the J1 OGs etc etc. then he said, "smile, because God loves you" (or w.t.t.e). wah then i was quite...err...moved. yeah so i thought that was worth blogging about :D goodnight (:

2008-01-16T21:50:00.000+08:00

hello! i'm taking time off my precious studying time to blog! i think these days i only update when i'me feeling extremely happy or very sian and sad >.<

today was one of those sian days this year (so far) which seem to happen more often recently, just that i'm only blogging about it coz its just about one of the most disappointing times of the month.

somehow since the start of school this year, i've been very motivated by some unknown force to work hard until A's in 10 months time, and i suppose its starting to show a little result. and just when i was starting to feel slightly more confident about being able to achieve much more academically, the school system comes and pricks my nicely forming bubble. not that i don't agree with the reasoning, to cut a long story short and to save my precious mugging time, i just think its not fair that the school doesn't want to give students an opportunity to prove that they can do it (or at least try). this probably sounds quite incoherent but i just felt that. yeah. but whatever happens, i will have the peace of mind knowing that everything will work out according to God's purpose for my life. and this thought has kept me going a few times already the past 2 and a half weeks.

well anyway, had pizza lunch meeting with mr toh and ms tan and mr pan, who is super cool and whom i'm glad is our teacher i/c. its these random things and just not having to do anything specific that help to distract me from whatever's on my mind. so after mr toh left practice and sectionals where superficial things seemed to have clouded my mind, it was very sian again T.T i mean i was going through my sian phase again. and for some reason when people were talking about the music and what not i was thinking to myself that i don't care about singing anymore, and why should i care that we're working towards some intangible goal, because soon it will be all gone. not that i was contributing much anyway. then i started getting annoyed that we couldn't achieve simple stuff like getting the rhythm right. then i remembered that i suck too. so i was super irritated at myself. and lots of other things. then i realised i'm not doing this for whoever else i might think of or even myself, and i was being shallow and childish in a way. then i remembered that in whatever i do, there should only be one objective and point of focus. so i sort of stopped feeling too sian =S

haha i think val is right in a way when she frequently exclaims that "life sucks". especially this year. you can't even afford to breakdown and stop doing whatever you're doing, because you'll be swept away and end up struggling to keep on top of everything. like when you feel that you're just going through the routine and not actually achieving anything and you want to have your own quiet space for a while to recover and take stock of your life. thank God for always being there to depend on.

oh and another thing that's bugging me are the issues that keep presenting themselves that involve a conflict of beliefs of my own that i don't really have answers to. i hope this sian/emotional/mood-swing phase ends soon. i don't like feeling sad..its so unnatural.

thanks quan for always being so sensitive. and thanks suet for running all the way towards raffles room to say bye and be concerned (: i missed julian at math lecture today :( hahaha get well soon julian!! X)

Facing The Giants

2008-01-01T15:38:00.000+08:00

Facing The Giants is an absolutely amazing movie to watch. Its such a moving and motivational show that it really touches your heart. And its not the same as when you watch a movie where like someone's loved one dies from some terminal illness and you feel very emotional and whatever. I've never even come close to crying when watching any movie before coz i'm extremely macho and not overly emotional or sensitive X), but during the 2nd half and towards the end of Facing The Giants, I coulnd't help tearing. Good thing my parents didn't see me crying coz it would have been kinda awkward >.< You have to watch it to experience the kind of emotional attachment and truth in the movie. I just finished watching it and simply had to publicise it. Here's the link to the official website: http://facingthegiants.com/home.php

This is a short synopsis:
In his six years of coaching, Grant Taylor has never had a winning season. Even the hope of a new season is squelched when the best player on his Shiloh Eagles decides to transfer schools. After losing their first three games of the season, the coach discovers a group of fathers are plotting to have him fired. Combined with pressures at home, Coach Taylor has lost hope in his battle against fear and failure.

However, an unexpected challenge helps him find a purpose bigger than just victories. Daring to trust God to do the impossible, Coach Taylor and the Eagles discover how faith plays out on the field … and off.

With God, all things are possible …

For more info, check out the website or google it...

anyway here are some quotes from the movie -

"I want God to bless this team so much people will talk about what He did. But it means we gotta give Him our best in every area. And if we win, we praise Him. And if we lose, we praise Him. Either way we honor Him with our actions and our attitudes. So I'm askin' you... What are you living for? I resolve to give God everything I've got, then I'll leave the results up to Him. I want to know if you'll join me."

"With God, nothing is impossible."

I somehow have the DVD at home, so if you want (and I strongly recommend that you watch it coz its really really really good) just ask me, I can lend you for your viewing pleasure (:

That's it for now..got a proposal to finish. yay school -.-

hi!!!

2007-12-29T00:51:00.000+08:00

yay i'm really happy! :DDD and sad at the same time i guess. haha but i will post shout-outs again soon! before year end definitely. i love chorale lots and lots. rv alumni gathering in the afternoon whoo. yayyy i feel happy (: maybe its the 7 cups of spiked juice i drank just now. lalalala to julian and goodnight!

volcano

2007-11-17T23:38:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BURTHDAY CHRIS!!

Chorale shout-out #4

I, personally believe, that, you are a really really fun and nice guy to be around. well at least most of the time :D for like such as.

Thanks for helping me in tenor these past months and being so enthusiastic about making music, and for encouraging me. oh and thanks a lot for organising the surprisingly nice birthday celebration for julian and i 7 months ago after prac =)

Looking past your random .___. modes *winks knowingly*, I believe, that, you are actually a good friend. I believe. Hope that you will continue to be the crazy happy person you really are who has completely out-of-character hobbies like playing hellgate london. Looking forward to a year of fun and renewed friendship and and and to build a better world for our children. Take care!!! enjoy the last 2 minutes of your birthday! (:

leaving on an airplane

2007-11-06T22:04:00.000+08:00

Chorale shoutout #3

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KIA LIANG!!!

It's about time you're 17! and now i shall put into words what i suck at communicating.

Looking past your occasional -.-ness and innocent obliviousness towards some things, you really are a caring guy who almost always puts others before yourself. You do notice certain things about people or seemingly negligible things that are happening around us. And i know you look beyond the surface of people's behaviours and stuff when you associate with friends and deal with people, which is what i really respect :p and of course your willingness to go all out to do things for people. thanks for being patient with me too.

Aside from that, i've enjoyed the few times we chatted about random things and did nothing, the slow-paced shopping trips, =D the lunches at J8 and s-11 and sitting under block A during lunch break on mondays. oh and the whispering and one-sided excitement when people are about to kiss on the cinema screen and the spilt popcorn =D since we started working together about 2 years ago, i've learnt a lot from you, and i think i'm a better person now because of it.

Despite our differences at times and the periods when we grew apart, i'm really thankful that we're friends, and hope that our friendship will continue to grow. Thank you for being the friend i can confide in when i'm troubled, or talk to when i simply feel like talking to someone, especially throughout this year. It's nice to know that there's someone looking out for people, like on our sec 3 tour in germany and holland, when i was still a flighty young boy and you were being ever responsible =)

Hope you had a wonderful time yesterday and today and enjoyed your birthday! and all your nice presents! Blessed birthday (:

Hope to see you guys soon <3

shoutouts

2007-11-03T22:58:00.000+08:00

.::Chorale shout-outs 2::.

Charmaine: whoa pro piano-player, super duper smart kid, super nice singing voice!! haha and likes to smile!! but need to brush up on online chat slang. HAHAHA she's really really pro at everything. oh yeah sand-sculpting too! yay we should start a special interest group in chorale specially for sand-sculpting when we go on outings to sentosa!! HAHA charmaine's a nice person =DDD please talk more and don't be so shy!!!!!!

Joelle: kindergarten tong xue!!! one of the foremost leaders in suanning bennett but who actually can't bear to live through JC without bennett XDDD fellow PUNCH member who gives unsuspecting friends moisturisers that contain the main component of urine. lol funny person who likes to laugh at people and who is secretly laughed at by bennet all the time. haha ok kidding! sleep more to get rid of beeeg eye bags! yay PUNCH (:

Joash: haha joash is suffering from a (mental) condition and is quickly deteriorating and becoming more and more mad!! crazy guy who laughs at totally random things that i don't get half the time. nice guy. naturally produces slimming chemicals which is irritating because he eats but loses weight! RAWR. i think he doesn't really bully me much which is a good thing. so joash is a nice guy! wututu

Jacqueline: sexy voice girl (:D) who is totally involved in lots of school stuff!! haha must come for chorale outings k! oh yeah jac has a really nice pop voice! and i think she's quite good at suanning geet and minsi which can't be a bad thing XD take care of your voice!! =)

Geoffrey: whooo oh brave giant. closet mugger (hahahahaha) who is actually very smart and logical. music pro turning into transciber/arranger etc. likes to act tough but is actually a big softie when it comes to some things HEH =DD gung ho and outspoken when the situation calls for it which is a good thing in choir where everyone is quiet and stuff. for some reason i suspect geoffrey body builds. hmmm...

part 3 soon!

#1

2007-10-24T20:31:00.000+08:00

~EVOLUTION~
[adapted from The Case for a Creator - Lee Strobel]

When people say 'evolution', they mean merely that there has been change in a species over time, but that's not an accurate description is it?

Absolutely not! If that's all there was to Darwinism, then there wouldn't be any controversy, because it is common agreement that there has been biological change over time, that all organisms within a single species are related through descent with modification. This occurs in the ordinary course of biological reproduction. Darwinism claims much more than that - it's the theory that ALL living creatures are modified descendents of a common ancestor that lived long ago. It claims that every new species that has ever appeared can be explained by descent with modification. Neo-Darwinism claims these modifications are the result of natural selection acting on random genetic mutations.

The Images of Evolution

Image #1: The Stanley Miller Experiment

What?
Stanley Miller, a graduate student at the Unversity of Chicago in 1953, used laboratory apparatus to artificially produce the building blocks of life. By reproducing the atmostphere of the primitive earth and then shooting electric sparks through it to simulate lightning, Miller managed to produce a red goo containing amino acids.

Scientific assessment

Common consensus among scientists that the early atmosphere of the earth was not at all like the one Miller used. Miller chose a hydrogen-rich mixture of methane, ammonia, and water vapour, which was consistent with what many scientists thought back then. However, there is no evidence for this primitive methane-ammonia atmosphere on earth, but much against it. Most geochemists since the 1960s would say that the earth's early environment was totally unlike Miller's, with the current hypothesis being that there was very little hydrogen in the atmosphere as it would have escaped into space. Instead, the atmosphere probably consisted of carbon dioxide, nitrogen, and water vapour. Even two of the leading origin-of-life researchers, Klaus Dose and Sidney Fox, confirmed that Miller had used the wrong gas mixture. Science magazine said in 1995 that experts now dismiss Miller's experiment because 'the early atmosphere looked nothing like the Miller-Urey simulation'.

What if you replay the experiment using an accurate atmosphere?

Some textbooks say that you still get organic molecules, but these organic molecules are actually formaldehyde and cyanide. Formaldehyde is extremely toxic and destroys proteins all over the place, just from the fumes. It even kills embryos. (These organic molecules that are formed can actually make embalming fluid) While it's true that a good organic chemist can turn formaldehyde and cyanide into biological molecules, it is not possible that they give you the right substrate for the origin of life. Whatever it is, you do not get amino acids from this experiment, that's for sure.

If a scientist someday manages to produce amino acids from a realistic atmosphere of the early earth, how far would that be from creating a living cell?

Incredibly far! That would be the first step in an extremely complicated process. You would have to get the right number and sequence of amino acids to link up to create a protein molecule, then dozens of protein molecules in the right sequence, to create a living cell. The odds against this are simply astonishing, the gap between non-living chemicals and even the most primitive living organism is absolutely tremendous.

Why is Miller's experiment still published in textbooks then?

It is becoming clearer that this is materialistic philosophy masquerading as empirical science. The attitude that life had to have developed this way because there's no other materialistic explanation. When origin-of-life expert Walter Bradley, a former professor at Texas A&M University, who co-authored the landmark 1984 book "The Mystery of Life's Origin", was questioned about the various theories advanced by scientists about how the first livin cell could have been naturalistically generated - including random chance, chemical affinity, self-ordering tendencies, seeding from space, deep-sea ocean vents, and using clay to encourage prebiotic chemicals to assemble - he demonstrated that not one of them can withstand scientific scrutiny. Journalist Gregg Easterbrook wrote about the origin-of-life firled, "Science doesn't have the slightest idea how life began. No generally accepted theory exists, and the steps leading from a barren primordial world to the fragile chemistry of life seem imponderable." Bradley not only shares that view, but said that the mind-boggling difficulties in bridging the yawning gap between nonlife and life mean that there may very well be no potential of ever finding a theory for how life could have arisen spontaneously. The absolutely overwhelming evidence points toward an intelligence behind life's creation. In fact, he said, "I think people who believe that life emerged naturalistically need to have a great deal more faith than people who reasonably infer that there's an Intelligent Designer."

Even those who look askance at religious faith have been forced to conclude that the odds against the spontaneous creation of lfie are so absurdly high that there must be more to the creatio story than mere materialistic processes. They can't help but invoke the only ord that seems to realistically account for it all: miracle. It's a label many scientists loathe to use but which the circumstances seem to demand. John Horgan, one of America's leading science journalists, conceded in 2002 that scientists have no idea how the universe was created or "how inanimate matter on our little planet coalesced into living creatures." "Science, you might say, has discovered that our existence is infinitely improbable, and hence a miracle." Even biochemist and spiritual skeptic Francis Crick, who shared the Nobel Prize for discovering the molecular structure of DNA, said, 'An honest man, armed with all the knowledege available to us now, could only state that in some sense, the origin of life appears at the moment to be almost a miracle, so many are the conditions which woud have had to have been satisfied to get it going."

fuddy

2007-10-22T21:11:00.001+08:00

awww val thank you so much!! i'm really really touched =s i think you're a very very nice friend =)

post-outing blues

2007-10-20T21:41:00.000+08:00

whoo today is one of those times when i strongly want to blog. haha which is quite rare.

today was chorale outing to sentosa! and it just displaced some other less important day on my "year's 15 most memorable days" list. met deb, gerald, gen (in this order and gen was late!!!! =D) at bishan mrt first and went to buy snack food from NTUC, then met quan and val in the mrt and went to harbourfront. it takes about 25 minutes from bishan to harbourfront btw. then met kia liang, yong feng, isaac, joelle, charmaine, wenyi, geoffrey, julian at vivo and went to GIANT to buy water so we wouldn't shrivel up the beach. and i shall skip the part where i insisted half a dozen 1.5l bottles of mineral water were enough but turned out not to be enough etc etc.

after that we met geet, minsi, suet, clara, royce, joash, fried at the top floor of vivo where the ticketing counter for the monorail to sentosa was. waited forever and finally took the monorail across. haha and we saw the land where constuction was going on for the IR. oh and since it was my first time to siloso beach it was rather exciting :D then after we settled down and fooled around with the sand and threw fried's frisbee around a while, i went to join the people playing volleyball. hahaha more like sports for entertainment. we weren't very good compared to the super bronzed people around us who were quite pro...so gave up after a while after we managed to get 4 or 5 consecutive hits heh. went back to throw frisbee then when the volleyball people came back we played captain's ball. haha i think i'm becoming a lot more active and spontaneous during sports now. and getting a lot better at captain's ball. julian is not bad at catching..hahahahahaha. gerald isn't bad too. and yong feng can intercept too. haha not bad overall.

got bored after a while again, so went to find the girls playing with sand and making a really nice embossed sand "<3 chorale" and helped compact the sand grand piano charmaine and wenyi were making which was really nice. meanwhile the guys were trying to change kia liang into some mythical species hahahahaha. ok now comes the life changing moment. i was sitting by the water doing dunno what, then stupid ass tall person geoffrey pushed me into the water. RAWR. ok la wasn't THAT bad..considering i would have probably killed anyone who tried to dunk me. but since that took me by surprise i forgive him coz it was quite a good ploy which i didn't forethink -.- it was sort of fun swimming around in disgusting sea water though. although it wasn't very nice coz i was wearing a white t-shirt so only a bit translucent when wet. soon lots of people were wet so we swam around and played a bit in the water and some of us swam across to the island opposite to explore. ok skip the following repetitive events. geet and minsi left sometime before lunch.

the dry girls bought lunch back for us and we rinsed the eew seawater off under the showers and sort of dried off under the sun. that was around 3. suet had to leave before lunch for PW sadly, joash had to leave too, and joseph finally appeaered, and we celebrated geoffrey's birthday (1 day in advance). haha totally exciting with val cutting the cake and us giving him his conductor's baton and manuscript book. then we went cycling around the place which was quite bad coz there were too many vehicles around and no proper road solely for bicycles so we had to stop a lot. and my bike totally sucked. 1 of the brakes was spoilt so i had to rely on the backwheel brake. zzz. haha and we only cycled an hour, but since i take a long time to warm up for anything physical, my cycling was a bit shaky. kia liang's cycling is quite pro =D oh oh thanks kia liang for fixing my bike chain when it came out and getting our fingers greasy and stuff (:

when we got back to out base, gerald, julian, val, deb, charmaine, clara had to go home, so that left me, kia liang, royce, geoffrey, fried, joseph, yong feng, isaac, quan, joelle, gen, wenyi. we went to bathe and packed up and left wonderful siloso beach. geoffrey left to go somewhere after bathing. haha kia liang and i decided to wear our caps so our hair wouldn't look so exploded (in the end we had to wear it for the rest of the day coz our hair became really flat and my head looked like a ball with a fuse >.<) we returned to vivo, when joseph, royce and gen also left for their respective engagements. then left 8 of us. so we just walked around looking for a plce to eat and enjoyed our silent bonding time XD ate at banquet, then headed to the mrt. sadly the really great day was finally coming to an end. we all broke off at our respective stations to change mrt line and whatever, and i went back to bishan with quan since all the other bishanites and serangoonies had already gone home. thanks quan for giving up your car ride home to take mrt with me back to bishan =) and the rest of the going home story is a bit boring.

i feel like doing shout outs for chorale j1s now! hmm but i need to go write a card so i shall do some people first (:

Chorale shout-outs part 1 (in no particular order)

Wen-Yi: you're really really funny sometimes and nice to be around! and your diaphragm-pumping almost whistle-range laughter is quite funny too! yay i'm glad you joined chorale =D

Catherine: strong personality with a lot of initiative! thanks for all the times you volunteered to help with printing and laminating and helping out with miscellaneous stuff! haha likes to make fun of me but its ok i'm accomodating :D funny person who i don't disturb a lot for being a humans student XD maybe that will change soon :DDDD

Isaac: totally not self-conscious which is a good thing sometimes. resident bottomless-pit (i mean that in a good way :)) who doesn't mind doing people favours without expecting anything in return. he does lots of things which i roll my eyes at but we're used to it so its ok =)

Genevieve: hmm..not a bad welfairy la. i mean we're all still alive and surviving. so far. AHAHAHA ok but she gets things done. she's over the bimbo phase of her life (at least i think she is) and seems ALMOST normal nowadays but you never know =D my regular maths jokes target because the opportunities are simply too good to pass up XD ok i shall to lessen the hahaha-humans-student jokes. try. PUNCH

Yong Feng: nice quiet guy who is slowly exiting his shell and becoming more outrageous! ok maybe not there yet but getting there soon right! resident video man/camera man/art-related designer etc who is really good at what he does. occasionlly surprises everyone by doing un-yongfeng stuff like imitating chris' style of blogging which was super funny. haha yeah.

ugh i have ugly tan lines on my arms and my neck. must plan eoy chalet soon! i'm experiencing post-outing blues (which only comes after very memorable outings and events which i thoroughly enjoyed..like today!) and missing chorale people already. sigh soon we won't be able to have such fun anymore :( anyway i think i'm really blessed to have such wonderful friends, especially in chorale, and have most of my close friends stay with me since sec 1 <3

MVP

2007-10-11T18:26:00.000+08:00

hullo! don't really feel like blogging much these days...

oh YAY i passed my grade 8 piano practical!! haha i'm totally grateful and thank God that i managed to get through it, considering i had to juggle piano practice and mugging for promos. heh and this morning when i woke up i was just thinkin that i hadn't thought about it for a while, so i was praying about it and promo results and stuff. haha super cool.

anyway today was quite fun. probably one of the top 15 school days of the year. 15 coz there were lots of really cool days at the start of the year =) had econs lecture by mr pan which was interesting (well seeing i paid attention and listened throughout the ENTIRE lecture which was 1 and a half blocks today, and actually understood the notes) and weiren' class was having lecture with us in LT1 so i sat with him and joash. then kia liang was busy preparing for OP dry run so didn't sit with us, and gerald was like miles away. tsk. math lecture was quite a challenge. to stay awake i mean. haha totally managed to pay attention the whole time except for the the 4 times i almost dozed off XD yay then towards the end of lecture when we were trying the tutorial questions for binomial expansion eric tucky and i were doing the basic questions like muggers. heh so fun. i won the mugger contest coz i did fastest!! hee ok maybe thats coz i didnt press calculator for the answers. yay anyway.

after school had pw meeting a while. well, no actually i relinquished my group leader position to shermin for today coz i felt completely sick of pw. haha sorry! i shall try not to attitude anymore. then played captain's ball!! yay highlight of the morning. i was amazingly pro today =DDD haha i think i'm quite good at being captain, like can catch the ball quite well heh. and i blocked a pass by jian hao which was nothing short of spectacular XDDDD seriously. haha i was super motivated after that and had lots of fun being enthu and running around a bumping into eew sweaty pigs. hahahaha but i had lots and lots of fun! played for almost 2 hours, the calories lost during the game being equivalent to my daily cycling routine. whoooo.

met deb on the way to staff room after the game, so we left to take bus home, since i she had to go home for piano lesson and i was going home. then met chng min and arnold at the bus stop. and we sat the new 156 bus! the one with the 2 seat bar thing with nice cushioned seats facing each other on both sides of the bus. haha but i only realised that there were quite few "stop" buttons so when it was my stop next i had to squeeze through the crowd to even get to the button 8-) yay

okay dinner time! oh i baked cookies this afternoon (:

music in me

2007-10-08T00:03:00.000+08:00

i realised some songs remind me of certain events and happenings in my life. i somehow link some songs to stuff that i've been through. like when i was listening to "She's No You" by Jesse McCartney just now i kept thinking about the chalet on 1 dec with chin ee and the other sec 4s. haha i even rmbr geoffrey trying to take photo of my shirt which was the same design as kia liang's >.< and barney stuff at the entrance of white sands.

anyway OP really sucks. and the organising of dry runs and scheduling is really stupid. what's the purpose of making us rush through to finish everything to try to get everything done by dry run when we have effectively 2 days to do EVERYTHING for OP coz we had Open House to settle too -.- after all dry run is for us to get everything nailed and to spot any problems we might encounter during the actual OP, but if they're not even going to give us a week to prepare then what do they really expect? super irritating la. rawr.

tubsssss

2007-10-06T23:28:00.000+08:00

ok promos are over. now the hard part. waiting for results. and results of my piano exam should be coming out soon. hello.

haha i feel super duper tired today for some reason. like quite lethargic and sleepy and the never sleep more than a few hours kind of tiredness. rawrz. the feeling sucks btw. anyway OP really sucks. ok. then played halo 3 in the afternoon til i got over my violent blast all the aliens moment. then cycled 20km while watching The Pursuit of Happiness, starring Will Smith and his son. its quite motivating and stuff but i think i was too shacked towards the end so it wasn't that impactful. but it was nice. thanks tubs (:

went to my cousin's house in the evening for his 1 week overdue birthday bash. catered food is nice when you're not trying to get into shape. but oh well nvm indulge once in a while. haha but then surprisingly after dinner i went to stand on the funky weighing scale thing in the house and i was 2 kg lighter than i used to be! (and the last time i weighed myself i wasn't stuffed with food too) YAY. ok i'm totally motivated to cycle more consistently. whooo i have about a week and a half left to get fit before my primary 6 class reunion thing with my teacher. hahahaha how exciting. i need to bake cookies to give my teacher so she will be less inclined to pinch my face.

anyway i still feel stuffed now and i'm surfing facebook which is lagging quite a lot and listening to unfaithful by rihanna. i remember daniel singing it along with the MTV in our room one morning in slovakia when i woke up. sigh i miss the trip again. i want to meet up and go out with them again .__. haha or i could just blade to daniel's house which is like 5 minutes away from my house to visit =)

okie i feel hungover so i'm going to sleep. PWO...P tmr. yucks.

2007-09-16T22:07:00.000+08:00

"Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same." -Marianne Williamson

hello!!!

2007-09-06T23:38:00.000+08:00

HAAAAHALOOWWW i feel happy and relaxed and care free at this instant! i'm blogging about my exciting feeling of highness which is quite rare before it wears off. yay (:

just finished doing 9 questions from math revision practice questions, in ~2.5 hours. haha but that's coz its math induction and summation and a bit of differentiation and i took like 15 minutes each to spot the mistake in my working for 2 differentiation questions which was a bit irritating. haha

i love the feeling when you suddenly get a brainwave or see some connection and manage to solve a tough math question you were stuck at for a while. it's that feeling that makes you want to exclaim really loudly and jump around XD i totally love math questions that i can solve and that challenge my brain and make me think :D but not too much..

oh this afternoon julian messaged me about pavarotti's passing, and i suppose i felt vaguely sad that such a nice voice just disappeared, especially after i watched the news at 9.30pm. oh wells.

i'm still totally into chinese pop songs :)))) lol was singing in the car while my mum was driving, then she kept saying i should have started being "into" chinese songs last year then maybe could have gotten A1 for higher chinese. heh. but i was thinking to myself, last year's CSS don't have interesting people and super boring, and don't have nice special people in it like CSS2 (: so nah i wouldn't have anyway

spent practically the entire day at home, supposedly mugging, but its quite unproductive when i just lie on the sofa and try to read through math lecture notes and memorise formulas and stuff and either start to doze off (even though i woke up less than an hour earlier) or get distracted and do something else. sigh

its been quite lonely at home..feels like ages ago since i last saw my classmates and choir friends. i <3 my friends :D

3M3M3M3M3M

2007-09-04T20:30:00.000+08:00

0857: met brenda at school carpark and walked to LT4 to find a notice saying venue for chem make-up tutorial moved to LT6. walked to other end of the school

0902: found a seat in LT6. were the first of our class to arrive, apart from manchao and yizhen.

0907: noticed that the person wearing BW house shirt standing at the front of the LT wasn't a student. turns out its mr cheang >.<

0910: lesson started

0950: estimated 1.5 hour lesson ended -.-

1015: walked around and photocopied pao's CRP notes then went to the canteen to sit and do work with eric, shermin, mabel, jian hao, guo zhong, brenda sabby alicia doing pw, rui yi walking around (i think that's all the people who were there)

1058: went to staff room to meet mr toh to go over our written report draft #2. apparently its a huge improvement over our first draft, but still hovering around ME+. should be able to get EE after editting this time (:

11.25: finished meeting and went to find eric and sabby and tucky in the canteen. other people still there...

11.50: went for "class lunch" with eric and sabby coz cows pangsehed so left 3 of us to go for CLASS lunch .__. met chris and benjamin at lunch place..hmm felt slightly bad for not joining them for lunch, but since i'm starting to really like my class it would have been very bad to leave eric and sabby to have their romantic lunch alone. hmmm..heh not a bad idea actually. anyway had quite a nice time listening to lame jokes which i took less time than usual to understand. haha must be their influence rubbing off me :D then uhh, talked and talked about lots of things that lots of times had no link whatsoever so i got lost as usual >.< then wee hsuan came when we all finished eating, except eric who was purposely nibbling his food and decorative leaves and everything haha. talked some more, then left and went home. zzz

sometime from 1.25 onwards: totally boring time. mugging, then tuition, then slacking, then dinner, then a bit more slacking and blogging, then going to do work.

ciao =)

after-thought -- *thinking to self* actually i haven't gone out with anyone in class for lunch or a meal or sat down to chat and stuff outside of school time since the start of the year. the cinders of love in my heart for my class are obviously starting to rekindle (: *smiles to self*

mu nai yi

2007-09-03T23:26:00.000+08:00

i think JJ Lin's mu nai yi is a nice song :p i've been looping it on my comp so the words will one day sink into my brain coz i don't have time to memorise it properly XD haha and i'm having a random mass convo on msn with my classmates! haha its fun to just not worry about work for a while and talk nonsense :D ok off to wrap presents...

yay i<3M a lot and a lot and a lot (:

weary

2007-09-02T19:51:00.000+08:00

yay managed to finish revising all the equilibria topics and reaction kinetics and atoms, molecules and stoichiometry. =) 4 more topics for chem and i'm done! leaving 14 topics for bio (17 sets of notes), 9 units for math, and 8 topics for econs (9 sets of notes) >.< oh including an indefinite number of articles and samples essays to read and 1 book of 1100 words for GP. it's gonna be a long 26 days til after promos :(

2007-08-31T22:29:00.000+08:00

http://www.drawahouse.com/TakeTheTest/

Based on the drawing and the 10 answers they gave this is a summary of their personality:

You are sensitive and indecisive at times. You are good at making friends and when the joyful moment arrives, you make the most out of it. You are shy and reserved. If you've drawn a cross on each of windows, you always want to live alone. You are very tidy person. There's nothing wrong with that because you're pretty popular among friends. Your life is always full of changes.

You will avoid being alone and seek the company of others whenever possible. You love excitement and create it wherever you go. You see the world as it is, not as you believe it should be.

You added a flower into your drawing. The flower signifies that you long for love. We also see that you are sensuous, sexual, and privately passionate. You don't think much about yourself.

08S03M

2007-08-31T18:51:00.000+08:00

i realised i've never treasured my class this year as much as i should, always allowing the friendships in chorale take precedence, which is probably not fair coz my class really rocks and i've never had such a great class before. so here's a shout out to everyone in S03M!

THANKS FOR---

Alicia: helping me with CRP and staying up at night killing your brain cells helping me solve chem question, and arranging our class CIP which must have been some mega headache (:
Audrye: teaching me chem and bio and math and econs and everything else =)
Pao (: tolerating my nonsense when i get in the mood and being soooo funny and a bit blur sometimes =D and for hanging out with me!!!
Geena: telling jokes that i unintentionally roll my eyes at and bringing much laughter to our canteen table
Shermin: being my pw mate and lots of random stuff =>
Siang Huat: being our ever so responsible CT rep for a few months and your highly egotistical comments that never fail to make my eyes almost roll out of their sockets and being the superbly responsible and funny guy i secretly respect
Jarrod: being one of my first few friends in class the first few months and not bullying me til recently =.=
Joyce: bringing much sound and craziness to the class
Brenda: opening your house for our first class party which was super fun! and for taking lots of initiatives in doing GP rep stuff
Nicola: being one of my first few friends in class at the start of the year and for miscellaneous things like offering your err..homemade bread and stuff =D
Eric (: your funniness in suanning mohandass especially XD and being really encouraging and everything like when my catching during handball cmi >.< and for sending me nice chinese songs and and and lots of other things!!
Jian Hao: being my pw mate who's really funny at times and tells strange jokes and does weird stuff and has grade 8 violin!!
Luvy: being my pw mate who's so responsible and good at acting like a good girl but who likes to suan me whenever possible =)
Mohandass: not embezzling class funds and dutifully collecting money from people 2 months after the actual payment was supposed to be done XD and listening to my pro tamil
Rui Yi: perpetually having the drowzy look and being smart and funny and sporty!
Wee Hsuan: willing to be sensitive and making funny comments
Sabby: suanning me lots of times and being so friendly singing duets with me at camp (HAHAHA) and eating porridge with me every wednesday!! =)
Guo Zhong: voluntarily being the loudhailer when the bell rings to go for lessons after breaks and being so pseudo-punky and blasting noisy music and lowering the volume of noisy music when we were doing work (=
Terence: handling all our math assignments and tutorials and notes and what not and helping me with math questions occasionally
Jerome: opening your house for our..uhh 3rd (?) class party which was really fun too! and for being a great guy..not forgetting the chem notes and stuff you collated for the class
Yannie: putting up with our teasing a few months back and for your really funny random outbursts sometimes
Mabel: being my pw mate who can totally communicate with interviewees so well and for not shooting me in "shoot s___ marry" at the start of the year XD
Manchao: laughing at me for really random things that i still don't get but i found amusing coz i didn't know what you were laughing at me for XD
Shuhui: managing to hold on to your CT rep position until now (not that we could fire you anyway XDDD) and responsibly doing CT rep stuff and for your madness and rather strange kind of funniness =D
Tucky: being our CT rep and working with shuhui (match made in heaven XD) and helping me out with work and suanning me although i know you're actually a nice guy :)
Yi Zhen: laughing at me along with manchao and for helping me pronounce "xian" properly =DDD
Shao wen: being so quiet and putting up with everyone's noisy-ness

i<3M

2007-08-30T00:07:00.000+08:00

haha i think i'm growing taller. can't see the top of my head in my bathroom mirror anymore XD i used to just reach the top of the mirror at the start of the year. yay =)

on a side note i've put aside my totally unobjectiveness and decided that shawn tok has a nice voice and will probably have a nice tenor voice when he matures. haha though i still think he shouldn't have won based on finals performance >.< yay benjamin :DDD

emotional

2007-08-29T20:33:00.000+08:00

yawnz school is getting rather boring. if not for my new found best friends in class i think i'd be really tired of tutorials =D

choir prac was quite funny with mr toh being unusually entertain-ny and stuff. haha had lots of laughs. i wrote down funny stuff that people said during choir and wanted to post here but chris beat me to blogging about it so i'll just refer to his entry. zzz. my high high b flat seriously cannot make it -.- if it was a high high high f i can easily crack into it and sustain. LOL. but well not like i can control my supernormal whistle range XD

hee i felt happy after choir ended! considering i usually just feel tired and zi bei that my voice sucks and only sounds good during vocal lessons, today was quite yay. even though i somehow couldn't find my nice tone and placement today. sigh.

i really really really like having friends. apart from my really good friends who've mostly been with me since sec 1 in rv, i enjoy having nice and fun and caring classmates for the first time since primary school. classmates who don't throw classroom furniture at you or try to humiliate you every chance they get, i.e. making your entire secondary school life miserable and making you dread going to school everyday. thank God for good friends who've helped me through it all (:

childhood

2007-08-28T17:53:00.000+08:00

yay i'm glad i went for cip today! had a nice "totally deepest darkest secret" chat with suet on the way to marymount XD ok no just talked about stuff and i psychoanalysed myself. haha.

anyway today was the last tennis lesson so we played matches, and i partnered zhong qiang (i think that's how its spelt) who's fried's classmate i think. haha we won tucky and jerome 2 games and won 1 lost 1 when we played against zhuang yi and sam. couldn't complete that match coz it started to rain. tennis is fun =)

i like tutoring small primary school kids (: even though it takes me a while and substantial thinking before i can answer a few of their questions. i feel happy and sort of relaxed listening to them talking about purely random things and drawing cartoon penguins for them and stuff. haha apart from helping them with their work i mean. i've been dubbed king kong by my new tutee (joel) who thinks i'm very tall and much bigger than him :D maybe that's coz he's p5 and about the same height as my other tutee who's a p3 girl. i've been feeling like i want a younger brother to look after lately. hmm..either a) there's something wrong with me, b) it's my older brotherly instinct kicking in, or c) err suet says its something about having an emotional attachment to blur helpless little kids. haha. oh well i enjoyed today ^.^

hahaha i found this funny quiz thing. read it and see where you stand!! =D

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Try the questionaire below. The results could surprise you! If you can’t even read the question, you’re already halfway there - just get someone to fill out our full colour brochure at any trailing chemist, and you’ll be in for some good old fashioned non-challenging material.

1. Which of the following WAS one of the famous Marx Brothers?
a. STRETCH
b. SKID
c. HARPO
d. TYRE

2. The number missing from the series (1,2,4,..,16) is:
a. YELLOW
b. GERANIUM
c. 8
d. TYRE

3. The letter missing from the series (a,b,c,..,e) is:
a. z
b. b
c. d
d. TYRE

4. A man walks into a Barber Shop, with $5.00. He buys 2 lemons at 45c each, 1 Pickled Eel for $2.40, 4 packets of washing powder for $3.15 each. What will happen?
a. The Barber will wonder where all the stuffs coming from
b. He wasn’t in a Barber’s shop, it was a Dairy
c. The Barber will ask him if he’s from MUNSA
d. Tyre

5. Two trains leave the same station, but moving in opposite directions. The first train is travelling at 50km/hr EAST, while the second one is travelling 50km/hr WEST. Which train is travelling the fastest?
a. The one going EAST
b. The one going WEST
c. Neither
d. Tyre
e. Why aren’t there (e.)’s in all the other questions

6. What comes next in the series (RED, GREEN)
a. A car
b. Orange
c. Insufficient Data
d. Tyre

7. Mona Lisa was:
a. A dissatisfied Woman
b. A Song by Billy Idol
c. A painting
d. Tyre

8. The cold war was about:
a. Ice
b. Autumn
c. A few people at the top not liking each other
d. Tyre

9. Complete the following Sequence: (Tyre Tyre Tyre)
a. Tyre
b. Tyre
c. Tyre
d. Pardon?

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What can MUNSA offer you?
MUNSA is a group of people just like yourself, and as such have many of the same interests. We’ll meet once a month to watch American Game Shows (Except for our “advanced” class which will be watching the Australian Imitations), Television Dating Games, and listening to Public readings of Romance Novels. Also at the meetings, you’ll have the opportunity to buy:

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ah-ng-st

2007-08-27T22:08:00.001+08:00

today was quite fun..which is quite sad considering it's just been a slightly better than normal. meaning that we had pw in comp lab and h3 chem finished about 1 block earlier. was somewhat distracted during chem tuition just now, and i was humming guardian angel in my head while figuring out ionic equilibria stuff. hmm...

remembered to ask for chinese songs which im totally into. at least i've been since saturday night. haha and gerald spammed ilke 20 songs. thanks a lot!! (: anyway thought i'll feel less stressed and more happy listening to nice hip chinese songs. but now i just feel really sad and dejected and hungry ._. sigh i love singing in choir, and i'm really happy that my voice is finally settling and i can find placement and stuff, but i realised i'm not going to be in the choir for very much longer. what then? it's like after a performance or just a random group of us singing for fun, and i feel great coz it's nice and all. then i go home and sit in front of my comp and try to sing pop songs while windows media player blares and i hate thinking that my non-choral voice sucks. even my speaking voice sucks. tsk. ok this is making less and less sense.

here are some photos to make my blog more colourful =)

2007-08-25T23:43:00.000+08:00

yucks results of campus superstar finale was so..ugh..wanted benjamin and keely to win. RAWR. haha spent the whole night talking to suet and complaining and chatting about random things and big headed people and the unfairness of democracy heh.

benjamin totally should have won if not for shawn being the youngest and "cute" in that annoying "nah i'm actually quite ugly and don't deserve to be here" manner -.- seriously his singing was quite pitchy and strange and he forgot his lyrics!! haha anyway benjamin looks like a thinner and better looking version of val's handsome XD the girls weren't bad..just really airy. haha and keely sounded nice. the various guest performances were very good non-examples of how you should sing properly and without hurting your voice in the long run =D nonsense la the voting. zzz...i be annoyed

a moment like this

2007-08-25T18:59:00.000+08:00

its been 10 days since i last posted. hmm..doesn't feel that long ago though..time really passes quickly.

i've been having mood swings today =s started off feeling stressed this morning coz i realised there are a lot of things to do, and have to settle open house notice board by the coming week. then went to school early to tape up notice board and see how much space we have. joseph came soon after and helped me a bit, then kia liang came and joseph ate semi-half-boiled egg which looked questionable =) tennis after that with adrian kia joseph then chris and ivan and fried came. quite fun..just that i took about 1.5 hours to warm up and be able to return properly >.< rackets =){don't worry k, just take it in your stride and treat it as helping yourself to improve, not about anything else} was quite tired after that, vocally and physically, so went around finding people but kia and joseph left le so i sat down with adrian and fried and huilin in the canteen for a while then went off =s

stayed at home the whole afternoon like a good boy 8-) did pw, which is getting quite bothersome, then went to sleep coz i was dozing off at the comp. woke up an hour later with my head pounding and groggily continued doing pw with regular breaks to do random things. chatted about miscellaneous stuff with quan online which got quite funny, so i randomly bounded around the house and watched people walking their dogs in the park =)

settled down a while later and was looking through RV photos. i miss them so much and the camps and carolling sessions we had seem so distant, but i suck at expressing those feelings when we visit their practices or see them around. those times are so special and precious now that we look back. sigh =(

i want the old times to come back....

when the world gets in your face

2007-08-15T23:34:00.000+08:00

yay i managed to tally the choir funds! haha its quite tedious trying to track everything and account for every bit of payment/claim etc. and need to calculate a lot and a lot! then have to transfer record to soft copy of records and collate receipts and stuff. heh ok but quite fun =p

i finally got down to scrubbing the mess tins we used to melt wax in for making farewell presents! the 2 mess tins are quite shiny now :D but super tiring..have to scrub really hard using steel wool and very hard to clean the corners. well at least thats not lying around collecting dust anymore.

after choir walked with geet and deb and gen to J8 to take bus home. haha and geet taught me how to say "how are you" in tamil XD --"ni yeperdi yirukirai"

i be tired..goodnight (:

*add on*
felt really sad after watching slideshow of last year's prague/slovakia tour :( i miss those times so much. listening to the music accompanying the slideshow just made it worse. by the time it reached the part where we were at the vienna airport about to leave for home, i really wanted to hide in my room and not care about work and promos and pw. . if only we could relive those moments. or if time could slow down so there'd be more time for us to cherish the time we have left together.....

zoink

2007-08-14T18:54:00.000+08:00

really busy week with SPA and tests and everything. sigh my piano exam letter came today, its on 24 september. the same day promos starts -.- don't know how its going to work out. just have to pray and leave it to God i guess. sighs too many things..too little time......

anyway i finally called our pw interviewee to arrange interview, haha felt so accomplished after we managed to settle it and get at least this 1 face to face interview. not like the cold email interviews we've been sending out. i feel slightly bad for skipping tutoring today to mug bio spa, but really have lots of things to do today. and seriously its no fun having to do work into the early hours of the morning and going to school in the morning groggy and feeling like some undead creature. i shall bring sweets to give my tutee next week to atone for my absence today. heh

i was looking through rv prague/slovakia tour photos last night. surprisingly i can remember a lot of what the tour guide said and what happened before/during/after certain photos were taken. brought back lots of good memories. haha. i really really miss the tour and the people and everything. and i regret not doing some stuff i should have done or not spending more time with certain people :(

ok back to work then..

Sometimes in our lives we all have pain
We all have sorrow
But if we are wise
We know that there's always tomorrow

Lean on me, when you're not strong
And I'll be your friend
I'll help you carry on
For it won't be long
'Til I'm gonna need
Somebody to lean on

Please swallow your pride
If I have things you need to borrow
For no one can fill those of your needs
That you don't let show

Lean on me, when you're not strong
And I'll be your friend
I'll help you carry on
For it won't be long
'Til I'm gonna need
Somebody to lean on

If there is a load you have to bear
That you can't carry
I'm right up the road
I'll share your load
If you just call me

So just call on me brother, when you need a hand
We all need somebody to lean on
I just might have a problem that you'd understand
We all need somebody to lean on

Lean on me when you're not strong
And I'll be your friend
I'll help you carry on
For it won't be long
'Til I'm gonna need
Somebody to lean on

Lean on me...

2007-08-10T21:25:00.000+08:00

i'm emoing and missing the J2s and wishing we didn't have so much work to do and promos were over and pw disappeared and wanting to go out and have stayovers and not worry about homework backlog and mugging and stuff >.<

i like friends (:

yeo!

2007-08-10T15:55:00.000+08:00

rawr today was super busy >.<

10-12am: tuition
3pm: briefing in church
5-7pm: tuition

i've been having a bad headache since last night :( and i want to spend more time with chorale people!! yay i'm glad i'm in chorale =D

Although things are not perfect

Because of trial or pain

Continue in thanksgiving

Do not begin to blame

Even when the times are hard

Fierce winds are ound to blow

God is forever able

Hold on to what you know

Imagine life without His lvoe

Joy would cease to be

Keep thanking Him for all the things

Love imparts to thee

Move out of 'Camp Complaining'

No weapon that is known

On earth can yield the power

Praise can do alone

Quit looking at the future

Redeem the time at hand

Start every day with worship

To "thank" is a command

Until we see Him coming

Victorious in the sky

We'll run the race with gratitude

Xalting God most high

Yes there'll be good times and some will be bad

Zion waits in glory...where none are ever sad

of farewells

2007-08-09T11:41:00.000+08:00

not really in the mood to do anything..anyway here's some stuff worth mentioning:

farewell last night went really well i thought..everything went more or less smoothly, though the casino part of the programme was daoed coz we ended late
i will miss chorale J2s very much when they leave >.<
we managed to save the J2's farewell presents like less than an hour before they were scheduled to arrive at chris' house..mostly thanks to val who had this brilliant idea to use uhu glue to seal the sides of the wax (:
the songs after dinner were totally unrehearsed for, but i thought warm up and lullaby were passable. lover was quite bad though..
the songs after video screening were not bad i guess..the J2s were rather quiet during soleram though many were singing along. sigh so sad never gonna sing together agian =s
i love chorale people lots..
thanks so much to gen for organising the programme for farewell, yong feng for the video and other stuff (although the really retarded and unglam video shot of me was very embarrassing -.-), chris for opening his house, suet for arranging food among other things, gerald for running around helping with random things and for the programme too, kia liang (and julian) for coming up with the script for the play for farewell even though we didn't do it and for various random things too, quan deb val charmaine clara chng min for settling presents so well and making everything so nice =)
lots of people got pushed into the pool in the afternoon, and kia liang's phone went into the water with him =.= btw i can struggle really violently when my dryness is at stake
thanks to weisong nikki sandra yikai chenyun for the punch presents and little mr/ms books and stuff..we must form like punch alumni next time :p
the many hours put into the planning and preparation for farewell paid off i guess, hope the J2s enjoyed it =D
i really really miss the J2s a lot :(

i love friends. friends are good. they make life worth living (:

heh "pwing"

2007-08-07T10:33:00.000+08:00

haha we're in com lab supposedly doing pw!! just that we just submitted first draft of written report so everyone is slacking and the whole row in front of me is playing neopets/miniclips XD lol siang huat is acting retarded as usual. yay after school i'm going with kia liang and weiren to j8 to buy presents for farewell and nice paper to write notes on (:

yay and tonight a few of us are staying over joash's house! like 10 people i think >.< a bit overcrowding but haha should be fun! coz we have national day celebrations and promethean ceremony til 9pm after which we'll go to joash's house straight. and tmr morning have to go to chris house at 9am to prepare for farewell and help cooking and decor and stuff. haha i brought a really nice outfit to wear for farewell that fits my role as bouncer XDDD like striped long-sleeve shirt (sleeves rolled up) with dark jeans and cool blue tie (loosely hanging around my collar) and val's birthday sunglasses. heh. ok bell just rung gtg for lecture =)

moment by moment

2007-08-05T17:57:00.000+08:00

AHAHAHA i'm happy =) just read val's latest post which is really really really really really really really HILARIOUS! haha and i'm not talking about the grammar (which gen says cmi XD). go read it! its the one about scholarship day and her many discoveries throughout the whole of yesterday..one of which is me being a really nice person (why she took so long to realise..i can't figure). yay i'm really happy now!!! haha val's is super funny......HAHAHAHA random outburst of laughter.

anyway yesterday was a really long day but was fun!! had scholarship day..took all the stuff from the different organisations offering scholarships. then went for DSTA talk which was kinda boring. then went to make presents!! (hope no J2s read this before wednesday) :D lots of washing, drying, melting, scraping, smoothing, burning, cleaning. quite scary when our little make-shift heat source suddenly erupted in big big flames and refused to go out when we blew at it and like exploded when we splashed water, but it was a good experience :p by 8pm only left me quan kia liang and val finishing up the presents coz the rest had to leave. thankfully the spoilt living jukebox left around 7.45pm. heh. argh my index finger fingernail on my right hand started bleeding when i was scraping the wax off our nice presents and my thumb had a small hole which was leaking blood and i didn't even realise until my finger got a bit bloody =D

had lots of time to chat with people there and val of course had lots of stories to tell when we were transporting the presents to our lockers. hahahaha val is seriously funny..yay i like listening to val talk about random things and specific persons (: read her blog for her "sao di gong ren" experience and other superly funny things including her secret relationship with julian XDDDD haha..moving on. kia val and i walked to J8/bus stop opposite J8 after we finished everything which was like around 9.45pm and we had some intensive discussion about crushes and stuff (oh rather val was..kia and i were laughing most of the time) and i took the opportunity to give val (fake) blackmail material for use on julian. HAHAHA sorry julian =p that's about it for yesterday's events. ok back to pw 8-)

i miss my dog =s

chester pup

chester old

chester blur

SHOUTOUT: thanks to --

1) presents comm for coming down to help and buying stuff and settling everything so quickly

2) quan and suet for coming back to sch to help after incog prac (i shall overlook the "ah boy so slow" comment in view of your contributions to our great cause)

3) gerald julian chris gen yongfeng for helping out with random stuff

4) kia liang and val for staying til the end to finish up and for the superb cleaning up and touching up of presents and for the many funny moments <3

5) quan for finishing all the names and touching up and re-touching up and for bringing more wax and for taking charge of the planning and organisation and everything (:

6) yay!! J2s if you're reading this you better appreciate the presents even if they're not exactly what we imagined them to be because like suet (heh sweat i mean) blood (my life blood from my poor thumb and index finger) and eyelashes (kia liang's singed left eye lashes) went into the tedious making of your presents =D

more photos!! yay =)

2007-07-31T19:05:00.000+08:00

chorale pics...

PUNCH!!

After SYF (outside VCH)

tenors shot (chris is hiding somewhere XD)

post PUNCH performance PUNCH!!

After concert - PUNCH!!

yay here are some more photos from rv competition tours!!

GERMANY - AMSTERDAM (HOLLAND)

yongfeng weiren bennett benjamin mingshu on a boat!!

Dinner at some restaurant

hmm i think this was after our competition when we were wandering around the townsquare =p

group shot at the dam

sound check at performance hall after rushing there from hotel through rain and storm

photos!!! (:

2007-07-30T17:57:00.000+08:00

HELLO! I'VE DISCOVERED THE ADD IMAGE FUNCTION!! YAY. ok here are some random photos from last year's competition tour =)

tour sec 4s with mr toh

after disastrous prague competition

benjamin and bennett at dubai airport (stopover)

after wonderful slovakia competition =)

my group on the train (metro)!!!

haha weird shot on the bus coz just took off our hair flattening hats XD

kia liang weiren gerald bennett

most sec 4s with honourary member in blue =D

daniel bennett benjamin (:

suber duber

2007-07-19T23:16:00.000+08:00

Don't quit when the tide is lowers,
For it's just about to turn;
Don't quit over doubts and questios,
For there's something you may learn.
Don't quit when the night is darkest.
For it's just a while 'til dawn;
Don't quit when oyu've run the farthest,
For the race is almost won.
Don't quit when the hill is steepest,
For your goal is almost nigh;
Don't quit, for you're not a failure
Until you fail to try.

do1 re7 mi6 fa5 so4 la3 ti2 do1

"Have not I commanded thee? Be strong and of a good courage; be not afraid, neither be thou dismayed: for the LORD thy God is with thee withersoever thou goest." ~Joshua 1:9

anti-depressants

2007-07-10T22:27:00.000+08:00

today was mildly sucky compared to the previous week. got back bio..didn't do as well as expected as usual >.< after school went with chorale people to watch RV-Trinity College (from australia) choir exchange performances in RI LT1. not bad turn-out, LT was totally packed. think there were dunman sec and SAC choir people there too. the few of us had to stand at the back coz wasn't much space and wouldn't be able to see if we sat down. then when rv went on stage to sing nella fantasia followed by lukluk, i sort of remembered for that moment why i loved rv so much (and still do). and it was really nice to see them improve so much. maybe has something to do with our batch leaving :( anyway their songs were not bad, and luk luk choreo looked somewhat more expressive than the last time i saw them (SYF day early morning in LT3). seems like such a long time ago. anyway half of me wishes i was still in rv..and even though i may seem like i'm quite detached from rv already and more in chorale, i really really miss rv and the people there. sigh i hope i don't act like i don't care about them anymore =s

trinity college choir was quite good..chapel choir apparently. nice chords and stuff when they did sacred pieces and church music. there was a sop soloist for "be thou my vision" which was very nice too. haha and val was fangirl-ing about some bass guy in the choir (new addition to her list of "handsomes" XD). too bad didn't have this kind of exchange when we were in rv..except for the time with iona voices (from australia too i think). overall had a good time there..oh and dropped by to say hi to rv people after it. could see that a lot of them have grown quite a lot over the past 6 months, which is good i suppose. after all people do move on. sigh...................

went for NSW english after that and met quan and chng min and geena and luvy and PANG ERN there. some really annoying lady teacher was invigilating..kept shouting at us to sit down, and hurry up, and get ready, and write name as in i/c and class and what not. paper wasn't too difficult..but lit students definitely have an advantage. how would i know what a sonnet or hyperbole is -.- i still fail to fathom how people can finish the 1 hour 60 mcq paper in 35min though.

on a side note, i have resolved to become a super mugger from now till promos (not counting next year) and get at least B for everything! yay..fear me smart people! ouch my brain hurts :(

weekend..finally

2007-07-06T21:24:00.000+08:00

another sad day in a sad week. the few laughing/happy moments this week were like sort of superficial too..like laughing at the people laughing at the occasionally stupid things i do =.= ok shall not go into that depressing area. haha cannot whine or rant..otherwise mrs v. will ask me go to dahfour (somewhere in india i think) and experience life there -.-

past 2 days have been quite bland, except for the minor changes in timetable and the fire drill this morning. haha it took 25 minutes for a school of population 2500 + 300 staff to evacuate and for teachers to comb the school and find stray kids in toilets, which apprently is quite a decent timing. for a fire drill. there'd probably be charred bodies lying around the school if we took this long to get out of burning buildings in the event of a fire. heh.

ok school is starting to suck again with more CT results coming in, and the consequences they bring. hmm i'm going back to looking forward to short term stuff like events and outings to keep myself going. yay tomorrow go wander around bishan after meeting then go YF! thank God for friends...ok val i shall stop here so you can stop eagerly anticipating reading my blog >.<

first proper day of term 3

2007-07-03T22:12:00.001+08:00

today sucked..a lot. first day of school proper with lessons and they return CT papers. somehow lasted through the 2 tutorials with 2 papers and tutoring at marymount convent. finally broke down just before dinner and hid in my room for a while..first time in a long time ever felt so down

O.o hello!

2007-07-02T23:51:00.000+08:00

HI. haha its been quite a while..and i shall skip all the really significant events that have occured between day after concert and now! (like SYF and all its horrors and CTs)

yay ok on to the insignificant stuff that have been really meaningful.

1) chorale chalet!!! 4-5 june. was a blast. had lots of fun skewering chicken wings for bbq and letting stray mother cats listen to ave maria recording XD and of course the not sleeping which was a first (totally not sleeping through the night) and going to the beach at 6 to watch the nice colourful sunrise which was very very nice and which we took lots of photos of. and walking along the beach and writing font size 1500 words in the sand and just taking in the atmosphere :p oh and we went to the playground nearby which was nice and had like ropes and the rope thing to climb and spinning things and swings and stuff. hahahahaha ok it was really really nice...

2) ORA walkathon. was quite amusing..waited forever for the actual walking to start. and the bishan eew person was there in some ORA polo shirt! lol with his stomach hanging over his belt naturally and looking really perverse as usual. walked with weiren at some snail's pace around RGS campus and pitied the poor little ri bb boys who were road marshalling (the sec 1s i mean) while the older bb pigs were slacking on the grass. finished the really boring walk then walked around looking at the stalls, then met quan and fiona (rg choir junior) and yifan and guanwei (hmm i think it was guanwei) and sat down together to chat. haha and geoffrey conned me into buying some poisoned chocolate coated marshmallow from his class booth. hahahaha ok didn't really die la. gave it to quan XDD um then suet came along and we went exploring after weiren left..stoned and looked really bored while suet and quan visited their old (really boring) classrooms which somehow were very sentimental to them 8-) and i was wondering why i stare at my old classroom in ri and i fail to think of anything remotely nice about it -.- ok that's about it..i think. met rv sec 1 and other juniors there too. haha sort of enjoyable i guess

3) chorale j1 batch outing! ok not really batch outing..more like batch lunch at BK then guys went to watch movie. went plaza sing after ORA walkathon to watch spiderman 3 which was quite fun. haha julian enjoyed himself the most learning chinese from me during the movie =D after that just walked around a bit then left..zzz...

4) Zion golden jubilee camp!! yay my church camp in malacca (50th anniversary)..haven't been to church camp for like n number of years. was great..learnt a lot, made new friends, discovered new things, got inspired and fired up somewhat, learnt more things, learnt to appreciate more things and people, and had lots of fun!!! ok too many details shan't make this entry longer than it already is. but it was really a great experience after not going for so long, refreshing too! and lots of fun!!! you get the idea...

5) i shall skip today's highly enjoyable events due to certain events that have yet to run its course (:

6) COMMON TESTS AFTER JUNE HOLIDAYS SUCKS. totally had lots of time to enjoy ourselves...then have to keep worrying about not mugging enough or whatever with constant reminders from parents >.< rawr what a relaxing holiday

yay ok i've updated my blog after...err...(acts like a humanities student)..ehh...about 2 and a half months!! woot i'll try to update about once a week. haha hopefully it won't stagnate again =) ok back to school tomorrow..oh wait, today. yawnz.....ciao

5 min post

2007-04-15T23:10:00.000+08:00

hehe its been a while since i've blogged. but must briefly outline the highlights of the month so far..i'll try to elaborate sometime soon after this disgusting week of tests and piles of homework.

anyway first thing i can remember that was really special was my birthday (which happens to be the same as julian's)! haha after choir chris and gang (who organised the celebration) exited the LT then came back and switched off all the lights and carried the cake with the lighted candles in then sing song then julian and i were like o.O aw so sweet then we cut cake then julian thanked them on our behalf then got presents then cut cake some more then give out then late for PUNCH prac then rush then went for PUNCH prac. phew. then after that PUNCH gave me prezzies! haha i love you guys! really really thought you guys were really really sweet! thanks so much people! thanks for organising all that too chris! (: julian and i really appreciate it...

next BIG thing was concert last night! RV sounded really good..they've really put in alot of effort which is highly commendable and they deserve to be praised once in a while :) i'm so proud of them! and seeing them last night made me remember that i miss them all so much..sorry if i seemed dao yesterday k people? haha was running around being nervous so didn't have the calmness to stand around and chat much. moving on..combined songs weren't all that good..but small groups rocked! the hundreds of hours of practice paid off when we performed and sang our hearts out during the PUNCH item! it was simply great! hahaha it was super cool how we managed to pull it off rather smoothly despite small glitches like trebles and male voices coming in different pitches for lion sleeps tonight. really loved every minute of it..and for the first time i wasn't scared on stage! yay! then after intermission FRINGE performed, sounded good from the 2 songs i heard but audience found it a little soft i think. but i think they were great! good job with the solos too julian and quan!! nightingale small group sounded good as usual and not forgetting wei song and geng rui's clapping song at the start of the concert which was something different. haha overall was really good..yay again! i shall talk about the other stuff like flowers and broccolis and post-concert midnight supper outing in my next post when i feel less stressed out over the workload. haha but concert was superb and i absolutely loved it! wooot <3 chorale =D

that's it for now..need to go mug lots for econs test, bio test, chem mock spa test, GP essay test and clear all my outstanding tutorials..sigh. goodnight.

yay blog

2007-03-31T22:44:00.000+08:00

i'm bored..and sleepy..and tired..and waiting for my bio presentation online discussion in like 15 minutes. yay i'm watching phantom tomorrow!! so fun haha =p ok byeeee

PUNCH

2007-03-31T00:29:00.000+08:00

i'm so amazingly tired..never felt soooo exhausted and drained before. ever. since sunday night when i slept like 4 hours before going for class adventure camp on monday, where we barely slept 5 hours coz we were chatting under the stars XD and tossing in the bunk in the longhouse coz of the temperature and bugs. been sleeping like 5 hour blocks on tues wed and thurs night too coz of PUNCH practices and programme booklet mainly. i couldn't even be bothered to do my PI draft for pw last night properly >.< and i fell asleep trying to search for info anyway...oh oh and chorale concert tickets were totally sold out around 10 something yesterday! woot..and still got a lot of people who want tickets but can't get them. somehow we did something right this year since we managed to clear all of almost 700 tickets in 3 days and a few hours :DD

haha but PUNCH totally rocks!! we got the acting almost settled in 2 days! yay even though we had to stay past 10 yesterday and today. we might be able to pull it off reasonably well i think..but i'm starting to transform into my character in the skit -.-" the pitiful people who are helping with the sound reflectors actually stayed till 11 yesterday and dunno wad time tonight to do their carpentering..not forgetting the afternoons spent working on it after school. good job guys!! hope everything will turn out perfect for this short concert. sigh dunno why i can't use proper techniques for the combined songs. its so frustrating. i keep trying to shape my mouth and get the posture and everything but it sounds weird! chris and dunno who else has been trying to help me but there's some force that's intent on preventing me from reaching my optimum musically healthy voice. RAWR. and most of the time i'm not sure which sound is good anymore :( now i even have to improvise for my PUNCH solo coz i can't really reach the high A (or the G for that matter) without making squeaking noises..oh anyway thanks a lot for helping me with my tenor voice chris :p haha sorry for the noise you've had to endure XD

on a side note, shuhui christine (pao) and i went to spy on eric doing street dance again today! hee hee quite farny. at first we were watching from the railing upstairs then the 2 girls went and sat on the floor to watch and obviously eric noticed. haha and he unsuccessfully tried to chase us away..then we went back downstairs to blatantly watch and got waved away..haha again unsuccessfully but we eventually left. we saw joyce and geena, who were having chinese in the classroom opposite where street dance was rehearsing, watching eric dance too =D

looks like PUNCH will be clock in the most number of hours in school these few weeks, expect maybe for the carpenters. haha thanks for dinner tonight kia liang!! there's audition for concert and SYF tomorrow morn before practice..sigh hope i don't make stupid mistakes or sound weirdly gross. i shall make an attempt to find my healthy voice tomorrow and impress everyone! yay.....ok i'm going back to mug scores. goodnight =p

resuscitated

2007-03-28T23:34:00.000+08:00

heyyy!! it's been quite a while since i blogged, not counting msn spaces. anyway here's the new template, hope it looks good. i'll be blogging more often from now on..hopefully, oh and please do leave a message or something on my tagboard =p

anyway this period is kinda hectic, got lots of stuff to do, especially with concert coming up and SYF and everything. *RJC Chorale concert: Born To Sing. 14th April 2007, 7.30pm, RJC LT1, $7/- free seating* relatively short concert but bope it turns out good! realised how much choir means to me when was thinking about joining other CCAs instead of chorale. and i miss rv :( i miss all my juniors so badly that i spent 1 night looking through all my photos of rv activities instead of doing homework..sigh. it was really great to see them and mix with them again when some of us crashed their march camp :) hope the sec 4s aren't annoyed at us interfering. hehe.

came back from class adventure camp yesterday feeling particularly down and emo..especially this morning. no idea why..maybe coz i haven't exactly been the best friend to my classmates and only experienced how much everyone cares for everyone else in class during the camp. had loads of fun at jalan bahtera camp site doing rope elements and declaring war. and like i managed to do all the high elements despite my lifelong fear of heights :D really cool experience. that was party coz of the encouragement from the rest of the class too tho. they were a great encouragement in times of need and we never cease to amuse ourselves and others. seeing them this morning, i couldn't help unemoing and smiling. thank God for the best class ever...

oh yesterday after we got back from camp a few of us were stoning around waiting to go for class dinner (i wanted to go but got dragged back home) so decided to go watch eric doing his street dance =) haha..then we were sitting opposite the dance group and watching and pretending not be watching and he caught us spying (although we were being very inconspicuous about it XD) and we were laughing a lot. lol then siang huat and his campaign group walked past and gave us some funny look (haha maybe coz he lost his voice so couldnt shout to us from downstairs) which was quite amusing. we were half expecting him to blow his pink whistle at us :)

today was rather dull..i suppose after having camp during school term, lessons don't seem as fun anymore. so during chem tutorial i was falling asleep coz of the 4 hours sleep per day i'd been getting, so i took out a sweet to chew on so i could actually listen to what was going on, then when i was unwrapping it (with much difficulty coz apparently hi-chew sweets stick to the wrapper) i dozed off..ahahaha...and i snapped out of my temporary dream-state in like 2 seconds to realise i was still gripping the sweet wrapper with the sweet. heh heh ok nvm -.-

that's all for my first post after the 2 year sabbatical from blogging. need to pay off the sleep debt. goodnight for now (:

revitalised

2005-03-19T22:46:00.000+08:00

my tagboard's finally quite active..after a long time..lol..anywayz i feel quite good todae..ok maybe not excellent as in if theres no homework to do or projects to finish..but relatively better than usual..haha..but the coming wk's not gonna be slack..there's hw to be done, projects to be finished, research proposals to be emailed..auditions to..erm..survive..ok wdv....

there's been some problems with republishing my blog after editing the template..dunno why..so i have to like relogin before i can republish..so sian..yeah so i've linked more pple..pple i didnt think would have blogs..lol..im gonna try to upload my own music so can change my background song..it's getting quite boring..especially when you refresh and refresh and refresh when testing the html..haiz..ok gtg continue i-learning..........

bz

black & white

2005-03-18T22:29:00.000+08:00

haha..this skin makes my blog look very..classy?/modern?..anywayz i think it looks better than the previous one..its like..more classy?/modern?..ok i shouldnt repeat myself..

im just chatting with julian..and we just found out we share the same birthdae..dunno why it took so long to figure..ok actually i knew like since last year..haha..and he just found out..haha..so he's argueing something about i having HIS birthdae..*rolls eyes*..lol..wadeva lah..oh and he just tagged my blog..wonder what........better go check it out :P okok dunno wad he's doing to my blog..im gonna correct..wadeva hes doing..EEK! kk later dudes.....

finally

2005-03-18T11:18:00.000+08:00

i've finally been able to change my skin..woot..i could'nt wait for the designer to reply so i just fiddled around with the html and managed to fix the problem! yay..its quite nice now..just that my clock thingy that used to follow the cursor around doesn'y appear anymore..so sad..i wanted change to another type of cursor but decided against it coz it won't fit in with this new skin..haha..anywayz gtg do geog/physics i-learning..maybe i'll blog again later..cyaz

yet another..

2005-03-17T21:01:00.000+08:00

its another dae..actually dae 4 to be precise..of the march hols.....

there was choir again todae..not a good thing when you wake up in the morning and find a sudden loss of voice..but anyhow i went to school..and still had auditions..coz if i didnt have it todae it'd be quite troublesome next practice and..yeah..so i just tried my best..got good score..tho it ended a little flat..just like all the other groups..lol..this is like the billionth time we've had auditions this year..maybe the third or fourth time for this song..sigh..and there's another audition on mondae........ok i won't say anymore..

anywayz i found a nice skin for a makeover for this dull blog..but there's a major problem with where the entries are supposed to be..so i just emailed the designer to help me fix the problem..hopefully will be able to get it changed by tml so my blog will have a nicer/cleaner look =D check in tml to see if i've finally been able to change it.....goodnight then

bz

dae 2: still surviving...

2005-03-15T21:24:00.000+08:00

ok forgetting what i said about not blogging todae, i decided to..coz..i dunno..jus because..

anywayz i've decided to change my blog skin..coz this one's quite dull..and boring..so im gonna change to a brighter/happier/less dull skin! ok im going to find a really nice one now..wait before that i'll just comment on lemony snicket's a series of unfortunate events......

ok the movie's about these 3 children (the Baudelaire children - Violet, Klaus, and Sunny) whose parents died in a fire in the house while they were at the beach or something..so the cause of the fire was unknown..then the 3 children were sent to live with their "closest relative"; Count Olaf. He's an eccentric guy who adopted them because he wanted the Baudelaire fortune (their home was a mansion of some sort..so i guess they were reasonably rich..). oh yeah btw violet is a BRILLIANT inventor (and i mean BRILLIANT), klaus is an avid reader and remembers everything he reads, and sunny is an infant but can bite like almost everything. but then events happened then the children complained about the Count or something along that line (one of which is he parked the car with the children inside on a train track with the train coming, hoping they would get squashed so he could get their family's fortune), so they were sent to live with uncle monty, this guy whos nuts over snakes and toads and creepy stuff like that..haha..so then he wanted to bring them to peru the next day..for some reason i didnt really get..but then the Count came disguised as ths italian guy uncle monty had invited to come help him..(he tied the real guy to the front of a train). then things happened..then uncle monty found out he was the count..then at night olaf went to kill him lah..then frame the snake..!? ok then they were sent to live with aunt josephine, a very paranoid woman (and very grammatical too)..like she told them not to touch the doorknob coz it may shatter into a million pieces and blind her..or dont go near the fridge..coz it may topple over and squash them..stuff like that..then came along count olaf again..then things happened then aunt josephine went to hide in a cave..then the count..dunno wad happened to him lah..then some more things happened..then the house (on the edge of a high cliff overlooking the sea) was hit by a hurricane..then like all the things aunt josephine warned them about (doorknob, fridge...) all came through lah..but then thanks to violet's brilliance they escaped..then went to rescue the aunt..then the count found them again coz the sea leeches attacked their teeny boat..so then the count pretend to save klaus from the leeches..then the mr poe (some person in charge of the children) thought he was ok..so sent them back to live with him..then he found out he can only get the money if he's married or violet is 18..so he went to stage a performance (coz hes an actor?) called the marvelous marriage..then he acted as the groom and violet as the bride..then he got a real justice of the peace to act too..so she was forced to do it coz he locked sunny in a cage then threatened to let her fall to her death if she refused..so they acted..then although seemed like they were acting, it was actually real..so they sign evrythng..then olaf was like very smug and everything in front of the audience..then say they cant do anything to him etc..but then klaus managed to climb up to the tower where sunny was suspended outside of..then freed her..then olaf's stupid accomplice was hanging outside onto the cage when klaus was done with him..then he found this huge magnifying glass shaped like an eye (throughout the story he picked up clues about his parents death and the fire) so he linked that to the clues he found and everything became clear..how olaf used it to set fire on many people's houses..so then he used it to burn the marriage paper thingy olaf was like waving around so no more proof of marriage..then the audience go gang him lah..then he was brought to justice! so then they decided that he should go through everything he made the children suffer (sit in the locked car on a railway track with a train coming, get attacked by leeches in the sea blah blah...) but somehow he managed to vanish....then the baudelaire orphans were sent to another relative's house to stay..but on the way there, they stopped by their old burnt house, then found a letter their parents sent them quite a while ago when they were in Europe with a spyglass (the spyglass had something to do with passing of rites or dunno wad lah..)..then quite touching lah..then they went on..so the end..

thats about it for the movie...had quite a good time...i'd definitely recommend it...haha..ok gtg find a nice new skin now!

bz

dae 1: bored..

2005-03-14T21:01:00.000+08:00

ok dis first part is mainly directed at jia en who thinks march hols n i-learning wk will be a good and restful break..maybe thats coz he jus transfered frm catholic high this year so wont know whats looming..sry if i sound harsh coz im not..haha..relax k?

1) there IS/WILL BE tons of tons of hw..
2) you will be too caught up in doing hw to be able to relax..im serious
3) if you dont start work early (lyk todae) then you'll find yourself rushing to finish hw towards the end of i-learning wk and maybe fall ill
4) its not really a holidae coz there's TOO MUCH WORK TO DO
5) i cant think of anythng else now but I GOT A SLIGHT SORETHROAT! (ok thats not really relevant...)

ok ANYWAYZ tml going out to watch movie before choir in the afternoon (thats why im going work now ok!) watching lemony snicket's a series of unfortunate events..should be quite nice..so im meeting gerald (maybe kia liang and yisheng) for breakfast somewhere in j8 first then got some secret stuff to do (muahaha i shant tell you what..mayb next time ;D) then catch the 10.50am show..then after that go for lunch then go to sch for choir..ok since i've more or less summed up tml's events i'll probably not blog tml =P ok lets go back to complaining about i-learning wk...

for some reasons sch likes to dump lots and lots of hw on us during march hols + i-learning..so basically like any other holidae (mayb except for december hols) we DO NOT have much/any time to relax/go out/shake a leg/wave a hand (?!) so its quite stressful..not that im complaining..do i sound like im complaining? no rite? GOOD..so then this year have to post a message on the forum for EACH subject answering whatever question the teachers post.......ok nvm..enought about that...

RE. MY 1*BEEP*2 RE GROUP MEMBERS ARE PRACTICALLY NEXT TO USELESS! apart from existing and breathing precious oxygen they cant/wont/dont do anything for our RE project..ok mayb 1 of them did something..insignificant but its still something..the other 2 r really useless..IM NOT SORRY FOR SAYING THAT COZ ITS TRUE! really lah..they dont do a single measly little thing to contribute..so like for the research and everything else rite, i did. then ask them to do, then they say never hear/see (on msn msgr). ok FINE, so nex meeting tell them to DO research, PRINT OUT research, BRING research to school. *next meeting* WHERES YOUR RESEARCH!!! oh i did but didnt bring. WHAT THE _____ (fill in the blank with the most suitable word(s)) need i say more? (or moor..haha a pun!) is it too late to change group? some more we're/I'm doing bio mentorship project..then the mentor (GM of quintech) wants the proposal in ASAP (that was on wednesday) so she can reply and arrange the next meeting..so the proposal now is stil not touched..because these 3 people think they're in limbo..nothing to do..so i'll probably be the one doing EVERYTHING again..just like the past 5 years..i cant believe this..then every year i hear the same thing; its good practice, then next time you'll know how to carry out similar projects and increase your knowledge etc etc...why do i ALWAYS end up choosing these type of project groups..i mean for like RE type of projects..sigh..so freaky..

oh well..anyhow, dunno how but time really flew past this afternoon..i was trying to do maths performance task 2 coz LZ asked me to help him do Q2d, then i decided i might as well do the whole thing from the beggining..then somehow in between i ended up asking him how to do the other questions..wierd..so in the end i still cant help him with his question..maybe i'll go figure it out later..

ok gtg do work now..so i wont feel so guilty tml when i go out =D gdnite then..

bz

term end! hols? i dun think so...

2005-03-12T16:59:00.000+08:00

finally found opportunity to blog..sigh..its finally term end, restful wk (or 2) ahead? yeah rite..its i-learning wk after march hols..if u can call it that. so anywayz its been quite a gd wk i guess..but mayb thats coz i cant rmbr much already..brain dead..haha..but can stil rmbr sum stuff..this entry is quite long coz its basically an overview of the whole wk so try to kp awake if you still wanna read......

mondae: half dae..so had assembly program which i cant rmbr was wat..so then was bio..nothing interesting..then after dat supposed to go home..but then had to stay back 4 physics n choir..so jus slack til abt 10.30 then went downstairs with chris n philbert n dunno who..met yeow hua n dunno who again..then chat chat..then met joseph chong..then discussed RE lyk overtime..so we were late 4 physics..abt 10min, but nvm..t.lai didnt start on anythng much yet..oh yeah then joseph chong asked me to pass "wattle" (haha sry walter..) his consent form 4 'viva la italia'..seems lyk quite a few pple i noe going on italy learning journey..INCLUDING LZ..so sad..too bad they couldnt go nz..then would've been really fun..but its their decision..
after physics had choir, which i was lyk 1 hr late 4..so did sunset n baylero..syf grp only lah..but standard not excellent..yet..then after dat went with yisheng geoff n jorel 4 lunch at kfc..long time nvr go out to eat..i mean after sch..yeah..

tuesdae: only thing i can rmbr is physics test..had concept map 1st..but lyk mine was quite plain..coz not enough time to finish..then main paper was quite ok..i hope..oh yeah..this was a really really bad dae..also got back bio test i think..did really badly..coz of that taxonomy table lah..minus 4 mks..argh forget it..then had sum other stuff i really dun wanna rmbr now..

wednesdae: got back geog test..did really badly again..coz i didnt understand the diagram..i did study..jus dat i couldnt make sense of the diagram..sigh..then during RE met mentors in visitors lounge..then discuss..then my grp members (ugh) didnt do anythng as usual..so i had to do evrythng..now ask them do proposal also dun want..is it too late to change grp? anywayz then mentors tok tok..then quite late liaoz..coz had to go support tennis finals..then joseph chong came..(thank God) then said we had to go rite? so ask us to go first..so quickly rush to meet class under clocktower..then quickly ate a handroll (4 lunch..) which lasted me frm morn to dinner..then got on bus to kallang tennis stadium (i think thats wat its called) ..by the time we got there the matches had already started..so went 2 support sylvester's match first..not bad..won first game..then thought he had it going..then lost nex 2 sets..not that he played badly or anything..first he got a cramp..then dunno lah..but his opponent was quite good..oh btw it was between RI & ACS(I). so in between went 2 support different matches..chee jun won his game..only one who won..gd job..then the ac pple were lyk booing him coz he was frm acsi..lol..such lousy sportsmanship :D then saw david lu and adrian play doubles..didnt see much tho..but they lost too..then there was another doubles..dunno who..then last match was cheng jie vs another guy..they're all gd lah..i guess..cant really tel = so during sylvester's match, we were lyk sitting/standing there just looking lah..i was standing..haha..but that's not important..then benson (prefect/tennis player) came scolded us coz "you all have been sitting here for 2 hrs already and not a single cheer." then he saw this guy reading a book then said "you boy why dont you take your book and go home. you're not needed here. you're not doing anything. you're just taking up our space. just go home lah"..then 'just call me stanley' said something stupid lah..i suppose we deserved that..but not really fair lah..no one wanted to lead the cheer..then benson should've just lead coz he's a prefect and everything..so i mean we just continued to watch the match lah..then benson decided to move a few of us to the other match to support..so just go lor..then he 'recruited' some more people..oh yeah..during the second game, sylvester suddenly collapsed halfway..quite scary..got cramp..but he still gave his best lah..even the newspaper reported something lyk after a crushing cramp (sry cant rbmr wad it said :P) he managed to score some more points and caught up from 4-1 to 4-5..but still lost..but wat matters is he tried his best..gd job syl! ok enough of that..when we were watching the cheng jie match kaiyang came..then he started leading some cheers (as a good assistent head prefect should do =)) cheng jie wasnt bad..but lost lah..most importantly is all of our players tried their best..i hope..
so after the matches had prize presentation..then acsi got gold n we got silver..oh yeah i met louis, jun en (tennis), eu gene(tennis and yes i spelt his name correctly)and tried looking for gareth (tennis too) but couldnt find him..then did cheers n stuff..then sang school song..then did some more cheers..then left with ian, jon, jia en, bryan, zhunwen n cant rmbr who else..then walked 1 whole round to the bus stop..quite stupid lah..lol..then met chong min, zhuang yi n sum other guys at the bus stop..then zw got sian of walking around..so took a cab home..haha..so we took bus to kallang station..then took mrt home..jon n i changed at city hall then took to bishan..and thats about all for wednesday....

thusdae: maths test..at first skipped question 1b and c to do other questions first..then last question last part got stuck halfway..so just left it..tried to do bonus question 1..gave up..was scanning thru paper then saw that empty part..then i was lyk ARGH!!! (not out loud lah..) so was going to quickly do it..but then tan mui hong said stop..so no hope lah..thats 2 mks gone for nothing..then realised bonus question 2 was quite easy..2 mks..should've done that first..DAMN! anywayz was quite hysterical after that..then started hyperventilating..lol..but im still alive..cant rmbr anything else that happened this dae so i'll just forget it..haha

fridae: fridae!!! yay..last dae of term..had SS test last period..was quite ok..just that there was quite little time to do 2 questions, 1 10 mks 1 15 mks..so could've written more..but dun care lah..haha..sry lah..not my fault rite..so after that was track and field..changed into moor tshirt (new one) then went for lunch in canteen first..with jon and joshua..but ended up eating with chris and kai bin..then was pressured into buying bubble tea (green tea bubble tea sucks btw) by philbert and yeow hua for their fish sig (*rolls eyes*) then just wandered around..then finally went to sit down in moor side..i mean the place where moor house was situated..then track and field started! basically was quite fun..lim jeenee was quite lame over the mic lah..haha..so cheered our hearts out..well MOST of us (rite jon and ian and benoi?!?) our U15 and U17 runners were good..so won a few races and those 2 relays..ok then throughout the event a certain some1(s) was/were going around collecting/buying other houses' stuff..so annoying..its called herd instinct..usually popular among COWS..so when everything ended there was prize presentation..but first there was a final cheering competition..buckley, bayley and morrison's cheers werent vry original..so the main competition was hullett, which was quite good..but unfortunately for them we were better..sigh..so we won the cheering comp..then prize presentation..then whenever moor won something we HAD to say "well done MAMAs!"..err..btw MAMA stands for Moor attitude more altitude..and whenever buckley won something they would do some cheer too..just that it was really hilarious..which i found out only after they did it a few times..well actually si en and other pple were laughing at JT coz he was one of the leaders of the cheers..so i guess he didnt really know the cheers..so he always look at the others..then quite lag..then look quite blur too..haha..sry its not personal..but quite funny..
overall the standings were: 5th - buckley (as usual..so sad..coz martina ong is house mistress for buckley) 4th - morrison, 3rd - hullett (the hullett exco was quite disappointed..walter for example..coz they will be known as the exco who ended the 6 yr winning streak for T&F..try harder next time!) 2nd - MOOR!!! (yay..its the first time in a long long time we actually got 2nd..coz we've always gotten 3rd..lol) and finally 1st - bayley (WOW!! first time in 16 yrs they got first..they've always gotten 4th around there....nice....well too bad they have to wait another 16 yrs or so to win T&F again =D)
after that house mistress congratulated the exco and whoever..then pointed out that last yr's captain and vice captain had come back to witness the events..haha..so after that sang the house anthem..then dismissed..then saw that lyk no one was staying back to lyk help clear the place of unnecessary objects lying on the seats/floor..so i jus helped to pick up lah..aiyoh..got so much trash lor..then i collected lyk wat must be 5 program booklets lah..which i threw away obviously..ok wadeva..then zhuang yi and his frenz went for LAN..it was 6.10..ooooookkkkkkkk..so after that just took bus with qi han then went home..the end

ok i shall add an extra dae (today) coz some stuff happened...

saturdae: woke up at 8.30..then went to thomson plaza..bought some stationary..then looked around..k700i price dropped to 268..then realised BEST doesnt sell sony ericson phones..dunno why..then bought new cordless phones for home..then went to sembawang to look at cds..there was this nice cd they were playing..greatest love hits or wadeva..quite nice..the SONGS were nice..got celine dion, mariah carey, josh groban, phil collins etc..then saw the chloe cd i heard them playing last time..her voice very good..but other pple (lyk linus) wont lyk it..coz its more classical..anywayz didnt buy either cd..not in the mood..then went back to BEST to look at mp3s..i wont elaborate..but i'll only get 1 (apple ipod) if i do well for CT1..mayb? ok nvm..then had lunch at da pai dang..the chinese eating place..then met ms chiang and her daughter there..tho she didnt look surprised when i went to say hi..mayb she saw me walk in..hm..then spilt soya sauce on my hand..haiz..so after that just went home..then bathed my dog..then did stuff until now then remembered to blog..so thats abt it..

these 2 wks will be even busier than normal sch wks..coz there's a ton of hw including i-learning..they always pack lots of stuff into i-learning..so evil..especially chinese..oh but IM NOT COMPLAINING..well at least not yet..then have quite a few practices for syf..lyk tues and thur..then mon-thurs during i-learning..so i'll be quite busy..must start work early..ok well i gtg now..spent lyk an hr blogging liaoz..haha..so cyaz!

74!?

2005-03-04T22:39:00.000+08:00

yay mr mag finally gave us half dae on mondae! so its just assembly n bio..den can go home..but as usual its not e case..at least 4 a lot of pple..1st supposed 2 stay back 4 ss test, but den j.s. said postpone 2 fridae..yay so gd..den t.lai say stay back after sch 2 do revision..den 10.30 hv choir prac 4 syf grp..so 1pm den can go home..so fun..but cant complain..other classes lyk 3C i think hv 4hrs of make-up lessons..phew..buy physics..dunno leh..coz its a combined class 4 advanced physics..n 3H guys hv SS test after sch too..n combined with 4 other classes..i msgd t.lai but she nvr reply..yet..haha

so as u can c its not really a half dae..oh yeah after physics (if there is) i hv 2 meet j.chong 4 RE 4 short discussion b4 choir..so den told him we had physics den choir, den he also complain since lyk almost evry1 hv make-up lessons wads e pt of having half dae, might as well not hv..den mondae will lk lyk a normal sch dae..n wadeva lah..

so anywayz during recess me chris yong jing n tze wei helped man e NZ LJ table..so got quiz questions if dey answer all correctly get a bar of crunch or sweets..I WANTED A CRUNCH! ..but not enough..haiz..so sad =( haha den got a lot of pple sign up lah..not confirmed but jus write name down..so anywayz walter n greg n isaac n sum other pple i noe signed up too! haha..n convinced LZ 2 sign up too..hopefully can go! haha..yay..but den dis time got quite a lot of pple..4 all lvs..so will b quite different frm last yr..but shld b really fun all e same..haha..so altogether got abt 74 pple sign up..wow..haha..but i think less den 1/3 will actually go lah..

den jus now had maths tuition..den beginning of lesson dis DAMN GREENY BEETLE THINGY LANDED ON MY SHOULDER! so i shook e stupid thing of me DEN IT FELL ONTO MY TABLE! den i pushed e incredibly disgusting bug with my pen..den E DAMN THING SUMHOW FELL INTO MY CUP OF WATER! stupid...so i quickly covered it with a tissue n put a bk on top..stupid thing..so after lesson i tried 2 suffocate it by drowning it..but den it found a air space..crap..so i jus flushed it down e toilet! yay..dats 1 bug less in e world..haha..

so now watching survivor n MIB 2..haha..so interesting..ok gtg concentrate on watching..cyaz!

just forget it...

2005-03-01T18:40:00.000+08:00

hi guys..or whoever may b reading dis..sry bout e previous entry..wasnt feeling exceptionally lighthearted..anywayz 4get it..

its another stressful wk..quite depressing too..especially when u dun do vry well 4 geog tests....im not complaining lah chris..its true wad..wadeva lah..ok so we had auditions yesterdae coz toh didnt come..so it was lyk only borderline passes of e previous audition n failures (as in failed auditions) had 2 reaudition lah..but i think coz they realised julian was quite lenient with our section's auditions n no1 failed so e whole section had 2 reaudition..sum more dis time it was 1 person per section each time..quite scary at 1st lah..but after a while was ok..coz only got lyk..6 SLs there..i noe all too anywayz..haha..so ok lorz..i got same mk as last audition..even tho julian got stricter :D so now draw with aruun..lol..but 3 pple failed..so cant take part in syf..(chris bojian n ryan i think..dun giv up! may stil hv chance..) so now toh will only work with syf grp..

den 2dae had 2 hand up chem file, check bio file, n bio test..was doing e 2 files 4 abt 2hrs+ last nite..haiz..bio test was quite ok lah..jus dat there was question on taxonomy table..supposed 2 fill in e explanation part n wdv..but didnt noe how 2 explain lah..jus sort of guessed frm other parts..nvm if u dun understand dis..haha

stil dun really understand light..(physics) but hv 2 rd up lah..a lot of rushing 2 hand up physics exercises..argh dun say anymore..later sum pple say i complaining again..lolx..i'll jus end with dis song..sort of describes how i feel sumtimes..more now den previously....

That Lonesome Road
Walk down that lonesome road all by yourself
Don't turn your head back over your shoulder
And only stop to rest yourself when the silver moon
Is shining high above the trees

If I had stopped to listen once or twice
If I had closed my mouth and opened my eyes
If I had cooled my head and warmed my heart
I'd not be on this road tonight

Carry on
Never mind feeling sorry for yourself
It doesn't save you from your troubled mind
Walk down that lonesome road all by yourself
Don't turn your head back over your shoulder
And only stop to rest yourself when the silver moon
Is shining high above the trees

reminiscence

2005-02-26T22:12:00.000+08:00

sry ok..i didnt mean it..i wasnt trying 2 pry or anythng..jus dat u sounded so..frustrated? nvm..

e pressure's too much..dunno whether i shld go ahead with it..i noe i've already said i will..but..its lyk i cant seem 2 b able 2 go thru with it..n at e same time i cant back down coz its already been arranged..i really dont noe....

its hasnt exactly been smooth sailing..u dont noe how i feel at all..im not wat i always seem..pple hv their low pts in life u noe..sry if u find it irritating or anythng..n i wasnt shouting..i jus wan sumone 2 tok 2....

was just going thru my pics..seeing e pics of justina's last dae at sch brot back really gd memories..but vry sad too..shes now in the states doing her degree..den looked thru my last yr entries..didnt want 2 rd e 1 abt justina's last dae at sch..really cant bear 2 rmbr those times..gd times i guess..really..cant help but feel moments of loneliness....

dun feel lyk going on anymore..sry bout dat..jus cant bring myself 2 continue....

Against All Odds
How can I just let you walk away
Just let you leave without a trace
When I stand here taking
Every breath with you
You're the only one
Who really knew me at all

How can you just walk away from me
When all I can do is watch you leave
'Cause we've shared the laughter and the pain
And even shared the tears
You're the only one
Who really knew me at all

So take a look at me now
'Cause there's just an empty space
And there's nothing left here to remind me
Just the memory of your face
Take a look at me now
Oh there's just an empty space
And you coming back to me is against all odds
And that's what I've got to face

I wish I could just make you turn around
Turn around and see me cry
There's so much I need to say to you
So many reasons why
You're the only one
Who really knew me at all

So take a look at me now
'Cause there's just an empty space
And there's nothing left here to remind me
Just the memory of your face
Take a look at me now
Oh there's just an empty space
But to wait for you is
All I can do
And that's what I've got to face

Take a good look at me now
'Cause l'll still be standing here
And you coming back to me is against all odds
That's the chance I've got to take

Take a look at me now

exhausted =|

2005-02-25T22:32:00.000+08:00

its been a loooong wk..physics test..geog test..n sum more i cant rmbr..vry tired..anywayz 2dae was quite slack. 1st was english..did a compre..ok lah..quite doable..shld b able 2 score well..den was maths..continued quadratic functions..den recess..went with zw 2 snack machine..found it swamped with sec 1/2s..so sian..den wait wait..den e stooopid machine didnt return me my 60c change..dun care lah..cant b bothered anymore..sry lah..den went back 2 class n ran around..(NOT literally) den was chinese..kennard n hao yang came back lyk 15 min late coz they went dialogue session..den mdm ong gave another ying yong wen..after we jus passed up 1 2dae..haiz..den after dat was SS..best period of e dae..coz JS had sumthng on so couldnt come in..so we basically jus fooled around lah..den yong jing attached (?) tze wei's zen touch 2 e projector n speakers so we could listen 2 music n play n wadeva..(ok nex part prefects dun rd hor) so got pple playing bridge with uno cards..legal? i dunno..i guess...den got pple playing hp..den got pple lyk chris zhao n zw n me listening 2 mp3..den run around sum more..den finish..school

den ate early lunch at canteen with zw, syl, yong jing, chris, tze wei, kennard, n sum other pple..den went 4 RE..den finish den go home..den on way back chinese tuitor called ask y i not back yet..den i was lyk!?!? u said u come around 3.30 - 4.30 den suddenly say 2.30!?!?!? i jus on way home lorz..ok den nvm..quikly rush home den got it over with..den rest a while den had piano..asked charlene 2 help me do improvisation..den ate early dinner den had maths tui..7.30 - abt 9.50..den finally can rest liaoz..sigh..so tired..now watching survivor..yeah..wadeva..so dats it lorz..

sch life now vry hectic..so bz..1 of my high pts in sch i guess is choir prac..n fooling around with frenz lah..next wk's another hectic wk..lots of tests..n other stuff..another wk..den another wk..den march hols..den i-learning..not much 2 lk forward 2..coz hols wil b taken up by hw n stuf..as usual..argh forget it..dats 4 me 2 worry abt later..oh well..bye 4 now den..gdnite.....